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Rating: T

Author's note: This is my first fanfic so please review it would mean a lot to me.

I woke up the morning after when my alarm went off. I then realized I still had school. I was hoping that not everyone had heard the news but knowing Neptune I knew I was in for some whispers.

Wallace picked me up after I got ready. He had knocked on my door last night and I had said that I was hoping it was him. I had tried to convince myself that I meant it but I knew I wanted to see Logan. When I stepped out of the car with Wallace I saw his car in the spot across from ours.

I didn't know what to do. He turned of the engine and opened the door. As he turned I was hoping for a smile or even a bit of sympathy in his eyes for what I had went through the night before but all I saw was hate, anguish, and despair. I couldn't help it but tears started running down my face and I ran. I didn't know where until I realized I was in front of his locker. Why would I come here if I ran from him?

I slid down and pulled my knees up to my chest and cried. I felt someone pick me up. I knew it was Logan, I knew his touch, but I was put down next to where I was before. He opened his locker and pulled out his books from his bags. I suddenly realized the only reason he picked me up was because I wouldn't have moved on my own and he needed his locker. I let out another sob and then couldn't stop. I had lost everything. Lilly died, Duncan dumped me and ignored me, Logan hated me, and my mom left. My dad was there but he had almost died. Somewhere along my crying I heard Logan shut his locker. I looked up at him hoping he would say something. He did but it wasn't what I wanted to hear.

"You ruined everyone's life and especially mine and you expect me to come crawling back. News flash it isn't going to happen. Suck it up Mars, I thought you were suppose to be strong."

And he walked away leaving me there. Alone.

The next few weeks were all the same. Wallace would pick me up and I would go to school. I would still see Logan in journalism but each time he gave me a glare and a smirk. Otherwise he and I never acknowledged each other.

I walked around alone. I never smiled or laughed. I kept my grades up and I passed my exams easily. I asked Wallace for a last favor and he got me Logan's score. Apparently he did better than I had.

The last day was hard, with yearbooks. Everyone was happy. I wish I were still like that. I looked over at our old table and I could see Lilly in Logan's lap and Duncan's hand in mine. I suddenly realized I didn't miss her. I had always needed her, but I had replaced my need for her with my need for Logan. Losing Lilly I knew I could never get her back, but Logan he was still here and I couldn't have him. It felt so much worse.

For some reason I let Meg convince me to come to an end of a year party at the Casablanca's house. I figured I needed a new memory at a 09ers house and none of them seemed to mind. I had put on a short plaid schoolgirl skirt I had in the back of my closet that use to be Lilly's. I figured why not be Lilly for tonight I have nothing to loose. I put on the top that was with it and tied it so it showed my stomach. I smeared on some of her old red strawberry lip-gloss and some eyeliner and mascara. I didn't look like Veronica and I didn't look like Lilly. I looked like something in between. I was happy to be someone else, someone I didn't know.

Meg gave me a look of surprise at the outfit but never said a word. At the party I danced with Meg and a few guys. As soon as I saw Logan making out with another girl I stopped and sat down. He knew I was watching and I knew he was trying to get under my skin and it was working.

About an hour later I was definitely extremely drunk. I took of my blouse and skirt and was standing in my underwear. I had a crowd and I wasn't going to disappoint. I jumped in the pool and when I came out Dick was holding my clothes. I went to go grab them but he held them out of my reach.

"Ah, ah, ah. Not so fast Mars. You give me something and I will give you your clothes back." I knew I should've slapped him and said that I gave him something and took my clothes but I was going to be anyone but Veronica Mars.

"What exactly do you want?" I said in my most seductive voice possible. With the look he gave me I knew what he wanted. I pushed him back onto one of the deck chairs and straddled him. I started kissing him. I slipped my tongue into his mouth and right before he went for it I nibbled at his lower lip. As soon as that happened I felt arms wrap around my waist and rip me away from Dick.

"Ruining our fun Logan? I thought you were done with her. Why can't I have my turn?" I finally knew who had pulled me off of Dick. As soon as I heard his name I started struggling to get out of his grasp. He threw me over his shoulder to make it easier for him to hold me.

"Dick give me her clothes and we'll leave. If you don't I can always just beat you to a pulp." I knew Dick would hand over the clothes. He was scared of Logan; everyone was after his father was put in jail being held for the trial.

"Oh come on Logan. We were just having a little fun." As I said that I slapped his ass. I was definitely not being Veronica and I had definitely turned into some form of Lilly. He readjusted me a little more roughly than needed and grabbed my clothes from Dick and started heading towards a car I didn't recognize.

He settled me in the trunk of the SUV on some blankets that had been sitting there. He turned on the engine and started driving. I looked out the window and noticed we weren't going in the direction of my apartment but towards his house. "Logan take me home or do you want a little bit of me to? I could use my handcuffs if you really wanted me to." I started laughing at my own comment but he didn't say anything back.

When we finally got to his house he opened up the trunk. "Veronica you can have it the easy or the hard way it is your choice." I just sat there looking at him. "Veronica answer me!"

I gave him a reflection of his own smirk and said in my most seductive voice. "You always know I like it rough." I started laughing again but stopped as he grabbed me and threw me over his shoulder again. He walked up the stairs and laid me down on his bed. He started heading for the door. "Oh come on Logan you know you want me." He proceeded out the door and I heard a click, then another. I knew he had locked the door and I really didn't care. At least I wasn't in a house alone for another night.

A little while later I went to his dresser and got one of his over-sized t-shirts. I went to lie back down but my stomach lurched. I ran into the bathroom connected to his bedroom and continued to puke into the toilet. I felt a hand pull my hair back and another rub circles on my back. When I was done he lifted me up as gently as possible and put me back on his bed. As he started leaving again I grabbed his hand. "Stay with me. Please."

"Why should I you were all over Dick!" I knew he was angry but hadn't he done the same thing. I had cried and waited for him, smiled and tried to talk to him and he was the one mad at me. "I need you." He reached out to wipe the tears off my face. I smiled and knew he had finally forgiven me at least in part.

"Fine move over. Wait isn't that my t-shirt?" I smiled and laughed as I moved over. He slid under the covers and put an arm around my waist. I knew it then that I wouldn't be alone anymore, at least for tonight.