Hey, how's it goin? Sorry again for ending the last chapter so soon, I promise that I'll do my best to make this one enjoyable. But enough chat, on with the story.
- - - - - - Inuyasha stopped where he was and allowed himself to listen to every vibration of the scream Kagome let out. Then something 'clicked' inside of him, and his senses went haywire with what they picked up. His nose was the first after his ears, which picked up something of such a familiar and dreaded sound. He didn't know it, but that sound he hated to hear so much was Kagome's scream. It brought back a few vivid memories that told him that someone important was in danger, all of which were shot down by the over flow of power from his transformation.
Then his nose went back to normal for a second, and he detected a familiar scent as well; one of which he also dreaded somewhere in the back of his mind. It was something that again he couldn't recall, but it told him once more that someone important was in danger. And also once again that something he didn't recognize was also being generated from Kagome's body; it was the scent that she unconsciously produced whenever she was afraid for her life.
And as that same miko's body produced one more scent, Inuyasha's memories were sealed inside himself. The scent was that of her tears, and with that mixture of sense recognition (Kagome's scream, amplified scent, and the scent of her tears) he came to.
Inuyasha stared at Kagome, who was still kneeling with her fingers interlaced, praying and hoping that the bloodthirsty youkai that was now her best friend would come to his senses and stop his attack. So many memories came back to Inuyasha and he completely found himself, even though he was just fine two minutes ago. He suddenly felt great sorrow, and that was when he regained his normal form.
The terrified miko looked up at him on reflex, and saw that he was no longer in his full youkai state. She could feel the tears in her eyes beginning to get bigger, and again on reflex she threw herself on the half witted hanyou. "Inuyasha! I'm so glad you're back!" she exclaimed while her grip around his body tightened. Inuyasha suddenly felt even more sorrow come upon him, and he jumped back from her embrace.
Kagome looked up at him and felt a bit of rejection. "What's wrong? I was just happy to see that you're back to normal." she began, sounding sadder as her sentence went on. "Can't I at least hug you?" asked a now very sad Kagome, and Inuyasha met her gaze with an angry one. "Don't you get it! I'm not, err, YOU'RE not safe around me!" he yelled hoping that she would heed his warning, but Kagome responded meekly and acceptant anyway. "Inuyasha, I don't care! Don't you get it! I'm just glad you're back to normal!" she yelled hoping that he really was. And as Inuyasha was about to respond, Kagome cut him off. "No, don't say anything." She reasoned. "There is probably SOME way for you to control you're youkai powers, and-" she stopped, it now being her turn to be cut off. Inuyasha could feel an immense amount of concern rise up in him as he began his argument.
"Kagome, look: I don't want you to die at my hands, all right? I guess you don't yet realize that I transformed without reason; no cause; just for the heck of it." Said an even angrier Inuyasha. "I might kill you and the others at any time and at ANY place!" Kagome stood up and put a fist over her heart while she responded. "But it all happened so fast, and you went back to normal so quickly."
The hanyou knelt down and supported his body with his knees and hands. He thought for a moment, and came to the conclusion that there was only one thing that could be done to stop him from transforming again.
He stood up and informed Kagome, who was rather stunned by the amount of seriousness in his eyes. "I know that. But, what if you die next time? A few seconds is all that I will need." Began Inuyasha, with a certain odd tone in his voice as he continued. "I don't want it to be this way, but there is only one thing that I can do to ensure that I don't kill you." He said rather grimly. "And that is to kill myself." Kagome's heart skipped a beat in realization that he was completely serious, and of course tried to stop him.
"Wait Inuyasha, don't be foolish! There has to be a way we can-" the poor miko was once again cut off by Inuyasha, but this time by his actions. She gasped as she watched him put a claw up to his neck. "Kagome, I know that this might be hard on you, but it's the only way." He said as he extended his claw. Kagome bolted after him from where she stood, sobbing huge tears of fear. "Inuyasha don't!" was all she could say as a voice was heard towards the entrance to the forest.
"My lord! Wait! There is indeed a way for you to control your power!" screamed the voice of a certain flea, none other than Myoga. Inuyasha stopped his attempt on his own life and looked over at the forest. "Myoga? S'that you?" he asked in a completely different tone. Kagome noticed that he was off guard and seized the moment. "SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIIIIIIIIIIT!" Inuyasha, who WAS looking at the entrance to the forest in Myoga's direction, was now newly acquainted with looking directly at the ground. (Or at least he would be looking at it, if he were conscious that is.)
Kagome took a moment to sigh in relief, and then called Kirara over to gather up Inuyasha and take him with them. For a moment the neko was hesitant, but soon found no reason to be afraid of a sleeping hanyou. As she came towards Kagome's current position, the voice of a certain Myoga became a lot louder. "Oh thank goodness you're all right, Kagome!" he began. "I thought that master Inuyasha would have done you in for sure!" he said with a sigh, and was suddenly flattened via Kagome's index finger and thumb.
Myoga responded as he slowly drifted towards the ground. "Never mind." and with that thought he pondered to himself. 'I really should learn when to keep my mouth shut.'
Myoga (after regaining 3D form) explained to Kagome the process of which must take place in order for Inuyasha to take complete and full control of his youkai powers. And after a lot of explanation on a certain flea's part, Kagome took some time for the rest of the short ride home to think about Inuyasha.
'Jerk." she thought halfheartedly. 'What if Myoga hadn't been there to stop him? I may of lost you forever.' she continued to think on various other matters similar to this. 'Who would I laugh with? Who would keep me from danger? Who would I say 'sit' to.' she pondered, and chuckled about the last thought she had, but the other thoughts that came to her mind began to scare her. She still couldn't believe that he was willing to end it just like that, but she knew that he at least had a self-righteous reason. No second thought either, just like that. She refused to believe that it was possible, but none the less it was.
Kagome shook her head. 'No. None of that matters now. Inuyasha would tell me to move on from the past, even though it was only a few minutes ago.' She once again felt tears beginning to cry, but she held them back with all her might. And after a little while longer, she finally shook the thoughts from her head (or so she believed) and focused on a now pressing matter: Getting Miroku and the others out of bed to explain everything that just happened.
Kagome eventually managed to wake everybody up without too much resentment, and that thought is picked up here.
They all sat around a fire on a mat, outside of the tent; where of course they eagerly awaited Inuyasha's regaining of consciousness. But in the mean time, Kagome explained to Miroku and Sango why he was out so late at night and what had taken place. NEway, shortly after Kagome stopped explaining that, Inuyasha awoke from la la land.
Miroku jested on his situation. "So, having a bit of an anger problem, Inuyasha?" his jest was returned to with a death glare, as Inuyasha was not at all happy to have something jokingly be said at the time. And upon reception of the glare Miroku decided that enough was enough, so he stopped. Inuyasha looked around the campfire and took note that everyone was staring directly at him. "What?" he said sounding a bit annoyed, but was responded to with a more serious tone by Kagome. "Oh you know what, I just got finished filling everybody in about your little episode just now." Inuyasha looked at everyone in disgust and keh'd before he commented.
"I...never mind." Was all that he managed to get out as Kagome began to say what she had been waiting to say up until just now when Inuyasha woke up. "Anyway," she began. "Myoga here says that the only way to give Inuyasha the ability to control his youkai powers is to make him a youkai." She stated, making sure that Inuyasha had heard every word.
Sango and Miroku looked at Kagome a bit confused. "What do you mean, 'make him a youkai?'" began Sango. "We all know that he is a hanyou." Myoga answered her question quite informatively. "Yes, that may be true, Lady Sango. But as you should know, Lord Inuyasha seeks the Shikon Jewel to become a full-fledged youkai. Do you not recall this?" Sango almost smacked herself in realization of the amount of stupidity in her words. "Ah yes of course, how foolish of me." She admitted with a faint blush of embarrassment while Myoga continued. "Anyway, I am obligated to ask of you, my Lord, surely YOU knew of this?" he asked, directing his words towards Inuyasha, who feh'd and responded admittedly. "Yeah, I did."
Kagome's eyes widened at his response. "Then why did you try to kill yourself!" She questioned quite angrily, who was responded to by a confession from her hanyou friend. "Actually, I didn't really try to kill myself." Kagome became furious at his response. "What do you mean you didn't 'really try to kill yourself', was that all just a prank or something!" questioned an even more furious Kagome. "No, not a prank. Just a way to take you guys out of it. Said Inuyasha, preparing to explain a lot, and continued.
"Y'see, I know well that I need the shards of the sacred jewel to become a true full youkai." He began. "And by doing this I would be giving myself a youkai body, one that is able to control the power that I contain." Miroku interrupted his explanation. "Then why were you attempting to fake your own death?" who was responded to by a surefire answer.
"Because I wasn't sure that you guys would approve of it, and even if you did, I wouldn't want you around when I ate it just to be safe in case I went crazy or something. And if you thought I was dead I could have easily done what I intended to do without worrying anybody." He added, making clear his intentions. "Plus," he added once again. "I would need to get the jewel as soon as possible as to make sure that nothing happened to you guys in the mean time." He said as he completed his thought.
Kagome looked at Inuyasha and could feel that she was about to cry. "You jerk! I would've had no problem giving you the sacred jewel fragments I've got if I had known that! But NO! You had to go and put my emotions through that hell and scare me to death making me think that you were going to kill yourself!"
Inuyasha looked back at Kagome a little surprised. "Hey what are you getting so worked up for!" he asked rather loudly, not thinking before he spoke. "I was the one who was gonna die, not you, you idiot!" he stated once again not thinking about his words, and with that phrase Sango and Miroku sighed while a sweat drop appeared on the backs of both of their heads.
Kagome had had it. 'First he makes me think he's gonna kill himself, THEN he has the nerve to give off the impression that I shouldn't care about him! Not to mention he almost killed ME! What a jerk!' she thought, while Inuyasha wondered and became confused. "Now what are you mad about?" that did it, Kagome was steamed. "SIT!" she screamed, not even thinking about how mad that would make Inuyasha, who of course glared at her from his new spot on the ground all the while becoming more angry. "Okay, would you mind telling me WHY you're doing that!" he exclaimed as he hopped to his feet.
Kagome stood up and turned around. "Don't you get it?" she asked meekly, who was responded to by a confused silver haired hanyou. "Get what?" he asked just before Kagome responded. "That mabey I CARE about what happens to you?"
And with that she tossed her shards of the jewel to Inuyasha, giving him new light to the situation as she began to walk to the tent to get some sleep. The hanyou stood up, ready to give his opinion on the matter, when- "Hey, now wait a-" "SIT!" he was cut off by an enormous amount of dirt to his face.
Kagome continued on her way to the tent, and shortly reached her destination as Inuyasha sat up to pout. "Oi! Man I hate it when she does that! I don't know what the heck she's so mad about, I told her that I wasn't really gonna die! Geeze!" He sat there for quite a while muttering and grumbling to himself when he finally decided to wise up and ask Miroku about the situation. (But little did he know that Kagome was wide-awake in the tent just waiting to hear what Inuyasha had to say)
"Hey Miroku, what do you think about all this? About Kagome gettin' all ticked off and everything?" he asked, hoping to hear an honest answer from a monk that is not usually wise to trust. Miroku looked at Inuyasha for a moment, and came to the conclusion that he really didn't know why Kagome was so mad at him. "Inuyasha, do you have any common sense that all or should I say MOST men are born with?" the hanyou looked at Miroku full of confusion. "What the heck is that supposed to mean?" he asked grudgely, having absolutely no idea about what he was talking about. Miroku spoke his next few words with a sigh. "Inuyasha, what I'm trying to say is, don't you like Kagome? Just a little?" Inuyasha stared at Miroku angrily, due to his butting in on the current situation, and Kagome listened intently. Or at least Inuyasha believed that he was butting in.
"Hey that's none of your business, ya stupid pervert!" exclaimed Inuyasha, forgetting that it was HE who asked for Miroku's advice. Miroku sighed once more. "Do you want my help or not?" asked Miroku, who was beginning to feel a little agitated. "Y'know, come to think of it NO I DON'T! I'll just talk to Kagome myself tomorrow!" and with that he walked off from Miroku's presence and found a nice tree.
Inuyasha sat for the rest of the night wondering to himself just how he was going to apologize to Kagome, but couldn't think of a way. But instead of wasting his time on something that couldn't really be helped, he thought about where he could find some more jewel fragments. The ones he now has are purified, so he can't use them. But, there was ONE place that came to his mind. 'Tomorrow, we're gonna go see Kouga.'
I know, I know. Not too much action this time, but it WILL get better. And I'm sorry it's so short and a bit confusing but it's 1:00 in the morning and I'm screwed. So, R&R, see ya!