Chapter nineteen

"It's quite simple really," confirmed the psychologist at the prison. The four titans were crammed into the room, looking through some one way glass and the blonde. She was ramming her fists against the wall and screaming. Luckily the room was soundproof.

"Terra has a little thing we call OCD," started the therapist, pushing up his glasses. "As well as borderline personality disease."

"You mean she's sick?" asked Cyborg, rubbing his forehead. "She's not just crazy?"

"Well, we don't like to use the term 'crazy' here," began the man, chuckling slightly. "But yes, she is very sick. I'm not sure she'll ever recover."

"Please, sir," chipped in Star, quietly. "What is OCD?"

"Obsessive Compulsive Disorder," replied the doctor, fiddling with his clipboard then straightening his back. "It's a mental disease where the patient becomes obsessed with something, or a few things, and they are not satisfied unless they complete these things or…do what the disorder entails."

The doctor took a deep breath, seeing the gangs confusion. "Okay, let me put it more simply. This…Beast boy she keeps talking about. She is obsessed with him. And she would not be satisfied until she has him."

"So, a severe case of what I had with Slade, in a sense," cut in Robin to the team, who nodded solemnly. The doctor sighed.

"But what makes Terra's case so severe is that she has what we call a negative obsession. She wants to kill this young lady here. And she will never be satisfied until she does," he finished, motioning to Raven. Raven's eyes flickered but remained calm.

"So, what do you plan on doing?" she asked, keeping her voice as steady as possible.

"We've got drugs but…it'll never completely go away. We'll have to keep her here. Indefinitely. I'm sorry."

"And what about the 'borderline personality' thing?" questioned Cyborg, still looking mildly confused. "What's that about?"

"It's nothing serious on the surface. Many people suffer with it. It simply means that her personality changes from second to second. The problem is, in Terra's case, it is violent changes. That could be dangerous, very dangerous."

"We understand, Doc," replied Robin, on behalf of everyone. "Thanks for your help, we'll be going now."

"I wouldn't advise visitation. It may upset the patient severely."

"Don't worry," confirmed Robin. "I think that's out of the question."

Raven touched the glass and looked through at the girl, who was beating the wall as tears streamed down her angered face. Raven took a deep breath.

"I'm sorry, Terra," she whispered, her breath making a small mark on the window. "Please, be safe."

The hospital beat to a steady rhythm, buzzing with life. And in one of the rooms there was a soft beeping as a line juddered up and down signifying life.

Attached to the wires and the supports was a person who looked as frail and sullen as it was possible for a green person to be.

Beast boy was not in a good state. The battle had left it's mark on him. He had not opened his eyes since the battle with Terra. The occasional frown and grunt was all that they could get out of him.

The four remaining titans walked into the ward slowly, the door swinging behind them. It banged slightly as it closed but none of them flinched.

"Oh, Beast boy," moaned Starfire, running over to him and touching his hand. "You silly, silly, SILLY Glorthainian Muckbeetle!"

"What she said," sighed Cyborg, crouching down next to him and patting the small shoulder. Robin shook his head.

"I'm guessing that there is no change in the condition then," he said softly, moving closer.

Raven stood in the corner of the room, pressed against the wall.

Beep.

She closed her eyes and breathed heavily as the room began to swirl and her head started to reel.

Beep.

Robin's voice became a distant hum as her mind focused on only one thing. She could hear her heart beating in her head. And then that terrible noise.

Beep.

Without another thought she turned and fled out of the room, the door swinging behind her.

"What's up with her?" asked Robin, turning in time to see a white blur. Starfire closed her eyes and looked away. Cyborg bit his lip and looked down at Beast boy again.

"Should I go see if she's okay?" asked Robin, suddenly remembering what Starfire had said to him that night on the roof. So much had happened he had almost forgotten about it.

"No, I am sure she wises to be alone," replied Starfire softly.

"Wake up B," whispered Cyborg inaudibly, more to himself than anyone. "We need you."

Raven sat in the corridor on a scrubby plastic chair, feeling the weight of the world on her shoulders once again and wanting to crumble under the pressure. She felt the tears filling her lilac eyes. She felt that lump rising in her throat.

"It's all my fault," she whispered, the tears dripping down her nose. She pulled her hood up and hugged her knees, letting a few more tears leak out. "It's all my fault."

"Oh, now don't say that," replied a recognisable voice. Raven looked up, her pale face breaking into a small smile.

"I can't seem to get rid of you can I?" questioned Natasha, sitting down next to Raven gently, and crossing her legs. Raven's face crumpled again.

For once in her life, she didn't want to wear a mask, she didn't want to pretend, she just wanted to let everything out. But she wasn't sure how to. A lone tear trickled to her mouth and off her chin.

"Hey, hey, I was only kidding, honey," said the nurse, patting Raven on the shoulder gently. "I meant no offence!"

"No, it's not you at all," whispered Rae hoarsely, her throat closing up. Natasha wrapped her arm around the girls shoulders.

"Is it Garfield?"

Raven teetered, tensing up, her face contorting as she tried to figure out what to say. "Amongst things."

"What things?"

"Just things."

"Okay, Raven, I know when I'm intruding," countered the nurse standing up and putting her hands up. She stretched and gave a small smile.

"Garfield will be fine. Just make sure you're going to be."

"What do you mean—"

"Don't pretend like you don't know, Raven," countered the nurse, half laughing. "If you want something, you have to fight for it – right?"

"I don't know what you—"

"Yes you do. Good luck, girl," replied the nurse winking. She turned and began to walk off.

As Raven was left alone in the white corridor she began to mull over Natasha's words.

Robin shifted uncomfortably and patted his bandages around his middle. Three broken ribs was the least of his worries. A lot had happened in that day. Thankfully, he and Cyborg had scraped through the attack of the psychotic geo manipulator. They were used to ferocious attacks – they were trained to be. Arguably, so was BB. But Beast boy had had it the worst of all. A physical, point blanc attack – it was merciless.

He sighed and turned to the other two. "I think we should go home."

"Could we not take Beast boy to the medical wing?" asked Starfire, softly. Robin shook his head.

"He's better off here, they know what they're doing," he replied, taking Star's hand and squeezing it. She smiled gently and snuffled. Cyborg tapped his arm.

"My battery is really low. I'm already into my emergency cell right now."

"Okay, we shall go. But…I do not wish to leave," answered the Tameranian, reluctantly standing up. "I wish to make sure that my friend is okay."

"He'll be okay," reassured Robin. "He's a titan."

They left the room slowly, each glancing at the sleeping form before wandering into the sceptic-smelling corridor.

"Where is Raven?" questioned Star, her red hair bobbing as she floated, still clutching Robin's hand. Cyborg shrugged and Robin gave a small smile.

"It's okay, Star. You go with Cy – if you can carry him home I'm sure that you'll get there quicker. We don't want his battery cell to run low. I'll go and find Raven."

"Man, you sure you don't mind?" asked the android, as Star glided towards him, after embracing Robin quickly. Robin's dark head shook.

"No, it's fine. I'll be back as soon as I can, alright?"

They all agreed and the two titans headed back to the tower, leaving Robin with the task of helping the team member who was arguably more injured than Beast boy.

"Raven?"

The Azarathian's head twisted upwards. Her mind had been in another place. She desperately needed to meditate, but was fearful of leaving the hospital. The sudden voice had broken her thoughts. She tried to look scornfully at the leader, but failed. She had no urge to act anymore. So she turned her head back.

Robin took this as an invitation for him to sit down, so he did. The white cloaked figure was shaking slightly, but not saying anything. He tried, for a moment, to think how he would feel were the person on that life support Starfire.

His heart gave a sudden and unexpected wrench and he stifled a gasp of pain. This was truly a torture which he would have hated to endure. Yet there was Raven, sitting there calmly, yet with a rough edge to her normal composure.

"What do you want, Robin?"

Robin's eyes flicked down to the right as he acknowledged that the teen had spoken. Her lilac eyes were looking straight into him and waiting for some explanation as to the intrusion of her personal space.

"I wanted to make sure you were okay," countered Robin, trying to fix the gaze with a steady one, but nearly failing. All the time, that heart wrench was in the back of his mind.

"I'm fine," replied Raven coldly, looking back to the white floor. "So you can go now."

"Raven, I understand what this must be like but—"

"No you don't," cut in Raven, with anger and sadness flashing on her once plain face. "How could you? For you there's only ever been one and she has always felt the same. You've never had anyone come and take her away from right under you and felt like your whole world was collapsing. You've never hurt someone so badly that you've driven them mentally insane. You've never had to control your powers for fear of killing the only people who you care about. You don't understand Robin. No one does."

The Azarathian was on her feet, and had paced around wildly, throughout this spiel. She was furiously concentrating on maintaining her control. She leant against the wall and sunk to the floor clutching her head. Robin stood up, not quite sure what to say.

"I…I'm sorry…"

"It's fine," replied Raven, the colour completely drained from her voice once again. "I don't expect you to understand. It's not your fault."

"I know," countered Robin, crouching down next to her. "I don't understand. You're right – I don't. But I do understand love. And I do understand how I would feel if that was Starfire in that room right now. I'm so scared of losing her."

He sighed and lowered himself onto the floor next to Raven, who eyed him warily. "But I'm glad. I'm glad that she knows what I think…because if something did happen, I'd have made the most of the time we had. I don't expect you to believe me but I've never been sure of anything in my life, except the fact that I love her. You understand that feeling. And there's nothing wrong with it, so don't try to push it away. Life's too short."

He paused, looking the Azarathian in the eyes.

"And I know that sounds like a big cliché…but love is something to precious to throw away because of some mistakes."

Raven swallowed, entranced. Robin was completely right. And she knew it. The thing was, she knew that he knew of her love for Beast boy, but she didn't care. Robin's explanation had given her a wake up call.

"Thanks," she whispered meekly, trying her best to smile. Robin raised his eyebrows, but smiled anyway.

"We'll see you back at the tower, when your ready."

Just a note: The beeping Rae was hearing was BB's life support machine and it freaked her out completely.

A bit of a filler chapter really, but we're getting there slowly. Bear with me!

I felt I had explored Raven's relationship with the other characters but I did not feel satisfied with the Robin and Raven relationship in my story. the friendly relationship – duh! Cause I do think that they are friends. But I'm not a big Robin fan…except when he's with Star, lol.

Hopefully it was okay. Sorry I haven't updated in a while – been busy at school!

Therfore today there shall merely be…

Quick Replies: For a select few

Gladdecease: I guess I was being mysterious…it's in my nature I guess, lol! Yeah, I knew about that with Terra but it didn't fit in with the story so just ignore it, k? Thanks for pointing it out thou! Agree with Terra's stupidity, hopefully now you understand why.

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