Hello, Ribbonkirby here, (or Kirbycat89, as most people call me) with my first D N angel and first song fic.
Disclaimer: I don't own D N angel, cuz if I did Satoshi and Daisuke would be official, Risa either dead or in pain and Riku well, I wouldn't know what to do with her…
Disclaimer 2: I do not own the song or lyrics to "If I could be with you" Shunichi Miyamoto does.
By the way, this song comes out in the 3rd DVD of D N Angel, so go but it, and hear it and tell me if you don't think this song can't relate to anyone but Satoshi and Daisuke.
Warning: In case you didn't read my summary this has implied Shonen-ai, so please don't complain that I didn't warn you…
If I could be with you
"Um...Yes?"
"I was wondering if you'd like to walk home together."
"Um…sorry Satoshi-kun, but I already promised Riku-kun I'd walk home with her…um."
"No, it's alright, I was just wondering."
"But umm if you'd like, we can walk home tomorrow Satoshi-kun…"
"…Satoshi-kun?"
Satoshi's thoughts were interrupted and he blinked his thoughts away.
Looking away from the open window, his gaze fell upon the red head's face currently in front of him.
I wanted to see you
But I couldn't
So I was always just gazing into the sky…
"Yes, Niwa-kun?"
"Cal me Daisuke, or I won't answer you," Daisuke said a little upset but friendly at the same time.
"Daisuke…kun?"
"Much better."
His frowning face was then replaced with a worried one.
"I asked you if you were alright, Satoshi-kun…The school's bell had already wrung, but when I got up to leave, I noticed that you were still here, looking out the window with a sad look on your face."
Satoshi just blinked.
"Well?"
"I'm fine Ni- I mean Daisuke-kun." Satoshi lied, still upset that he had been caught.
An odd silence passed between the two, until Daisuke spoke.
"Are you upset because I couldn't walk home with you?"
Satoshi looked down and shook his head.
"No…I was just…thinking." He lied yet again to the only person who had ever truly cared about him.
"About what?"
Daisuke's face became even more worried
"You know, you can always tell me anything, that is, if you want to."
He gave Satoshi a sad looked and continued.
"That's what friends are for right?"
Satoshi gave Daisuke a pained look, but quickly erased it.
I wanted so bad to tell you,
But I couldn't
And the wind has stopped
So much, I love you so much
But my feeling isn't reflected in your eyes…
"It's nothing Daisuke-kun, but thank you for your concern."
Daisuke gave Satoshi an unsure look before picking up his things.
"You're welcome, but I have to go now and meet Riku-kun. I'm already late."
Satoshi gave him a small nod and the other smiled.
"See you later Satoshi-kun."
You're smiling at me
Without even knowing my feeling at all
I can't smile back with a face of a friend…
Satoshi's eyes followed the red head, and didn't get up to leave until he had disappeared.
He gathered all his belongings, slipped through the hallways and stepped outside into the world around him.
No matter how hard he tried though, his thoughts lingered on the conversation he had just had. His "friend's" worried ruby eyes, his frowns, his smiles, his kindness in words, and that's when Satoshi's heart sunk.
He had hated making Daisuke sad and worried, but…why did it have to be him?
I want you to know my heartrending sorrow
I can't continue hiding my feelings like this
Because it's so painful…
Daisuke had Riku. Riku who was more beautiful, Riku who loved him back, Riku who…
was a female.
Ever since Satoshi had found out what the tugging at his heart, when ever he was near Daisuke, meant, he had hated himself for it.
Daisuke would never think of him that way. Heck, he was even lucky that Daisuke even considered him a friend.
His friendship with Daisuke meant everything to him, and he wasn't going to risk it, or lose it because of a stupid feeling.
So instead he tried to ignore it, but the darkness and emptiness in his heart only increased.
Because I couldn't say it
And I was lonely
I kept it all inside me
If I tell you
I wouldn't be able to be with you anymore…
Drops of water began to hit Satoshi as he turned the corners and streets completely lost in thought and unaware of where he was going.
Daisuke would never return his feelings, Satoshi convinced himself.
Why should he even bother?
Why had he even bothered?
Was it because he understood, or was it because he was the only one who had ever even tried to become his friend?
Maybe it wasn't even love he felt towards the boy, maybe it was something else.
He imagined himself killing Daisuke and seeing him on the floor marred with blood, but his vision quickly ended with a sharp pain in his heart, that nearly sent him into tears.
He could never feel that way towards Daisuke, he shuddered as the image continued to haunt him.
If I didn't meet you,
I wouldn't have to experience this
If I could hate you
I wouldn't have had this much pain…
The droplets increased in number, and before Satoshi knew it he was soaked.
Not only that, he was also a bit lost. He really didn't mind it though, it was better than being locked up in a small apartment all the time.
Maybe his walk would help him forget about Daisuke. Perhaps this was the solution to his problem, forgetting…
Satoshi didn't want the pain in his heart any longer. He didn't want to flinch whenever he heard him say her name.
He just wanted it to end.
Standing alone in the rain,
Without an umbrella
I'm waiting for the burning fire in my heart
To go out
Street after street, Satoshi walked.
He ignored the stared from the other people. He ignored the fact that he didn't have an umbrella. He just didn't care anymore.
He didn't care if he got sick; he even felt pleasure at the thought of himself dying from the disease.
Maybe then Niwa-kun would care, maybe then he would notice and finally feel his pain.
Satoshi mind played with the thought, but then he frowned. He didn't like the thought of Daisuke in pain either.
So absorbed in his thoughts, Satoshi didn't hear his name being called. So lost in his mind, that he didn't realize, while crossing the street, that the intersection lights were on the no walking symbol and that a car was speeding his way, and that there was no chance of it stopping…
"Satoshi-kun!"
Before I noticed
The rain has already stopped
I feel a little warmth in my squeezed hand…
When Satoshi opened his eyes, after being grabbed by the hand and pulled back, he felt the warmth from the object that his face and body was pulled up against.
He could hear the person's chest pounding and the heavy breaths of it above him.
He enjoyed the sweet feeling, but his body felt awkward because the person he was leaning into was shorter than him.
Pulling away though, was not an option, due to the strong arm around him, binding him close to the body.
"You're alright…You're safe…" The person managed to gasp.
The voice startled the blue haired boy, as he looked up to see his savoir.
"Daisuke-kun…"
Daisuke's face was flushed red, but he was smiling.
For a moment the two stared at each other.
Red meeting blue, blue meeting red and Satoshi felt sure that for a second he thought he saw a strange look dance across the other's eyes.
Daisuke finally let Satoshi free of his grip, but continued holding on to his friend's hand.
"Thank you for saving me…I owe you one."
"Of course not, I'm just glad that you're safe. Are you hurt?"
Satoshi looked at his stinging wrist but ignored it when he saw the other's hand still there.
"I'm fine."
Daisuke looked away from the blue eyes locked on to his, and glanced up at the parasol above them.
"Do you … still want to walk home with me?"
The thief's other half waited for an answer, but when he didn't get one he sadly looked back towards Satoshi's face…and saw that he was wearing a small smile on his lips.
"Of course Niwa-kun," Satoshi said as they started to walk, hand in hand.
He saw Daisuke blush and then say, "Daisuke, remember?"
"Fine, you win, Daisuke-kun." Satoshi said, and Daisuke noted, with another smile.
"It's so weird seeing you smile, Satoshi-kun."
Daisuke laughed.
"Is it wrong to be weird?"
Daisuke smiled and leaned his head on Satoshi's shoulder.
…
"Nah, I like it when you smile, Satoshi-kun."
I'll take being your friend…
Satoshi smiled again.
If I can be with you.
When I heard this song I literally wanted to cry. It's the way he sings it or something…but I love it.
So what did you think? A nice review would be helpful winkwink, even if it's to correct something, and if you're going to flame…please have a good reason to, cuz if it's nonsense well…
Oh and I'm thinking of adding more on to it, but I'm not sure…should I make it into a big story? Well, write what you think and thanks for reading!
Kirbycat89