Chapter 4 - beyond the tears.

After the night Allison had cried on Jules shoulder, she became so withdrawn that not one comment by Shelby could provoke her. Sitting on her bed she saw Jules walk in and smile. She Tried to return the smile she could not. That night had brought back everything she was trying to forget. They just sat in the room for a few moments in silence before Allison broke the silence.

"I could have stopped it..." She whispered softly. Jules looked up from her book and just stared at her for a moment walking over to her she put an arm around her.

"What could you have stopped?" she asked wondering what she had been talking about. There was a looking in her eyes that was saying all to clearly that she was afraid to tell. "It's okay if you don't want to say I'll leave it."

"Thank you." She smiled at her. "Your a lot like my sister ya know? So kind."

"Well than your sister was a very good person."

"Yeah she was.... the best. She would've done anything for me." Looking at for a moment, she thought that she had seen her sister. " so what book were you reading?"

"Oh I was reading Pride and Prejudice."

"Is it any good?"

"Yeah its actually really good. The relationships are really interesting in it."

The two girls spent a good hour talking about the Book. During the time there was no pressure of what they had done, or had happened in their past. For both girls it was one of the few times that they felt as little children. That there was no wrong in the world that everything was fine, sadly the time had to end.

"Come on its time for dinner." Jules said as she stood up and started to head out of the room.

"Right dinner." She muttered not looking forward to another meal spent with the group.

As they entered Allison looked for a place that she could sit by her self, but to her dismay Jules firmly took her arm and pulled her over to where the rest of their group was sitting.

"No more hiding from everyone." She hissed at her as the got close. Allison braced her self for rude comments from Shelby through the whole meal. Taking a seat at the end of the table she played with her food for a while before eating.

"So finally decided to join the living again Allison?" Shelby asked with a smirk. Looking up at her she just rolled her eyes.

"If you're the living I would rather be dead." a slow smirk spread across her face as she toke another bite of her food. Shelby just scoffed at her and returned to her conversation with Scott. The rest of the meal was filled with pointless conversations.

"God I really don't want to go to group." Daisy complained as the left the mess hall. Each person muttered something in agreement. Slowly they all made their way to where they were meeting. Peter was late that night, when he finally walked in everyone looked very disappointed.

"What's with all the long faces?" He asked as he looked around the room.

"The fact that you showed." Allison muttered so that Daisy could hear. A smile touched Daisy's lips after her comment.

"We had hoped you wouldn't show so we could have gone." Ezra answered.

" Sorry to disappoint. Well lets start. Umm... Ezra you'll begain. I feel..."

"Tired. Shelby."

"Bored. Scott."

" unsure. Auggie."

"Happy. Allison."

"Worried. Jules."

"I'm... not sure... I guess I'm glad." Jules looked like she was really trying to figure out what she really felt. "Daisy."

" exhausted."

Peter smiled at the group. " okay now I want to know why you feel that way. Daisy you first."

" because it was a long day. Your turn Shelby." Daisy whipped her head around to look at her. Shelby rolled her eyes before answering

"I'm bored cause I can think of a ton of ways I would rather be spending my evening." With a sly smile she looked over a Scott who returned the look with a slight raise of his eyebrows. " your turn Scottie"

"Unsure, cause that is just the way that it is. Yo Auggie."

"I'm happy cause I have no reason to be other wise." he had on a big grin, which left everyone to wonder why he was grinning so much. "Jules."

"Well I'm glad because I have some really great friends." She smiled at Allison and than nodded to her indicating that it was her turn.

"I'm worried.... because, my mother is... she has to take care of so much, and is living in a constant hell, and I made it worse. With me here there isn't anything that I can do to help her." She paused. "I'm also worried about how my brother is."

After she had finished everyone just kind of looked at her for a moment. During that time Sophie had come into the room and was whispering something in Peters ear. Once she had finished he just nodded.

"Allison why don't you come with me for a moment." Standing up Allison followed Sophie to the office. When she reached there she saw the phone off the hook resting on the desk.

"Your mother is on the phone for you dear."

Moving slowly towards the phone she picked it up and placed it to her ear. "Momma?"

"Ally...oh sweetie..." Standing there in the office she started to get nervous. There was something wrong she knew it. Oh God, please let ma be alright. "Mom, what is it what's wrong?"

" Baby....its...." Her mother stopped again.

"What happened mom!" She yelled into the phone.

"It's.... it is Jr."