My Diary: Robin Sena

May/23

Dear Diary,

A/N: Hey it's Yuna and sorry it took so long to update this story! A miner thing before you read this is it's a bit different from the actual events from the show so in the end enjoy and please review! AAOTD I think I promised you I let you review for one of my chapters first so here it is.

"Robin I am fine. You don't always have to treat me like i'm a child."

Those were the words he said to me. The words that Amon said when I visited him in the hospital today. He was shocked to see me and I was glad I surprised him but yet, still, I felt hurt and sad. I still do. I was only trying to help him seeing that he was in no condition to do things by himself.

I don't understand why. I was only trying to be kind and nice to him. I wanted him to smile from seeing me and from me helping him but no. I only made him angry and bitter.

I could only think of what more hatred could come out of him but not the happiness. But what happiness? Maybe happiness for being alive from the shot? Than again maybe not. Amon, from being his partner for months now, I realized never smiled once or looked happy.

Ha! I asked Doujima something once seeing that she was the romantic type of person. She was like, "I don't know why, Amon just never smiles. Hmm...maybe because he is just a cold hearted person with no heart at all."

I knew Doujima was joking. She always joked, never really serious I realized since the day I came to the STN-J.

Since the day...writing this reminds me of how I first came to the STN-J. Actually it reminds me of why I came to the STN-J.

I remembered. I was lying on the floor out in the street feeling dizzy and weak. Clothes torn and tattered. Something had happened to me before and I couldn't remember what. In fact I couldn't even remember anything else. Not my past, my family, if I even had one, or just where I lived. All I knew was that I was a witch with the power...The destructive power of fire.

I turned my head a little and saw a big hole from a wall next to me. I knew at that moment that I had made that hole with my powers. A moment later, I heard footsteps...and then they stopped in front of me. Someone took hold of my body and lifted me up. I didn't see who that person was but only a blur cause at that moment my body and mind couldn't hold up any longer and I fainted.

It's funny the way I see it. I would of had smacked him for touching me than if I didn't fainted. Amon I mean, and yes it was Amon who saved me. Now thinking about that event, I would never hit Amon now. He was a stranger to me back than but not now of course. You can say I know Amon more than he knows himself. I guess I really do love him. It's hard not to, you can't hide your feelings. I know. I mean, come on! Everyone knows that Sakaki has the hots for Miss Karasuma. I just hope no one knows that I have a crush on Amon. Yes, I know, I know Amon may be a bit older than me. Me being 15 and him being 25. Sometimes I wonder would Amon even bother going out with someone half his age. Still I love him no matter what.

So after the faint and what not, I woke up in some room. People were all over me talking to each other. "So your finally awake." It was Miss Karasuma.

"Hi, I'm Miho Karasuma and welcome to the STN-J." The list went on until every person in the room said their names to me. There was Doujima a hunter, Sakaki a hunter, Michael the hacker, the administrator Kosaka, and of course Amon, the top leader of the STN-J hunters. They told me Amon was the one who found me lying on the street. They also told me what they work and do and that they were looking for me.

They said they discovered a witch. The witch being me. That I had incredibly good powers and that I might be dangerous. I worked for a group called Solomon. They also told me that Solomon was a bad group and that they had defeated them. They also told me about Factory which was destroyed. Now they just hunt down bad witches and lock them up and if necessary kill them.

Then they asked me a lot of questions. Especially the guy Amon. I told them I didn't know anything and couldn't remember anything except that I was a witch with the power of fire.

So I had nowhere else to go but to stay with the STN-J. So I did stay and became a hunter. I was actually quite shock with myself. I became a really good hunter and was made Amon's partner. I controlled my powers and was not dangerous anymore. I guess I learn pretty quickly for my age. I thought the other hunters would be jealous but they were not. They were really nice and we became friends quickly.

I live in a small apartment now. From the money I earned working from the STN-J. At first I had to live inside the STN-J cause I had nowhere else to go to. The place I have lived before my memory was erased, Miss Karasuma said was destroyed. The STN-J hunters didn't know who did it. They guessed it was probably Solomon and probably them who had erased my memories.

I asked them why they would do this to me. They said it was because they probably didn't want to deal with me anymore. Thinking that I would be dangerous to them.

Amon than said something that would forever be in my mind. A man by the name of Father Juliano had saved me. He didn't want me kill and wanted me to live. So the best way was to erased my memories. So whatever happened to me I forget and I would not go out looking for answers. Like who was my mom and dad.

I think I like this father Juliano guy. I mean he was the one that said I should not die but live. I guess he must of been some great person or a leader of some kind. I mean I'm living now and he was the one that probably ordered me not to be killed or something like that I guess.

So Doujima offered me to stay at her apartment before I got this small apartment, but I didn't wanted to bother her. I'm always like that, I realized, after Amon had found me lying on the street. I don't really like living with people that much. I actually like living alone. It's peaceful and quite comforting to me. Unless I get marry but that would be a long way from the future and to whom I get married to I don't know. Maybe to Amon! Shut up! Like he likes me!

Oh my gosh I love this song! The one they're going to play in this radio station next. This song always reminds me of me and Amon, and I know it's just a fantasy, me and Amon being together!!! And I know teenagers always have their favorite lovers or people they like, but hey I love this song. It's call Only Hope and oh they're playing the song now. The song goes like this:

There's a song that's inside of my soul

It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again

I'm awake in the infinite cold

But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands

and pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars

Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing

and laughing again

When it feels like my dreams are so far

Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands and pray

To be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

I give you my destiny

I'm giving you all of me

I want your symphony

Singing in all that I am

At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands and pray

To be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

So that's it. Thats the song. Today is almost over. Meaning I should be going to bed now. Tomorrow will be a new day. I hope it would not be as bad as today. Meaning what happened at the hospital but hey, who knows! Till tomorrow.

A/N Song showed in this chapter is from the artist Mandy Moore. Thanks AAOTD for beta reading this!