Chapter One- What Ifs Never Help Anyone…
A/N- PLEASE READ THE ONE AT THE END! Thanks!
P.S.- Kelso the ending WILL shock you!
Disclaimer- Yah… sure I own Harry Potter…and also up most supreme ruler of the universe…. Well if you believed the first lie… also the summary is based roughly on a poster for Star Wars; Attack of the Clones, most likely owned by George Lucas etc.
To be man is to feel.
Feel pain.
Sorrow.
Passion.
Joy.
Heart-ache.
Angst.
Amusement.
Humor.
Sadness.
Surprise.
Grief.
To be human is to feel… undergo… experience…. feel
love.
Albus Dumbledore always believed so. He always stood by the fact that the most righteous path was the most humane one. Always.
Mankind has always had found the purpose for survival based on themotives- the motives created by their way of thinking.
To tell someone to loose that way- they loose more then just some baggage-
They loose their reason for living.
But hadn't he himself been the one who decided once- when he was at the one moment to decide- to leave any of that?
But to force that decision- on enthusiastic, passionate, intelligent, individuals but who through it all were no more then mere children?
That is where the ministry was doubly mistaken.
His eyes scrolled up and down a list of around a dozen names of those who planned on joining the ministry- joining, still after they proclaimed their new law. The ministry told them the expectations last night- and that night handed out the list of the final count- those who considered them selves fully capable- no backing out now if the ministry chooses them by the time they receive their marks on their exams to begin training.
What they expected was inhumane- unreasonable- irrational- and even by the strongest will… undoable.
Because, as Dumbledore knew so well, that in the world now so full of darkness, evil and immortality shadowing all that is good, light could still always shine through because there was a force stronger then it all.
A force created by an unconditional bond, deep affection, loyalty, devotion and understanding that those who inflict pain on others underestimate. The heart's, not the mind's ability… the strength of love. Different then the platonic bond of brothers… but a strength of two totally incoherent beings to become one.
The so called "baggage" the ministry wanted its elite to avoid fully was also a driving force in everything in life.
Fear?
Fear forces to act- it may be hid but a better enticement can never exist.
Anger?
A driving force…
Love…
The single greatest thing in existence that one can ever feel… a sense of overwhelming pleasure…
And these 12 young individuals have decided they were capable of giving it all up, for a cause they believe in. The names of the talented witches and wizards… he read on until he reached the last two names on the list- written side by side, causing him to feel terribly pained. They shouldn't have a faith like this, no one should make such sacrifices without time to think it though, but these two (he never expected less of them though)…The name of two individuals who he sensed the influence of love most in- two whom… where… well….
James Potter
and
Lily Evans.
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James Potter could still remember the first time he met her. Still. It had been so long ago- but the memory was still fresh in his mind, because he never wanted to forget it.
"Jamesies," his mother cooed for the millionth time embracing her only son once again, and then turning up to look back at his father. "Can you believe my little boy is actually going to Hogwarts? But he's still a baby!"
"Mum!" James groaned fidgeting away from the warm, motherly grasp of Mrs. Potter.
"Love, you are embarrassing him. I thought we were planning on being those "cool" parents. I think you are failing miserably. Remember how you were like at eleven, couldn't wait to get away, huh?"
"Well…if… oh Jamsies!" she coddled for the last time before standing up and straightening herself to appear more like the dignified top auror she was (or as she appeared outside of her family that is). "Now behave son."
"But," objected his father playfully "MY son… I don't think that's possible dear."
"Did your father give you any ideas this summer James?"
James smiled wickedly.
"Remember us in school? You were not exactly an angel. James I remember one time in seventh year your MOTHER-"
"Shut up dear, he'll be late… now James… oh I'll miss you so! Remember to write!"
"Got it mum!" He said as he hugged her back, followed by his father- and his mother once again as he finally boarded the train and started the search for a suitable compartment.
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He had been sitting in the compartment for a total of TEN minutes now- and NO ONE except and annoyingly snobbish looking head-boy had walked in so far. (Must remember to prank that one later…) Now James Potter may start to get fidgety… and twitchy if he gets over bored…
Get it?
Over-board…
Over bored?
Yah- he was THAT bored stiff…
And when he thought he was going to get a hernia if nothing happened soon something happened.
Something that he would never forget- something that would change his life forever.
He heard on the compartment door a quiet knock, and he almost jumped up from the excitement of something FINALLY happening- someone FINALLY arriving (had he been that early? His mom was quite anal about time…) to open the door.
Opening the door really only consisted of lifting the latch in his part and doing so, a pretty girl with vibrant red hair and brilliant green eyes walked in giving him a weak- but still engaging all the same.
"Um- hi. Do you think that, if it's okay, that I can sit here?" her reply was a bit sad though.
"Um- er- er- er…" stuttered a stunned James Potter.
She was the absolute most beautiful girl he had ever seen- honestly… she strangely looked like Christmas really.
No, not because of her hair and eye color or anything… but just in the fact that she carried such an aurora… that, well reminded him of- home. And he liked her right away.
But as a cocky and immature eleven year old he didn't really know how to show it. He was really bad at it really.
"Excuse me?" she asked confused.
"Well er-"James Potter wasn't really one to normally one to be at all skittish around anyone- even the Minister of Magic (but that's another story…) so this was really weird for him.
"Okay, that's alright- you know I can just go somewhere else…"
NO!
Wait!
Christmas was leaving!
"Oh- no, you can sit here if, you… er want."
"Thanks," she said raising an eyebrow and taking a seat across from him.
Okay- time to make SOMEKIND of conversation…
"Are you a first year too?" he asked.
"Yup," she said smiling now and extending a hand. "Lily Evans."
"Er…"
"And you are?" she asked.
"Oh-yes, sorry… James Potter." His mother would freak out if she knew how he was disregarding his manors that she had drilled into his brain.
"Nice to meet you 'oh-yes, sorry…James Potter'." She said smirking slightly.
So, she was witty now was she?
He liked that.
"Ah yes- Flower, that'd be me."
"Oh so he talks?"
"Yes very fluently too just wait and see- hear I mean."
She just smiled back shaking her head slightly.
"So are you, a Muggle-born?"
"Huh?"
So she was.
"Are your parents not wizards?"
"Oh no- I'm the only one in the family as far as we know- wait how did you know?"
"Your charms- they're of Muggle London- most wizards don't have even know what Big Ben is."
"Very perspective Mr. Potter," she said, the hesitantly and quieter. "Is that- well a bad thing?"
He felt like slapping himself on the fore-head. Was he sounding like a prejudice Slytherin idiot? Darn it.
"No! I was just wondering- there's nothing bad or anything."
"But," she hesitantly continued now. "Do you think I'll be behind?"
"Nah," he said shaking it off. "Tons of people come from Muggle homes- without an ounce of knowledge about anything and they do fine- you'll be okay."
"Okay then" she said feeling a blush coming on for some odd reason. "So then I'm guessing your parents are wizards?"
"Yup," he repeated a bit dully. "And their parents and their parents- I guess I'm what you would call a pure-blood."
"Interesting," she mused. "So you know a lot of stuff already?"
Now he was the one to feel a bit odd…
"I guess a bit." The he abruptly changed the subject. "So then you don't know about the houses then do you?"
"I guess not from a student's perspective- but I have read 'Hogwarts; A History' and…"
"Lily, Lily, Lily- you do have a lot to learn, huh?"
"I'm guessing I do," she said in the perfect mimic of his sly voice. "So are YOU going to teach me?"
He let out a falsely over-exaggerated sigh, " I'm guessing I'll have to."
Causing her to laugh shaking her head- making him laugh as well as they made there way up to their first year of Hogwarts…
And so would began what would seem like the start of a beautiful friendship that would continue throughout Hogwarts and-
If only fate had been so kind.
If only he had not been so immature and cocky.
If only he hadn't been as stupid as to how HORRIBLE it would make him feel years later- and make him keep wonder what if, what if…
It would create his only regret.
But now it didn't even matter did it? But it still DID. It wasn't right to be asked this suddenly. He felt furious.
He knew better- the ministry just didn't want any of their 'soldiers' involved in some sort of romantic love.
Wait-
He really should stop thinking like that… he was beginning to forget why he wanted to be an auror from the beginning- for other people. For what he believed was right.
He wasn't going to go on being selfish or anything.
It wasn't- well fair.
But then again- it wasn't like it was going to happen anyways- he ruined any chance with Lily Evans back in year one- but that never stopped any sense of desire that he frantically worked to hide.
But this was too extreme- too… too… he felt angry… but how strange is it that the origin of the anger was love?
And he was not angry at the one he loved or anything, but more at the whole situation.
It was overwhelming for him at the moment.
He never betted on anything near this happening!
It was all just so confusing…
It was great, just damn great…
OMG! I just swore- well typed a swear word… but I NEVER swear… wow! I must really like this story…
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Does anyone know ANY Lily James post-Hogwarts era stories that ARE NOT part of a series?
Because the only one I've ever read has been FIGHTING FATE which is GREAT, but I just want to get a feel for one- and FF is not completely post-Hogwarts either…
I'm a bit upset! LOL! But really I am! I have WAY over 200 hits on this story…But for some reasons the review do not show it! This is kind of weird… I liked it better BEFORE I knew the hits! I get slightly upset, I LOVE each and every review…
But that gets me started as to WHY some people do not like it enough to review? Many reasons are on my list of course. They clicked on it by accident, took time to read it… thought it was about another couple and were mistaken etc. Any how this is one request to my readers.
If you happen to read my chapter and think it is any how in any way slightly worthwhile for any sort of recognition please do so… ten seconds of your day really make mine! (Especially since I am so very home-sick but that is getting WAY of Topic : ) though!) I just like to know how I'm doing that's all- POSITIVE and NEGATIVE (if with reason!) so please help me here guys! I'd really appreciate it!
I also hope it wasn't out-of-character or anything! I do my best to stay with in the books… with a bit a quirks of course!
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There's a LOT to come! Including Lily's point of view into why L/J did not stay friends! Hehe! Just you wait and see!
Like always,
TajM
P.S. - this was going to be posted July 11- but it won't let me LOG on… so the delay is sadly not in my control guys! Sorry! Bysies then!
P.P.S. (or is it P.S.S. whatever…)- My marauders, everything I write is with you in mind- but why dedicate something so sad when it's so unlike us? No reason… I'll just have to wait until it's happier…! LOL!