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"Rose come on." Harry said as Rose and himself made their way to Ginny's room where they were meeting their mum.
"I'm right here." replied Rose nervously as they entered Ginny's room. Lily was seated at Ginny's desk engrossed in one of Ginny's favorite muggle books, A Farewell to Arms.
At hearing the door open Lily looked up and smiled widely as she saw her two children walking in. To an outsider they may look totally different, Harry with black hair and green eyes while Rose had red hair and hazel eyes but to a trained eye one could tell both Harry and Rose where related.
"Mum," said Rose weakly as Lily jumped out of her chair and hugged her daughter. She knew her daughter remember hardly anything and Lily liked it that way, she did not want Rose to remember the horrors of her past.
Harry smiled, enjoying seeing his little sister and his mum both looking positively happy.
Lily lead Rose to Ginny's bed where both girls sat and Lily started drilling Rose on all about her life.
Rose told her mom well everything excluding what Harry asked her to exclude. Meeting Harry and her best friends Scarlet, Bobby and Mark on the train, being sorted into Gryffindor having a sever dislike to potions while her favorite class like her brother was Defense Against the Dark Arts and much more. This went until after lunch when there was a knock on the door.
"It's dad." Harry told his mum. Lily seemed to tense but said in a very calm yet unsettling voice "Alright kids why don't you two run along and I'll see you in the morning."
"Are you sure mum?" asked Harry seeing his mum tense, he still was not sure what happened to her while she was gone, he only knew of how he got a sister, something Rose did not even know.
"Of course Harry it's only your father." Lily said, only Harry noticing she looked nervous.
"Alright but if you need anything just call." said Harry, opening the door revealing his father who was dressed in a pair of muggle Khakis and a button down t-shirt and holding a box of Honey Dukes finest.
Rose hugged her mum, still slightly shocked at having her back and hugged her father as she ran by while Harry could not help but give him a cold stare and he whispered to his father "Don't hurt her." and he too left, leaving only James and Lily.
James closed the door behind him and looked at Lily his wife, she looked in his opinion as beautiful as she had the first day he meant her. Though in reality Lily was dressed in nothing special while her long red hair was tied back in a messy bun.
"Hey," James said nervously as he handed her the box of chocolate "for you."
Despite herself Lily could not help but laugh. "Only you would greet me with chocolate."
James smiled, not really sure what to say. The last time he had seen his wife he had been put under the imperious curse and forced to rape her, unable to do anything but watch and her scream and beg for him to stop.
"You look beautiful Tiger Lily." James said, pure love in his words.
"James." Lily said not really sure what else to say.
"Lily I... I've dreamed of seeing you form the moment we where ripped apart and..."
"James please, please don't." said Lily not wanting to go down that road, she wanted to forget the last 16 years, she wished some one would obviate her.
"Please Lily we need to talk. Talk to me Lily please don't close up on me. Come on Tiger where is that famous temper you have. Yell at me! Scream at me for all I care but I please talk to me, anything." begged James.
"WHAT HAPPENED TO ME! I WAS RAPPED BY THE MAN I LOVE AND I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD HATE HIM BUT I CAN'T. I HAVE LIVED THE LAST 16 YEARS OF MY LIFE AS SOME KIND OF HORRIBLE SEX TOY TO ANY DEATH EATER THAT WANTED TO GET THEIR GRUBBY HANDS ON ME! SO I'M SORRY POTTER IF I DON'T FEEL LIKE RUNNING INTO YOUR ARMS!" screamed Lily furious at James.
As sadistic as this may seem James could not help but smile, his Lily was not gone. This was the Lily he knew, the Lily he fell in love with and by Godric this would be the Lily he would spend the rest of his life with.
"Why are you smiling?" asked Lily, breathing hard.
"Because it's really you. Only the Lily I knew can blow up like that, your really back, alive. Oh Lily I know you don't want me near you but I swear to if you'll have me I will wait Lily, I will wait for how ever long I must cause Evans I love you." James said.
"Wait for me? James I don't think I could ever take you ever touching me again, and not only you but I don't think I can take any man ever touching be again." Lily said cynically
"Tell me what bloody death eaters touched you and I'll have their heads on a stick!" James said with venom.
"Don't you see? It's not that easy James Potter! Do u know what I've been through since that night?" asked Lily and not getting a response from her husband she continued.
"After I had Rose, Rose Piper I named her after your and mine Mum. That's when Zizi showed up, though only I knew she was Zizi, to every one else she was just a slave bought to look after Rose when I was indispose. And do you want to know why I was indispose James? The only way I could protect my, our daughter was with my body. I had to give up something that I have only ever shared with you to protect the child we made! And I thank Merlin every day for Zizi, with out her Rose would have had to witness Malfoy tying me to a bed or Lenstrange using his 'toys' on me!" Lily said her eyes revealing the sadness and pain she felt.
James could tell Lily needed to talk, she had always been like that back in Hogwarts. When ever she was upset she would need to talk, need to tell what was going on. It was the only thing that James knew that would help her heal. He knew he most likely was not ready to here what she was going to tell him but he had to, for her sake.
"Talk to me Tiger, please talk to me. Tell me what happened." James said in a calming tone, trying to be the good husband he always wanted to be.
"You don't want to know James. You really don't." Lily replied.
"No Lily tell me. I may not want to know but I need to, I need to so that I can help you Lily. Help you move on. Would a pensive make it easier? I can get one?" James asked.
Lily looked down coming to a decision. "No James I'll tell you."
Lily took a deep breath before she started her long story.
Flashback:
"Get up Mudblood!" yelled Lucius Malfoy. Lily's eyes opened with force, another day in her hell, another day protecting her daughter. Lily got up and moved away from the bed, eyeing Malfoy with contempt.
"The Bitch has taken the girl out, we have the place to our selves." Lucius said, running his cold hand up her arm.
"No," Lily begged, she had her daughter about two weeks ago and since she had recover Malfoy had started to visit.
Malfoy hit her across the face. "You never say no to me Mudblood! Now get on the bed or I'll force you."
Lily made no move towards her bed. Lucius grabbed her by her hair and dragged her to the bed and tossed her on ungraciously. With a flick of his wand her hands where bound behind her head. Lily struggled and screamed but no one would come to her aid, no one ever did.
Lily took a deep breath, and looked to James to go on. He nodded his head though to her it look like it pained him to do so.
Little Rose was five and sitting in her mothers room playing cards with her Aunt Zizi who in public she always referred to as Zara. Her mum and her aunt where arguing.
"You can't keep allowing them to do this!" Zizi demanded.
"What choice do I have? They would kill me and where would that leave her! If I leave her who knows who will raise her. I can't allow that happen, I can't let her turn Zizi. I wont allow it! I just can't!" Lily responded.
"I'd protect her!" Zizi said in a small voice.
"And then you would die to. No he will be here soon take her out into the gardens, you know she loves the gardens." Lily said in an almost panicked voice.
"Please!" Lily begged.
Zizi gave her best friend, her sister a hug. "I'll figure something out Lily, I promise."
Lily could only nodded as she tried to rush her daughter and sister out but was to late as the door opened revealing a sinister looking Lenstrange.
Lily positioned herself in front of her daughter.
"I told you to get them out!" he said harshly.
"They are just leaving." responded Lily trying to keep the fear and anger out of her voice.
Zizi rushed over to Rose and picked the little girl up. "Come Rose we are going to go to see the pretty flowers." Zizi said leaving the room with a confused Rose.
Lenstrange closed the door a sinister look in his eyes. With a wave of his wand Lily's cloths disappeared, another wave and she flew onto the bed and was tied down.
"Alright pet," he said holding a lethal looking whip in his hand "Lets see if you learned anything new."
Lily looked close to tears as she finished retelling that memory.
"You don't need to continue if you don't want to." James said with concern.
"No just two more." replied Lily, trying to be strong and fight the memories threating to consume her.
"Get up you retched mudblood!" ragged Malfoy dragging Lily towards the bed once again.
"Mummy!" yelled an eight year old Rose who wanted to help her mum who she saw the big ugly man was hurting.
"ROSE LEAVE!" shouted Lily trying to get out of Malfoy's grip to get her daughter out of the room.
Rose attached herself to Malfoy who became outraged and picked the girl up and threw her clearly across the room.
"YOU BASTARD!" Lily yelled, outraged that Malfoy would hurt her daughter!
The door opened and Zizi walked in with a tray of food when she dropped it seeing the scene before her.
"GET HER OUT OF HERE!" Lily yelled.
Zizi had no choice, she wanted to save her friend from the fate she was about to suffer but she could not let her niece see this, she need to get her out.
Zizi ran over to Rose and picked up the smaller girl who was unconscious. And quickly left the room hearing her friend screaming the pleading all the way down the hall.
The next day Lily who had a black eye was sitting with Zizi who had refused to leave her side as soon as Malfoy left. Rose was sound asleep on the bed, thankfully not to traumatized from the day before.
"Zizi I need you to take her. I need you to get her out of her, get her some where safe. She can't stay here." Lily said.
"But I can't leave you." Zizi replied.
"You must and you will. Zizi please give my daughter the life I can't have." Lily begged.
"I'll come back for you Lil, I promise."
"And that was the last time I saw Zizi. After she left they beat me often. Over the last two weeks they where even more vicious. James you can't love me I am tainted, I am dirty." Lily said.
"No Tiger, never say that. I will and have always loved you. And Tiger your not the only one. When they took me away they locked me in a room in St. Mongols. Bellextria would come at night and would beat me wanting information on the Order. When I would not talk she would find new ways of torturing me, physically and mentally. Oh Lily please my flower we will get through this. I promise." James lovingly said.
Lily looked at him with tears in her eyes and very slowly she put one of her hands on top of his.
"I'm willing to try if you are." Lily said.
"Always Lily. I love you. As we said for better or worse. We will get through this." James said knowing that this would work, it had too.
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