Unforeseen Attraction
By: K-c
A/N:sigh: Here is chappie 9! Now, before you go ahead and read it, PLEASE LISTEN TO ME! This chappie is going to be very strange and seem out of place. You must understand one thing about what Kairi is feeling in this chappie: she feels like her life has took a turn for the worse and that she is willing to throw it away . . .So . . .just so you know and not freak out. Um . . .here ya go!
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this fic . . .
Ch. 9: Losing Grip"Gravity attracts all things on this planet to one another . . ."
Kairi's POV:
"Oh, Kairi! What the hell is wrong with you! Why would you do something like that?" Selphie shouted in disapproval, from on top of her bed. The pillow that she was holding in her arms fell to the ground as her hands started to shake. She looked utterly petrified as she stared at me with her big green eyes. I shifted in my position on the floor and didn't say a word. I had a hard time even looking her in the eyes. Yes, it was true that I felt horrible about what I did . . .I didn't need every person I encountered to tell me so . . .
"Is this really my best friend? You don't seem like it . . .the Kairi I know would never hold a knife to somebody's neck . . .especially not Riku's . . ."
Her little phrases were greeted by more dark silence. I didn't know what to say to her . . .I had told her everything about what happened . . .God . . .what is wrong with me? I'm losing grip on everything so suddenly . . .They're driving me insane . . .Sora and Riku are driving me crazy like this . . .
Selphie fell down to her knees in front of me off of her bed. I still did not look at her, but I wanted so much to convince her that I'm the same girl that she befriended in 2nd grade . . .She leaned forward and hugged me tightly, despite the blood she was going to get all over her pink pajamas. I cried into her shoulder, relieving some of the bottled misery I held inside of my heart. Is this what I really want? Do I want to continue to force my mind to dwell constantly on the thought of Riku and Sora? Why can't I just forget them? This has gone far enough . . .and even too far . . .I have to stop acting like this . . .but I just feel so horrible right now . . .I wouldn't care if the world stopped spinning at this moment . . .I would be too blind and numb to notice the change anyway . . .
"Kairi . . .what are you going to do now?" Selphie asked me softly, after she had pulled away from our embrace. I wiped my eyes on my sweatshirt and got even more dirt on my face from it. Her emerald eyes were shining with tears and I almost thought that I could see my own reflection in them. She sniffed down a sob and waited for my answer. I took a deep and shallow breath.
"I just want to forget this all . . ." I whispered quietly, looking back to her carpeted floor. The thoughts that had been running through my mind had finally ceased, causing great relief on my behalf. I just wanted to stop thinking . . .the only things I thought were about them . . .
"This is going to sound odd . . .but let's go drink it away . . ." I looked up at Selphie when she said this. What the hell was she thinking? Why would she suddenly and spontaneously suggest going to a bar and getting drunk? It certainly did seem odd . . .but if it was a way to forget about what happened . . .it was logical . . .I nodded my head and Selphie stood to her feet and reached out a hand to help me up too. I grabbed it hesitantly and she pulled me to my feet. I stood there for a moment, watching her scurry around her room looking for something to wear and muttering to herself.
After what seemed like five seconds, a pink mini skirt was thrown at my face. I caught it and looked down at it in my hands. It was a pale pink from what I saw in the meager moonlight with a soft texture to it. Around the top of it was a black belt with a heart on it. Before I could say anything to her, a white tie-on belly shirt was chucked at me also. I glanced back up at Selphie who was now standing in a skimpy black skirt with lace thigh-high stockings and a red mid-drift bearing halter-top. She looked like a whore . . .and . . .I guess that I will too when I put this on.
"Yea . . .you can wear that tonight . . . you can't honestly think that you're gonna show up at a bar wearing a blood-covered school uniform, do you?" She smiled at me, pointing to my outfit. I smiled back. I was already beginning to forget about what had happened by the friendliness of my best friend in the world. I zipped down my jacket and tossed it on the floor beside me. Then, pulling off my shirt, I tied on the white top. It was kind of tight around the chest because Selphie was flatter than I was, but it fit snugly all the same. I tugged down my blue skirt and pulled up the pink one. I walked over to the mirror resting against the far wall to see myself. I looked good . . .besides the fact that I was pale as ever and my collarbone bright red.
"Um . . .we need to cover that up . . . " Selphie said, indicating my red chest. She turned her back to me at her closet and started to rummage around more in it until she brandished a long, black scarf with tassels on the ends. She handed it over to me and I wrapped it around my neck and let the front ends dangle in front me. It had worked . . .it covered up my cut perfectly. Selphie looked in the mirror with me and nodded her head in a pleased way. "Much better!" she exclaimed happily.
Since her mother was away on a business trip and her father was still working the night shift, we exited through her front doors, but not before Selphie slipping on her strappy boots. I didn't need to borrow boots of hers . . .I was still wearing the ones from earlier. We stepped out into the cool night air and I felt goosebumps rise up on my arms and legs. Selphie, however, marched on to her car and walked around to the driver's seat. I stepped over to the passenger side and pulled open the door. I stooped inside of her small blue car and sat down on its' leather seats. Selphie stuck her keys into the ignition and turned it with a rev of the engine. She backed out of her driveway and we started to speed down the road that runs along the woods to the nearby bar across the forest.
After a bit, we pulled up in front of the neon lighted building with the words "Coco Craze" glowing in the darkness of the night. Inside the building through the windows I could see shadows moving about, but not that many. It didn't look too crowded for a Thursday night. Selphie pulled to a stop in the parking lot and opened her door. I opened mine and stepped lightly out from within. A gentle breeze blew through my hair and lifted up my skirt for the thousandth time this night.
Selphie started to stroll directly towards the bar and I ran to catch up to her side. She paused by the door while we were standing in the neon light and looked at me. A smile slowly crept onto her face and she gave me a look that said "Just relax". I smiled back at her and she pushed open the dirty door. A little bell tinkled from above it as we stepped inside and dim building. A large bar counter was along the far wall along with televisions hanging down from the ceiling. There were little tables and chairs along with them along the walls and in the center of the floor. Some hard rock music was playing from a radio in the corner by the pool table where four men were standing around playing a game. There was a woman sitting in a stool at the counter smoking a cigarette and three empty glasses around her. Nobody looked at us as we came into the room, but that didn't bother me.
My arm was tugged in the direction of the bar counter as Selphie walked over to it. I had no choice but to follow her. She sat down at a stool about five away from the other lady and I sat down on her right. From the back room came a tired looking woman with frizzed-out blonde hair and dark makeup. She lumbered over to where we were sitting and rested her elbow on the counter and looked at us expectantly. They didn't check for ID's here . . .but still . . .I've never been to a bar before so I had no idea what to order . . .
Selphie ordered some kind of martini and me, having no other idea what to get, got the same thing as she did. Selphie turned to look at me, surprise on her face. "You sure you're gonna get that? It's pretty strong . . ." she advised me. I shrugged my shoulders and gave her a grin.
"Oh whatever . . .I can handle it . . ." I told her reassuringly. She gave me another skeptical glance and turned her head to look at the other guys at the pool table. She's such a flirt . . .I knew which one she was checking out, though, it was the guy with the light blonde hair and blue eyes. He sort of resembled Tidus, which had immediately caught her attention. When will she learn!
The bartender came back from the back room with two martini glasses on a tray. She set down the tray and pushed the glasses towards us. The girl then marched away over to where the other lady sat and picked up her glasses. I stared down at my glass and observed it silently. It was a bright pink colour and had sugar around the edge of the glass. A blue straw stuck out of it and other stuff was inside of the drink. I glanced over at Selphie to get some kind of reassuring sign, but she was already sipping down her drink, a sour look crossing her face. She put down the glass and smacked her lips.
I picked up the glass carefully and lifted it to my face. A strong smell of sour strawberries filled my nose and I put the straw in my mouth. I sipped up the tiniest bit of the drink and tasted it. It did have a sour and tangy taste. It was extremely strong and made my eyes water in a way, but I took a longer draw from it. When I put the glass down, Selphie was looking at me and smiled.
"Told you it was strong . . ." she said to me smartly. I gave her a wise ass smirk and picked it back up for another drink to prove her wrong. After I had finished the glass, I could already start to feel the alcohol take its effect on my mind. I started to feel light-headed and dizzy in a way. I giggled as I put the glass back down on the smooth ebony counter. Selphie was grinning at me like there was nothing wrong in her life. All of the thoughts about what had happened earlier were melting away into a river of nothing. We ordered two more drinks.
LATER . . .
"So . . .anyway . . ." Selphie slurred out after putting down her fourth glass. I giggled and spat out the last mouthful of the drink over the counter. My mind was spinning and I felt absolutely great. I could stay here for hours! "You know what? Tidus has a good ass, you know it? I mean . . .take a picture of the damn thing and put it on your wall!" I nodded my head in agreement even though I had no idea what she had just said to me. I laughed hysterically when she burped loudly. The blonde bartender strolled by us and picked up our glasses looking very irritated. I giggled feebly again and ordered another drink.
"So how are you with Riku? I mean, you guys are totally strong, right?" she asked me with a slurred tone. I laughed again and almost fell off my chair. Selphie laughed hard and smacked me in the side of my head. I didn't feel any pain, but it only made me laugh harder.
"Yea, ya know. He's totally hot for me! I mean, it's kind of like Beauty and the Beast, ya know?" I slurred out quite loudly and picked up the other glass the bartender had lain down on the counter. I took a long sip from it and smacked my lips at the tangy taste. Selphie snorted into her glass.
"Wait, you saying you're the beauty? I thought you were the beast!" she yelled at me while laughing her head off. I smacked her head and giggled some more.
"Shut it, bitch!" I laughed. Selphie swayed around in her stool and then stopped and looked over to the doorway. The door had just opened and a guy with silver hair stood inside of the building. I stopped laughing and looked at him. Riku had a bandage around his neck and a little band-aide on his right cheek. He had dark circles under his eyes from lack of sleep and looked utterly pitiful. At the sight of him, I started to remember what had happened. I felt the anger boil up inside of me uncontrollably. I stood up from my stool and staggered over to where he stood. He looked at me with surprise, obviously not used to seeing me dressed like a whore in a bar.
"What are you doing here, Kairi?" he asked me calmly, even though I could detect some anger deep in his voice. I glared at him and pushed him weakly in the chest. He didn't fall back or anything, he just continued to stare at me with amazement. He knew I was drunk out of my mind and I didn't care.
"What does it look like I'm doing, huh?" I mumbled out at him. Riku sighed and shook his head. I thought I saw a small smirk on his lips, but I couldn't tell.
"God, you're fuckin' drunk . . ." He muttered under his breath, the smirk now very noticeable on his face. He looked both amazed at my outgoing spirit and disappointed all the same. I frowned at him and pushed him once again in the chest causing no effect. I heard Selphie giggle in the background. Riku put an arm around my shoulders and gently lead me over to a table nearby as if I was a child. I tried to wriggle out of his grasp, but to no avail; I had no control over my body. He sat me down in a small chair and he sat down across from me.
"God do I hate you . . ." I mumbled before I knew what I was saying. Riku's face turned pink with slight annoyance. I crossed my arms over my chest and pouted. My head started to spin again and I suddenly tried to grab for the table edge, but ended up grabbing Riku's cold hand. I pulled away hastily and glared at him.
"You think you can hurt me and then try to make it up by buying me a drink?" I slurred out at him hotly as he ordered a drink. He looked over at me, his face showing some serious annoyance by now. I didn't realize I was pissing him off . . .I couldn't even think straight.
"This is for me, dumb ass," he growled at me under his breath, giving me an icy glare with those beautiful aquamarine eyes. I wish he would close them . . .they were starting to give me a headache. I shook my head and smacked my hand on the table.
"You can't call me that!" I shouted at him, my face growing hot with anger. I didn't know what I was getting so mad about . . .I just felt like I wanted to scream at somebody and he was the first person in my sight. He gave me a look that said: 'sure I can, bitch'. This only made me even angrier.
The flustered and fatigued bartender returned with a glass in her hand. It was filled to the rim with a foamy liquid and I reached out to grab it, but Riku pulled it away from me and took a gulp of it right in front of my eyes. He put the glass back down on the table. My eyes followed a stream of the beer streaming down the glass side.
"This is definitely a side of you I've never seen before . . ." he said to me, almost examining my outfit and my expression. I scowled at him some more and pounded my fists into the table, stood up from my chair, and loomed over him, fury bubbling inside of me. He gave me another surprised look but nonchalantly took another drink from his glass, ignoring everything I was doing.
"You bastard! Aren't you going to do anything more than just stare at me!" I hollered at him. He still wouldn't look at me, but I feel the stares coming from the guys at the pool table, Selphie, and the bartender rolling her hazel eyes. Finally, after about two minutes of me breathing heavily and glaring down at him, he looked up at me with a bored look in his eyes.
"What do you want me to do?" He asked me quietly and coolly. His blasé attitude was driving me insane along with the relentless pounding of my head from all of the alcohol stored inside of my brain and body. I didn't know what I wanted him to do . . .I wanted him to slap me . . .or kiss me . . .my mind was so jumbled up in a bundle of confusion that I felt like I wasn't really there. Maybe I was an onlooker, peeking through the windows at my body doing all of these crazy stunts. Maybe this wasn't even me at all . . .
Riku stood up from where he was sitting as well so we were eye-to-eye and staring at each other. I could still feel the fury rising inside of me, but I couldn't find the strength to throw a punch or anything. His eyes weren't showing any anger, though; they still had that casual and almost pitying look to them. There was an awkward moment of silence as we continued to stare at each other, the sparks flying from his eyes to mine. Selphie giggled in the background once again and the guys at the pool table started to grab their coats to leave but none of this mattered. All I was focusing on was him.
The next thing I knew before I could truly register, warm lips were pressing onto mine. My drunk and drowning mind did the only thing it could . . .push back. Before long, it started to get serious and I had my arms around his neck and was pulling him closer to me from over the table. Selphie was whooping and hollering from somewhere faraway but I paid no attention to her whatsoever. I concentrated hard on what I was doing, letting my tongue gently slide with his. It was supposed to be a wonderful feeling, I presume, but the incessant pounding of my head made it more painful than pleasurable.
Riku sidled from out behind the table and pulled me along with him, still keeping his lips locked firmly on mine. I couldn't see where I was going, but I trusted that he wouldn't run me into a wall or something. Am I supposed to wonder why he is doing this to me? Am I supposed to be grateful and joyous that he's kissing me? Am I now supposed to love him from this point on because of this? Or is this just some silly little night?
What I realized next was that a cold breeze swept over me and we stepped outside onto the hard ground. The crickets in the nearby bushes chirped merrily and an owl hooted again from above. Riku was still kissing me brusingly hard and I needed to breathe. We continued to move awkwardly over to somewhere I couldn't see. I heard a small click of a car door handle and I was suddenly bent down and pulled inside of Selphie's car. I opened my eyes now and we broke away. I panted heavily, my heart racing at the thought of being with him . . .I closed the door.
In the darkness of the small car, I could just barely make out his glowing eyes and body structure. The neon light still shone above us, casting an eerie green light on the ground and around us. His eyes were boring into mine and I could hear his breath panting steadily. My head started to spin again but I stopped myself from throwing up. Riku was sitting in the drivers' seat and I was in the passenger. We stared at each other for another moment or so until I quickly grabbed his jacket collar and pulled him forcefully into the back seat. He thumped onto the seat and I crawled back to him. I laid on top of him and smiled seductively down at his beautiful face. He smirked back at me and pulled me closer to him by my hair.
We continued to kiss over and over again, not caring what the hell was going on in the world around us, just focusing on what we were doing. Even though my head still hurt like crazy, I didn't want to be anywhere else at the time. I ran my fingers through his hair gently, entwining them with his soft and silky locks. He ran his hands all over my back and then we rolled around and he was now on top of me. He continued to smile down at me and then pressed his lips firmly onto mine again and pushed my head back into the car seat painfully. My head gave a hard throb and I almost cried out, but I wouldn't allow myself to ruin this moment. It was too beautiful . . .even if I was drunk . . .
His hands grabbed my shirt suddenly and untied it carefully. I shivered slightly from his cold touch, but smiled when his eyes once again met mine. He kissed my chest gently and made his way up to my lips where I greeted him happily. I ran my thumb over his band-aide on his cheek and saw him wince in silent pain. Memories poured into my mind and I looked away from him. This is wrong . . .but it feels so right . . .
I licked his lips flirtatiously and smiled up at him. He didn't smile back down at me . . .He's so serious no matter what's happening . . .But that's one of the reasons I love him . . .
His eyes didn't meet mine for another moment or so and he looked so solemn as if thinking deeply. I wanted to ask him what was wrong, but my head gave another pound and I felt that if I were to open my mouth, I would wretch. Riku suddenly rolled away from me and clambered over to the front of the car again. I sat up slightly and watched him button his shirt back up, still without looking at me. My heart dropped so quickly, I thought it was going to fall right out from me. What did I do? Did I do something wrong? My normal mind was slowly coming back to me and I cold now think straight.
"I'm sorry . . .your life is already fucked up . . .I don't wanna do anything to screw it up even more . . ." he muttered under his breath to me quietly. He now looked back up at me, his eyes full of seriousness and his face unreadable. I didn't receive as much as a smile before he opened the car door and left me sitting there, confused thoughts screaming through my mind. I sat in the silence and darkness of the car, shock and confusion still overflowing inside of me.
What made him leave like that? Is he so caring that he doesn't want to take away everything from me? So far, I haven't had a complete blissful moment without something going wrong. My life is screwed up like that . . .I can't control what I'm going to do or say . . .
I struggled up to the front of the car and exited as well through the still-open car door and popped out into the fresh night air. The green neon lights still pouring all over the ground and blinded me from the sudden change of light. I glanced momentarily at the bar and saw through the window Selphie still sitting at her stool drinking away as if she hadn't noticed us leaving at all. She can manage on her own . . .
I started to run in the direction that we came from, only taking a left when I came to the intersection of where my house branches away from the others'. There weren't any cars out around this time of night which was very good . . .I didn't want anyone to see me like this . . .I couldn't control which way my feet were moving so a couple of times, I had to stop and put myself back on the sidewalk again. A hoot of an owl sounded from above me and I looked up and saw it flying overhead again. I didn't stop to admire its' beauty . . .I had to get home . . .I had to make this horrible night end . . .
After what seemed like hours, my house finally came into sight and I ran gratefully over to where my window was located above me. I didn't see any lights on inside, which made my heart sigh with relief that my mother didn't notice I was gone. That was very good. I climbed up the gutter with some difficulty because my eyesight was so blurred up by all the alcohol still lingering in my system. When I finally got through my window and back into my bedroom, I collapsed onto my bed in exhaustion. I didn't bother to close the panes . . .my body wouldn't allow it . . .
I closed my eyes for sleep and it came to me quickly . . .along with the dreams . . .
A/N: WOO! That was a very INTERESTING chappie, ya? Sorry about the whole car scene . . .I mean, you do crazy stuff when you're drunk, right? Right? Hehehe . . .Um . . .don't criticize me please about this . . .it fits in perfectly in with the rest of the fic . . .and . . .just to tell you . . .this is the first and the last time there is a lemon in this fic . . .so . . .i'm not a dirty writer . . . .
Oh, if you're asking about the little phrase in the beginning in the chappie, I came up with the idea that I should have little quotes or something in the beginning in each chappie . . .so . . .look out for that stuff . . .
Please be nice and don't be mean to me:begs:
K-c