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i hate my cp so i'll try this again.
so the death threats i'm getting are a tad scary. So i've called the police and they told me not to worry and that i should be protected but that i should stop updating but i told them no way so i am still risking my life by writing lol!
The following morning was Christmas day, the best one any one had ever had. Every one was showered with gifts from all directions. Harry got Ginny an emerald and ruby necklace that matched the promise ring she wore from him from last Christmas.
Lily and Zizi had the best time out of every one. They had not spent a Christmas with their family for almost 16 years so it was very nice to be standing under mistletoe or giving out gifts to their children and grand kids.
The day had continued on with Christmas games, glasses of hot chocolate and ending with a huge feast that had been prepared by Molly, Lily, Ara, Zizi and Winky.
The week following had been a lovely one. After some argument James and Lily had convinced Sirius and Zizi to go spend the week in London for their honeymoon while they would look after Chris and Hermione.
Hermione had gotten back to herself though the reason being she had come up with a new mission, a way to save Harry. She had gotten Dobby to take her down to Gordic's room and spent many hours talking to him. Nothing new had come up but she was holding on to hope.
The week went by very fast, to fast for some before it was time to return to the real world. A world ful of death eaters and war.
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January brought on new challenges for Hogwarts students. Teachers pushed up the work load for 7th year students. Harry, Ron, Hermione, Blaise, and Neville rally had much free time for themselves.
Mean while Ginny found time to meet with Draco who had come with news about his orders to kidnap Lily.
"I'm suppose to grab her at the end of the month. There is only one way for this to go Ginny." Draco told her.
"No if you would just switch sides." Ginny said.
"You and I both know I can't do that." Draco replied sadly.
"But..." Ginny said "But think about Scarlet. Do you want her to have only my butt head brothers to look up to! Or what about Susan! I know you like her Draco. I see how you look at her when she passes you by. Damn it Draco will you use your goddam head and think rationally!" Ginny raged.
"Don't you think that is why I am doing this. I want Scarlet in your family Weasly! She is safe and happy with your lot. And yes I think I may love Susan but I could never go out with her, or kiss her or hold her like Harry holds you. I'd be putting her in danger, my father would want to see her dead. He'd go after her and her aunt and I just could not do that to her." Draco rebutted.
This debating went on for a while until they both left ina huff, nothing being resolved. Little did either know at that point that Susan Bones had been walking by and hearing her name she had stayed and listened to the conservation.
When it was over she ran, ran all the way to her dormitory which thankfully was empty.
Did Draco Malfoy say he loves me? Susan asked her self. "Did he mean what he said? Was he so willing to sacrifice himself for the people he loved. Willing to stay away from me to keep me safe?" Susan continued to think through out the day.
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Mid January Harry was pacing his room back and forth, looking down occasionally at Jason and Anne who where playing happily next to his bed. Harry wished that what Hermione found out, what he himself found out was not true and he would fight it but if in the end he had to give in he would if it would save his family, the ones he love. Know the only problem was how was he suppose to tell Ginny.
His door opened entering his Mum. "Oh Harry I was wondering if Ginny and your self would join your father and me for dinner in his chambers tonight." Lily asked.
"Sure Mum what time?" Harry asked.
"Come around 7 and do bring the kids." Lily said then leaving.
Harry sat down on his bed, still eyeing his children. "It'll be tonight then." thought Harry a bit fearful.
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Draco sat in the library, it was the only place he could be alone with out the goon squad (Goyal or Crabbe) hovering over him. He knew that by the end of the month he would have to make his decision and he was dreading it. He wished he could talk to Scarlet but he'd be putting her in danger.
While lost in his thoughts he did not hear as some one approached him and it was not till this some one dropped her bag in front of him did he realized the girl that plagued his dreams was standing in front of him, her dirty blond hair up in a bun and her hands on her hips a scowl on her face while her eyes where filled with determination.
"You Malfoy are the most despicable, horrid retched person I've ever had the displeasure of meeting. But Draco isn't. I heard you talking to Ginny and I don't know what to make of it." Susan said. Draco went to interrupt her but she would have none of it.
"I'm not done so be quite. Now as I was saying I know you're a death eater and I know that you're a spy. Again I heard you and Ginny talking. I heard you tell her that you love me and that you could never tell me. Well I want to know. Do you love me? Do you?" Susan asked.
"It is people like my family that got your's killed." Draco said trying to make her leave.
"That is not what I asked. I want to know Draco Malfoy, do you love me?" asked Susan.
Draco tried to look away but Susan grabed his chin and forced him to look at her.
"Answer me!" she raged.
"Fine!" yelled Draco pulling away, looking at the table. "I love you Susan Bones. I can't help it! When I see you I get this feeling in my chest that I've never felt before. You have been threw horrors that some still can't even imagine, you lost your parents because of people like mine but still you are kind and soft hearted. You still are willing to help people and you are loyal, one of the most loyalist people I know. I'm sorry if you don't feel the same way but I do love you." Draco said.
The library went quite, Susan looked at Draco as if she was seeing something she had never seen.
"I'd give it a try if you would." Susan said quietly, startling Draco.
"You don't understand what would happen if they found out. They would kill you, your aunt, friends and any other family you have to get to me! I wont let that happen. I can't let it! I will continue with the plan I have." Draco said.
"The plan to stay alone for the rest of your life until a stray curse kills you! We will go to Harry, he would help us. If for no other reason but that I am friends with him. Draco I like you. Your brave and the fact that you are willing to risk your life to help every one else does something to me. Draco I'll go out with you. We can make it work but I can't be with you if you stay with your father. No mater how noble it is I just wont. Make your decision Draco Malfoy and make it carefully. Don't let your pride stand in the way." Susan said then turning away and leaving Draco with his thoughts.
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That night both Harry and Ginny with Jason and Anne made there way down to James' room where they where welcomed in by Lily and found a table set for four with two high chairs for Jason and Anne.
They sat down for dinner and enjoyed a wonderful steak with mash potatoes with string beans. Anne and Jason seemed to enjoy the mash potatoes the best of all as did Ginny and Lily when hand fulls of the food hit James and Harry in the face.
As dinner was finishing up Ginny called for the attention of the group.
"Now Harry before you yell at me I need you to listen all right." Ginny said looking at Harry then back to Lily.
"I've kept contact with Draco and he has informed me that he is in charge of a group that it set to kidnap Lily by the end of this month." Ginny said then adding "I'm sorry Harry but Draco is the best spy we have."
"No one is taking Lily!" James said looking frightful. "Lily well send you back to Griffian manor, you'll be safe there."
"I'm not hidding James. I can't stop living my life, the life I've missed out on for so long. I will not hide!" Lily said.
"I agree with dad." Harry said "But I won't force you to hide but mum for now on you can't go any where by yourself. That is when they will look to strike. I want you with dad, Sirius or Zizi at all times and stay away from Malfoy's gang. They will be the ones to strike." Harry said remaining unusually calm.
"I still say you need to go stay with Molly and her brothers Lily. It would be safer." James said.
"Safer maybe but I wont leave."
For the next half hour both husband and wife went back and forth, James wanting her to leave and Lily refusing.
Mean while Ginny was looking at Harry strangly. "Why was he not demanding Lily to leave? Why was he not yelling at her for talking to Malfoy? Whay was he so damn calm?" Ginny thought.
"Harry," Ginny said aloud seemingly waking him from where ever his mind drifted.
"I'm sorry," he said. "I can't do this."
Harry stood up and left the room, James and Lily going quite.
"Can you watch the kids." Ginny said standing up, filled with worry.
"Of course," James said as Ginny tore out of the room after Harry and soon was behind him as Harry was making his way outside the castle.
"HARRY!" Ginny yelled running after him but it seemed he was in some kind of daze.
The main doors blew open, snow pouring in and Harry with no cloak walked right out into it. Ginny afraid of the way he was acting ran out after him, clutching the sweater she had on in her hands trying to keep herself as warm as she could as she chased Harry out into the night.
As Harry ran he did not relize the layer of snow that had frozen into ice that had sent him sliding until he collopsed onto the group, a small cut on his lip bleeding, the red blood falling onto the snow turning the snow pink.
This is where Ginny finally caught up to him. He was turning blue from the cold as was she. His black hair was white, covered in snow flakes.
"Harry," she said kneeling in front of him. "Harry what's going on."
"I thought I could tell you." he whispered as the wind hallowed. "But I can't break your heart Ginny. I can't."
"Tell me Harry. What ever it is we can fight it together. We can fight anything together Harry." Ginny said convincingly.
"You don't understand. It isn't anything we can fight." Harry said.
"Tell me." Ginny said pulling out her wand finally and casting heating charms on Harry and herself.
So Harry did, he told her what death told him and what Hermione herself found and that he may have to make a sacrifice a sacrifice that could very well cost him his own life.
Ginny sat there in the snow holding him as he broke down, for the first time in a year Harry broke down.
"I don't want to Ginny. I don't want to leave you and the kids and every one else. You'd think I would not be afraid of death but I am Ginny. I'm afraid of leaving." He told her as she held him tight.
"But I will Ginny if I have to. If it is my last choice Ginny I would never not do it to save you, to save this world that has damned me at every turn but given me the one thing that had made it all bearable. Ginny I love you and I love our kids just please no matter what never forget it." Harry said.
Ginny hugged him tight, "We will find another way Harry. Even if it is set in stone, stone can be broken. Oh Harry." she said tears streaking her own face.
She leaned down and kissed him on his lips, on his forehead on his nose.
When they both finally where calm enough Ginny was able to convince Harry to come back to the castle before they both caught a deadly cold.
Ginny was able to get Harry all the way to his bed and tucked in.
"Goodnight Harry." Ginny said kissing his head.
"I'm sorry Ginny." he said drifting off to sleep.
Ginny watched him fall to sleep before ripping from the room and up to the Head Girls dormitory and not even knocking she barged into Hermione's room where she found Hermione at her desk reading a book and occasionally taking notes on it.
"Hermione Granger Black you better tell me what the bloody hell is going on." raged Ginny slamming the door shut and causing Hermione to jump from her seat.
"He told you." Hermione said as more of a statement.
"Yes he bloody well did but now I need you to explain this to me. Show me the diary and tell me how we can change this." Ginny pleaded wanting above anything else to punch something.
"It is all back at Griffian Manor in Godric's room. Godric and I are trying to find a different way but nothing has come up yet Ginny. I'm sorry." Hermione sadly said.
"This isn't fair." Ginny said finally picking up a vase that was in Hermione's room and throwing it against the wall.
"It is always Harry. Why can't it ever be some one else. I don't know what I'd do Hermione if he was gone. I don't know how I would raise our children, how I could go on. He is apart of me and I can't loose him." Ginny said.
Hermione went over to her and hugged Ginny tight.
"Then we wont let it happen Ginny. We'll fight it, we have to." Hermione said and Ginny nodded but stayed in the older girls arms and crying like a baby, crying like she never could in front of Harry. For Harry she had to remain strong but here in this room Ginny let herself go.
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Zizi ran like beast looking for Lily but instead ran into her husband Sirius.
"Zizi what the bloody hell?" Sirius asked.
"I found it!" she said with pure excitement.
"Found what?" asked Sirius.
But Zizi did not answer Sirius as she continued on her journy to find Lily who she finally found in James' chamber's with her grand children and her own son Chris.
"Lily I found it!" Zizi said waving a paper around furiously.
"Found what?" Lily asked.
"I found away to get it off Lily! I found a way!"
Poll-
Should Draco be with Susan and leaving his dear old dad?
also what do u think about this updating thing? i think i'll update till July 14th and then stop till around the 20th. What do you think?
As well i'd like to know when you all got this notion i'd kill Harry though i may. I have yet to decide, it could be intresting. But has any one figured out i don't like to kill people but rather bring them back? But you all may have given me a great idea so maybe i will kill him... you'll just have to read to find out and Review! Reviews could always change my mind lol!
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