Dear readers,
Hmm... didn't think you'd see me again, did you? Sadly, it's not for an update. I'm just here to speak my mind. Recently, I've recieved a few reviews in which the reviewer was, to say the least, extremely unhappy with my choice to discontinue Hiei's Mall Madness. Because I can't really describe the reviews correctly, here is what they said:
hieis-rubber-ducky: crying your insane! YOU COULD AT LEAST TRY TO CONTINUE! YOU KILL ME! REALLY! THIS WAS ONE OF MY FAVS, AND YOUR JUST GONNA TAKE IT AWAY AND NOT EVEN TRY! IVE BEEN HERE SINCE THE BEGINING EVEN THOUGH I DIDNT POST! AND TO KNOW THAT MY FAV AUTHOR IS JUST GONNA QUIT IS IRITATING! you really kill me. you really do.
otakuintrainig: DAMN YOU TO HELL FOR NOT FINISHING IT! YOU SUCK! I LOVE THE STORY TO BITS BUT NOT IF YOU DON"T FINISH IT! GR!
My response to both would only be that I'm incredibly sorry that you two are so unhappy with my choice. I mean, I didn't expect many of you to be jumping for joy, but I really didn't expect these types of reactions, either. But you must understand that I can't continue HMM anymore. I'm just incapable of that type of humor now... I've tried time after time after time to write another chapter for you guys, but it just wasn't working. My personality has changed greatly since HMM first started; I'm not as random and perky as I was back then... now I'm frequently depressed and my sense of humor seems a bit off. It's just impossible to write more of HMM. I'm sorry. I really am. I didn't want it to end this way, you've got to believe that. HMM was like, dare I say it, my baby; it brought me such joy and helped me pull through all the rough patches in my life. But it's just not helping anymore. I can't do it. HMM will always be special to me, because it's the story that made me realise that I do enjoy writing deeply--even though I do happen to procrastinate a lot. nn;
Ah... I ramble. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'mdeeply sorry that you're so upset by all of this. I didn't want to upset anyone, I really didn't. I apologize. I guess I really do suck for not finishing what I started... I took the coward's way out. Gomen nasai, everyone. I just don't have the will anymore.
However, before I go, I want to say thank you so much to everyone who has been understanding about my choices. You're all wonderful, and I offer you my deepest thanks. You made me feel quite special, and I think I really needed that.
That's all I have to say. Once again, I'm sorry for being such a coward. Hopefully if I ever decide to start a long-term writing project like this again, I'll follow through to the end. Ja Ne, minna-san, best wishes to you all.
-Blaze-chan