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AN: thousand thanks to everyone who keeps reviewing (I will mention you all personally in the last chapter)! Special thanks to inlya, Sara Sidle Grissom and CSI Kennedy.

In the break room

The break room was empty at this time, it wasn't that he felt the need to be alone, but being alone helped to pretend, that what had happened, didn't happen. He could lie to himself, but he couldn't lie to her.

The door opened, he heard footsteps, not willing to take his eyes off the crossword puzzle, he didn't pay any attention to who the person might probably be. But when he felt that this person stood behind him, he began to wonder. It's a woman…the footsteps were those of a woman. So it's either Sophia, Catherine…or Sara…everybody else would have said something. If it's Sophia she will probably talk about her case with me…but then she would already have said something, if it's Catherine she will probably start talking about lab politics once again…I hate talking about the lab politics, probably Ecklie would have sent her and she will start pissing me off. If it's Sara she will start talking about what happened in the elevator…what would be more than negative right now…I don't think that I can talk to her right now…not after this.

"It's 'Chihuahua'."

"What?" Sara…I knew it was her! I must have a really bad karma…God can't hate me that much…it must be something else…I will blame karma for it.

" 'Mexican state that's bordering on Texas and New Mexico' …the states name is Chihuahua."

"Thanks." Did she think I wouldn't know or is she just trying to talk with me?

She sat down on the chair next to him. "Can we talk?"

I knew it. I don't want to talk, she will want to talk about what I told her…and…she will say, that if I would make up my mind, she wouldn't only be in my dreams…like she always blames me for…

"It's…Grissom I…being in that elevator with you…reminded me of…"

Reminded her? Of what?

"…it…reminded me of how much you changed."

I changed?

"It's…maybe…well I never really realized how much you have changed in the last years, but…you did change and…I mean you…it always was as if you lost…the fun of life…I mean…in the last two years you…when I came here from Frisco you were still a funny guy. Nick was 'your boy' and you called him 'Nicky' and you gave bugs the name of the Beetles and…I don't know, you were just funny…and in the last two years you turned into a frustrated, somehow depressed scientist…who doesn't care about anybody else but himself and his bugs. I spent the whole last night thinking about what made you change…but I am clueless…it's just that…yesterday you…turned back into that funny guy for a few moments, you…you turned back into the man that I fell in…"

Suddenly Greg, Warrick, Nick and Sophia entered the break room, laughing and talking cheerfully.

Sara and Grissom turned around, looking at them, Sara obviously pissed off because of this distraction, Grissom relieved. He knew what she had been about to say…and he knew that he had no clue about what he should have said then. He was more than thankful for this distraction.

"Hey guys.", Greg said grinning.

Grissom noticed that evil grin in Warrick's face. Damn it…Greg told him about Sara's bra! They will all think that we made out in the elevator! I should have never agreed playing this foolish game! I should have never told her to take off her bra without taking her shirt off! At least I should have thought about telling her to take it on again! But no, I was too self-absorbed to think of something like this…to think of the possibility that Greg could see her bra lying on the ground when he is coming to get us out! I am such a hero! And he saw it, because I will never ever have luck in my life! And now he told everybody what he thinks we did in that elevator…he told them we made out, he probably told them he'd have caught us in the act!…and now there will be rumors…rumors that might cost both of our jobs!

"Hey…going out tonight?", Sara asked them.

"Sure. Usual time, we'll meet at 'Banalou'…we want to play pool billiard…drink some cocktails.", Nick answered.

They will go out again, they will have fun…when was the last time I had fun, except for yesterday? …it must be a long time ago…I can't even remember a moment when I was really laughing. Maybe Sara was right…no, not maybe, she was sure right. I changed. I was able to have fun some years ago…and now…when was the last time I rode a roller-coaster? When was the last time I went out with friends and had fun? When…I don't even have real friends! I don't like being with people…but why? Because I am afraid they might get to know me…these people here think they'd know me…they think I am a weird, depressed scientist…they think this is the way I am…it is the way I am, but this is not the way I want to be!

"So I heard you two had fun yesterday.", Warrick said grinning.

I hate Greg!

"What did you tell them Greggo?", Sara asked raising an eyebrow.

"He said the two of you made out in the elevator…he told us he saw your bra lying on the ground. He said you tried to hide it, but he could still see it.", Sophia answered before Greg could open his mouth.

"We were only playing truth or dare.", Grissom tried to defend himself.

"As if you would play truth or dare.", Nick laughed.

"No, he's telling the truth.", Sara tried to hide her desperation.

"So he told you to take off your clothes and to make out with him, or did you tell him to take off your clothes and to make out with you?", Warrick asked, grinning even more evil than before.

"He made me take off my bra without taking off my blouse…but we weren't making out or something like this! Hell, he is my supervisor…and he is Grissom."

What the hell does she mean with 'and he is Grissom'? Why is she saying this? And why is she saying this the way she said it? Damn it, I really have to change! It can't go on like this anymore! He swallowed hard, hoping he could get out of the room as fast as possible.

"And Grissom told her something about his dreams.", Greg said grinning.

What the hell? Did he hear this? Did he overhear our conversation? Now I can imagine how he stood next to the elevator, pressing his ear against the doors to hear what we were talking! He said anything because he is so damned nosy! This guy will wake up with a tarantula on his face tomorrow morning! I will kill him with my bare hands if he is going to tell them that…

"What dreams?", Sophia asked teasing.

"Dreams of women…one in specific."

I will kill him, NOW!

"Shut up Greg! That's not funny!", Sara said and left her seat, walking over to him. "Shut up or you wont see the morning light ever again!", she said with an angry undertone.

Oh my God! I love this woman!

"It is funny! I bet you would have been laughing too, if he wouldn't dream about you.", Greg said laughing.

He didn't say this, did he? Grissom wanted to strangle him, to kill him with his bare hands…how could he just do this? How could he embarrass me like that? He wanted to jump up and leave the room, he wanted to do something…but he couldn't. He couldn't move, he couldn't think anymore. For the first time in his life there was nothing he was thinking about. His head was empty.

"You have dreams about Sara?", Nick asked laughing so hard that he almost spilled his coffee over the table.

"He has erotic dreams about Sara.", Greg whispered, loud enough that everybody in the room could hear it.

"You dumb ass!", Sara said angry.

Still Grissom wasn't able to move, what probably saved Greg's life.

Sara swallowed hard. She threw an angry look at Greg.

I have to get out of here! Finally Grissom found the ability to move, he stood up and immediately left the room. He knew his head was probably as red as a tomato, he had never felt that embarrassed before.

He stopped in the hallway. Not knowing what to do next. He heard footsteps, he refused to turn around. I don't want to see anyone of them! I wish I'd never have to see anyone of them again! Suddenly he felt a hand on his shoulder.

"Greg is such an idiot."

Now he turned around, looking into Sara's dark brown eyes. He knew how sorry she felt. He knew, that she knew how horrible he felt. He wanted to pull her into his arms, he wanted to hold her close, he wanted to feel her…but he knew how inappropriate this was right now. "Sara…I…I am so angry…I could…kill him!", he felt as if he'd be close to hyperventilate, he tried to tell himself to calm down, but failed.

She stepped closer to him, she laid her hand on his cheek and caressed it softly with her thumb.

What the hell is she doing? She is touching me! In the hallway! In public! She shouldn't do this! Why is she doing this? Why? She shouldn't do this! And I should not like it, but it feels so good…her hands are soft! So soft! I want her to touch me…No! she shouldn't touch me! And I shouldn't like it as much as I like it…

"Hey, calm down. He is an idiot sometimes…have you ever seen him drunk? I mean, really drunk?"

He couldn't help but laugh softly. The warmth in her eyes lightened up his mood. "I bet seeing him drunk is fun."

"Come with us tonight, then you can see it with your own eyes…oh and as soon as you know one of his dirty secrets, you can pay revenge at him."

"Everybody knows his dirty secrets."

"Not all of them.", she said grinning.

"Is there something I should know?", he raised an eyebrow.

She winked at him. "You need some fun in your life…the fact that I am the one who tells you this should be funny enough…but I don't see you laughing, unfortunately…so…come on, join us tonight. I promise you that it will be fun."

I can't do this…I…well if I would go there I could show them, that I am not a boring person and…maybe I should really join them…but after this? I can never ever look at them again! Never ever! I…

"Do you know that you are really cute, when you are lost in thoughts?"

"I am neither lost in thoughts, nor am I cute."

She laughed softly. "You are…come on, join us. We're going to meet one hour after our shift ends."

"Sara, I can't look into their faces right now…I wont be able to look into their faces for the rest of my life. You can't imagine how hard it was for me to tell you about this…I only did it because I…it would have been unfair if I would have lied to you. But…this was nothing that I wanted anybody else to know.", he sighed. "This was so embarrassing."

"I know." Her hand slipped down from his cheek, over his arm to his hand.

Oh my God…I'm getting goose bumps! I hope she doesn't notice this!

"Hey. Don't think about this…yes, maybe they will talk about it for some time…but then something else will happen, either to you or to someone else and then they will talk about this."

"Uhm… 'either to me'? Do you think something more embarrassing will happen to me?"

"No…but we usually laugh about you."

"What?" Oh my God! They make fun of me!

"I'm kidding…just kidding. Greg usually is the one we are laughing about."

"He deserves that."

"Oh yes.", she nodded and smiled softly at him.

"Thank you…I really feel so much better now.", he said softly. This woman is making my heart beat faster than it ever did!

TBC

Yeah I know...OOC, blah and...blah. Sorry, butI couldn't help it. Thanks for reading...I hope you'll want to read the next chap too...I don't want to spoil you for it but...I'm sure you might like that one ; )