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Chapter 4
I never realized the importance of food. It's been one week. I have not eatten. I will not beg or accept charity. I have never felt the pain of hunger. How I long to even smell the food. What I would give just to have one more meal. I decided to come back to school, but something happened that I would never be prepared for.
Mei
Ling smiled, "Guess what, everyone? I'm going out with Syaoran
so hands off!" I frozed the moment I heard those words. It
echoed through my mind over and over. Those words alone just filled
the silence within my mind. Mei Ling winked at me, "You don't
mind that I'm with him, right?" Syaoran walked in through the
door and saw me for the first time in one week. He heard those words
and turned his head away. He probably didn't want to face me.
I
smiled, knowing that he was listening to me, "You can have him.
He was never mine to begin with."
Mei Ling laughed, "Damn
right."
I said, "Mei Ling, you make it sound like I'm
supposed to care." She gave me a glare and walked away. I walked
towards my seat. I passed by Syaoran.
He grabbed my arm, "Where
have you been? You haven't shown up in school for a week!"
I
shrugged, "Around. What does it matter? You have your girlfriend
now."
Syaoran said, "Where have you been? Tell me!"
I
said, "It doesn't matter!"
He held tighter and I
winced, "Let me go!"
Syaoran said, "No, I want to
know where you have been!" He accidently pulled my shirt up when
he let go. He saw the bruises there and gasped.
I said, "Forget
this." I ran out of class. I knew it was a bad idea to return to
school.
He ran after me and grabbed my arm again, "What the
hell were those? Has someone been hurting you?"
I yelled,
"You're the one who's hurting me right now!"
He said,
"It's not a crime to care about you!"
I said angrily,
"If you really cared, you would leave me alone!"
He
said, "Something's up with you! You're usually cheerful."
I
smirked, "Cheerful? Over what? There's nothing to be cheerful
about!"
Syaoran stared at me, "What the hell? You've
changed. You're usually not like this."
I laughed, "You
think you know me so well, but you don't. You don't know anything
about me! When you go through a lot of mess, you end up changing to
survive." I pushed him off and ran out of the building, away
from his sight. He looked at me from the window and shooked his
head.
Mei Ling smirked, "You don't need her, baby. You have
me now." He looked at her. The sunlight made her hair shone
looking like an angel. Her eyes sparkled leaving her smile even more
irresistable. It was more than just charms. She was like a goddess
who makes you keep coming back for more. Syaoran didn't reply and
walked back to his seat.
I had no idea where I was going now. I was so lost and confused. I
am so scared now. How do I survive? Someone tell me, how will I live?
I ran to the place where Syaoran and I first went to when we met each
other. The cherry blossoms kept falling. The scenery made it seem
like nothing wrong can ever happen. How can a place seem so
beautiful, but people take its beauty for granted?
I sat down by
the tree on the ground and my thoughts wandered into a dream that
felt endless. My father was after me again! I didn't know where to
run to. He had a gun in his hand. Suddenly, I ran to a dead end. The
gun was triggered and the bullet was coming at me and
suddenly-
Syaoran said, "Are you okay?"
I jumped,
"Oh my God, where am I? Am I alive!"
Syaoran chuckled,
"It's just a dream. You were screaming! What happened?"
I
cried, "He's after me!"
He said, "Who?"
I
shooked my head, "Nevermind. Just someone in the dream. Don't
worry about it."
He replied, "You have been hiding a
lot from me. I wish you'd just come out with it."
I smiled,
"It's nothing. How did you know I was here?"
He
replied, "I guessed the places that you would go to and I
remember taking you here a few weeks ago."
I said, "Oh,
I see. Where's Mei Ling?"
He shrugged, "I don't know. I
just skipped class. I usually do. It's alright, though. I get decent
grades. I think I'll live."
I looked at the ground, "Why
are you with her?"
Syaoran said, "That's not the
question that should be said right now. The question is why are you
being this way, Sakura? Why haven't you shown up?"
I said,
"It doesn't matter! You don't care! While I've been gone, you
were off to another girl!"
He was taken back, "Sakura,
what are you talking about? Why were you even gone?"
I
cried, "I suffered so much! Not once did I complain, but not
once were you there!"
He said, "What were you suffering
from?"
I replied, "That doesn't matter now. I will
always be suffering. But, I try to remember that without pain, there
would be no compassion. But, all that's been given is pity."
Syaoran
touched my shoulder, "I don't pity you. I care about you. I am
here, aren't I? I went to look for you."
I said, "I
liked you, a lot actually. I thought that we had a connection between
us, especially the day we first met. But, you had to go to Mei Ling,
the girl that's been taunting me all my life. The girl who has made
my life miserable and gave me half these bruises. School is a
nightmare for me, but home is what you can call hell. My mother's
dead and my father's been giving me all these pain. He tries to kill
me about the average of twice a day. He disowned me the day he saw me
with you. I've been homeless. I have no place to go. I haven't eaten
in about a week. The only water I get is the water I save from the
rain. I have no idea how I am going to survive. I refuse to take your
charity so don't bother offering help. I don't want anything from you
or anyone else. I hope you're happy that I told you my life story! I
hope you've been entertained well!" I walked away with tears
falling down my face. He grabbed my hand.
Syaoran said, "Listen,
I'm not offering help. I'm asking you for help. My maid quit so
there's no one to clean the house anymore. If you could just replace
her for a while until I find another maid, that would be great. In
return, I'll give you a place to stay and food instead of salary.
It's not charity. It's help for help. We would be considered
even."
I said, "You're just giving me crap."
Syaoran
shooked his head, "I really can't cook for my life."
I
laughed, "Alright, I'll do this for you. But, only because your
maid quit." I smiled and walked away.
Tomoyo said, "You
know. I overheard the whole thing."
Syaoran said, "You
followed me?"
Tomoyo nodded, "Why not? Anyway, you
never had a maid, did you?"
Syaoran replied, "Shh, keep
it quiet! I'm not about to let her starve, alright?"
Tomoyo
leaned against the tree, "To think that I've been taunting her
all these years and she's been going through that much. Never knew
someone can really go through hell and keep smiling."
Syaoran
nodded his head, "She never even once complained or let me know.
Why the hell would you taunt her?"
Tomoyo shrugged, "She's
just a quiet girl in school. How the hell was I supposed to know?"
Little did they know, their friend was in for a bigger challenge.
