Hey…I'm so sorry that I haven't updated in a long time…I've had writers block and I've been trying to work on my school work to because I've got finals coming up in three weeks that I need to study for…anyway thanks to all that reviewed for the last chapter I really appreciate it. And the song in here is "Vindicated" by Dashboard Confessional…
Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi or any of the characters…even though I do wish I owned Mike Lobel…lol j/k…
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, and so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am
(Layla's Point of View)
I didn't want to say it out loud because when I do it's going to mean that it's actually true. Dad was going to kill me and I don't know what I'm going to do. "Andy I don't know how to tell you this…but I'm late…" there I said it.
"What are you talking about babe you're not late for anything." I had wanted so badly to laugh at his stupidity but this was too serious for me to laugh. I rolled my eyes at him and he finally got it. "You're pregnant?"
"I think I might be…what are we going to do?" he shook his head at me and stood up…
"It can't be my kid" wow that took me by surprise…he's the only guy I've been with and it pissed me off that he would say something like that.
"What the hell are you talking about Andy…you know I've only been with you."
"And I've always worn a condom." He started to walk towards the front door and I followed him, furious that he would deny that it was his kid.
"Sorry to be the one to inform you hun but condoms can break" He started to walk out and I grabbed his arm and turned him towards me. "So what you stay for the fun but as soon as some bad shit happens you leave? Fuck you Andy" I ran up the stairs as fast as I could and went into my room. I collapsed onto my bed crying my eyes out. I can't believe that he would deny that he got me pregnant. I laid there for a couple minutes when I heard dad come into my room.
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am
"What's wrong Layla?"
"Can you please just leave me alone dad?" I felt bad saying it because dad really did sound concerned about me, but I really didn't want him to know about my fight with Andy.
"Alright. But I'm here whenever you want to talk. And if it's a girl thing you can call Ellie I'm sure she'll be able to help you. The pizza is in the refrigerator too if you want anything to eat. I'll be downstairs" I heard him walk out and the door and close it. I got up and changed into a pair of sweat pants and my favorite baggy shirt. I felt like shit and I didn't know what to do about it. After thinking about it for a while I called Aunt Ellie. "Uncle Sean can I talk to Aunt Ellie."
"Yea hang on for a second kiddo" Ever since I was younger Uncle Sean would always call me kiddo instead of my name and for some reason I hated it whenever anyone else called me it…it was almost like something just between us. I started to daze out thinking about that when I heard Aunt Ellie come on the phone.
"Hey Layla…what's up?"
"Aunt Ellie I need your help….something happened…I can't really talk about it over the phone. Can you come get me please?" I felt bad calling her and asking her to come pick me up but I didn't know what else to do and I know that she's been through this.
"yea I'll be there in 5 minutes" I heard her hang up and I set the phone down. I grabbed my jacket and walked downstairs.
"dad I'm going out with Aunt Ellie for a little bit. I'll be back in soon. Bye" I walked out the front door and sat down on the steps waiting, a million thoughts running through my head. Aunt Ellie beeping her horn snapped me out of it and I went and got in to the car.
"So you want to tell me why you needed me to come pick you up?"
"I will as soon as you start to drive and we are far away from dad. And we can't go back to your house either because I don't want Cody or Uncle Sean to hear any of this." We started to drive for a few minutes and I was trying to figure out some way to tell her.
"How about we go to McDonalds? I doubt we'll see anyone in there that really matters." I nodded my head and we made our way to McDonalds. When we got there we each got some food and sat down at a table. "So tell me what's on your mind Layla"
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am
"I'm sorry that I asked you to come get me but I didn't know who else to talk to since you're the only one I know who's been through this." I watched her eyes go wide as she realized what I was talking about. "I don't know for sure but I'm a week and a half late."
"Does your dad know?"
"no…I told Andy tonight and he freaked out saying that it wasn't his. I'm scared…what if I really am? I don't know how to raise a baby. I don't see how you and Uncle Sean did it. I don't even see how dad did it." I could feel the tears rolling down my face and I wiped at them trying to make them go away.
"Layla come here" she pulled me into a big hug and let me cry on her shoulder. She didn't even seem to care that people were giving us weird looks or anything. After a few minutes I finally calmed back down. "Why don't we go to the drug store and buy a test to make sure whether or not you are?" I nodded my head and we got back into her car. We got to the drug store and I looked at all the tests.
"Which one do I take?" I whispered to her a little embarrassed. Aunt Ellie laughed at me and grabbed one that looked like it said you had to pee on the stick. "I have to pee on the stick?"
"yes" she said laughing at me… "Come on I'll pay for it." We got up to the front and she handed the cashier the test and she paid. "How about we go to my house to take it? I doubt you want your dad to see it. And we can hide it from Sean and Cody."
"That sounds good" we didn't really talk on the way back to her place but when we got there I quickly walked to the bathroom and she followed. "Can you go get Roxy?" She walked out of the bathroom and a few seconds later came in with Roxy.
So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
"What's up Layla?" I held up the pregnancy test. "before you say anything close the door and turn around I want to get this over with as soon as possible." They listened and turned around…this was so disgusting. It took me a few minutes to get myself to piss, when I was done I set the test on the sink and looked at the clock. I had to wait a half an for this thing…
"Does Andy know? What about your dad? What are you going to do if you are? Are you getting an abortion? Are you keeping it? Are you gonna give it up for adoption?"
"Slow down with the questions Rox. Andy knows and he told me that it can't be his kid. Dad has no idea. I don't even know what I'm going to do when if I am. Let's just see if I really am first before we start thinking about what I'm going to do…" Roxy looked livid when I said the part about Andy.
"You won't mind if something 'accidentally' happens to him…right?" I had a feeling that she was going to recruit Cody and Jared to help her on whatever she was planning, and I think it's going to be something good. Usually all of them are friends but Me, Roxy, Cody, and Jared have been best friends since we were in diapers and we never let anyone come in between us.
"Just don't hurt him to badly." I looked back up at the clock and noticed that it had only been ten minutes since I last looked. "There's still another twenty minutes. Aunt Ellie…If I am can you wait and not tell Dad or Uncle Sean for a few days, I want to tell Dad myself and I already know he's going to tell Uncle Sean."
"Your secrets safe with me. And that includes you too Roxanne." This made me laugh a little because I know what a big Daddy's girl Roxy is and she tells her dad everything. "That also means that you have to hold out for a few days on your revenge."
"Yes mom. So Layla what exactly happened when you told Andy that you might be pregnant?"
"He freaked out…told me that its not possible that it's his baby because he's always worn a condom. Which then got me pissed because he's the only person I've ever been with and he's basically calling me a whore" I was cut off by someone banging on the door like crazy.
"Who's in there come on I have to go to the bathroom! You've been in there for twenty minutes…I'm about to piss my pants!" Cody can be such a charmer…
"Shut your mouth Cody! We'll be out in twenty minutes. Why don't you just go downstairs if you have to go so badly?" I loved Cody to death but sometimes I just wanted to rip his head off.
"First of all what the hell are you doing in the bathroom Layla? And I don't feel like making Kelly wait in my room by herself. So will you guys please hurry up?" When he said Kelly I gave Roxy a weird look and she mouthed 'his new girlfriend' at me. Cody could never keep a girl for more than a few weeks before deciding that she didn't hold his attention and my guess was this chick was no different.
"Cody if I ever ask you anything please just leave us alone for twenty more minutes and then I promise we'll be out of here."
"You're lucky I love you like a sister Layla…" I heard him walk away and I was so glad that he didn't keep bothering us. Once again I looked at the clock…five minutes left…five minutes till I find out the fate of the rest of my life. I watched the second hand slowly go around the clock…four minutes…three minutes…two minutes…one minute…
"You ready?" Aunt Ellie asked me…I looked away from the test as if I was scared to look at it and I was. I was terrified of what it might say.
"as ready as I'll ever be…but can you please look at it and tell me?" She nodded her head and slowly walked towards the sink. She picked up the box looking at the back, then she looked at the test and then to me… "It says…"
Slight hope
Dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
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…Taryn…