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My mouth opened in a silent scream, a drizzle of blood escaped my parted lips. My eyes grew wide as I stared straight into his eyes.
He thrust the knife further into my gut smiling all the way through. What the fuck was going on? This guy was a half-breed, he didn't need knifes! The pain was incredible. Warm blood seeped from the fresh wound covering my shirt in the crimson liquid. I felt the salty tears drop as I gasped for breath. My entire body convulsed as waves of excruciating pain swept over me. It was like nothing I had ever felt before, I felt weak, numb and cold.
"Why?" I gasped spluttering a little on my blood.
Kelm laughed madly taking my face in his hands. I couldn't protest as he placed his mouth over mine forcing my lips apart with his tongue. I felt so weak. A sob escaped my blood stained lips, a little more blood escaped from my parted lips. I couldn't even scream. My pale face was contorted in an inaudible scream which I couldn't even voice because of the mind numbing pain surging through me. I was loosing a lot of blood… I was going to die. Everything began to grow hazy. Kelm's face which was now so very close to mine blurred out of focus as precious life began to leave me.
I was 18… The world began to darken as I fell into the clutches of death.
"This is Constantine, John Constantine asshole"
"Ah Mr Constantine." Kelm whispered.
He dropped Faith carelessly to the floor, licking his bloody fingers. Faith's blood.
"Why? Why would you do this?" Chas asked from behind him.
The half-breed chuckled steeping over Faith's blood soaked body.
"Couldn't let her deport me now could I." He said grinning smugly.
"You half-breed piece of shit!" Chas replied angrily steeping forward.
"Chas." John warned pushing the boy behind him.
"You tipped the scales half-breed. Now…" He started pulling out his holy shot gun.
"Go to hell." He stated coldly firing the bullet straight into the half-breed's skull.
It shattered into a million fragments, creating a pile of dust and rags on the floor.
"Faith?" John asked nervously.
"Urg…" The girl moaned from her position on the floor.
"Faith." John repeated making his way over to her crumpled form.
"It hurts…" She choked a little more blood escaping her crimson mouth.
"Shh, hold on." John replied.
Her wound was deep, there was so much blood… He placed his hands over the large hole attempting to stop the blood.
"John…" She said moaning at the sudded pressure.
She was so cold… His warm fingers brushed against her icy cold face.
"Faith listen to me. I need to get you to a hospital okay… Chas!" John said turning round to face his young apprentice.
"Call an ambulance tell them she's lost a lot of blood"
Chas nodded a look of total and utter determination taking over the boys carefree features.
Faith began to tremble violently.
"I'm so cold…" She sobbed shutting her eyes tightly.
"C'mon kiddo don't die on me now! I'm gonna get you out of this mess." John promised.
He could feel her blood spilling through his fingers… She was slipping away.
"Why…" She tried choking a little before tying again.
"Why are you doing this?" She spluttered.
Why was he doing this? Why was he taking a particular interest in this girl? Why was she so special… This happened all the time in LA why take an interest now?
"Because…" He said slowly.
"You're 18 years old for Christ sake. I won't let you throw your life away, I won't let you die." He said.
She began to cough and splutter tiny blots of blood and spittle escaping her mouth. She was shaking so much… This was the end he knew it.
"Faith… Don't let go"
"…Don't let go"
Those simple three words echoed in my mind over and over as John Constantine disappeared before my eyes.
I couldn't even feel the pain any more. I was numb, my entire body icy cold. I felt nothing.
"Faith honey do mommy a favour" a honey smooth voice called in the distance.
"Yeah mommy?" A little girl with red plaits replied timidly.
"Gimmie a hug." The woman sobbed wiping away her tears.
The little girl moved forward nervously wrapping her short arms around her mother.
"I'm sorry mommy." The little girl said.
"It's okay baby just promise me you won't make stories up again"
"But mommy I didn't make it up! He was a bad bad man! He was a demon mommy he needs to go to hell." The little girl whined.
The woman jumped back as if she had been physically struck.
"Why do you have to lie!" She screamed at the trembling child.
"Why Faith" She screamed striking the girls face.
The girl moved back angry tear rolling down her face.
"I didn't lie, it's the truth! It's the truth!" She screamed fleeing to the safety of her room.
"Faith…" He said softly into my ear.
I recoiled slightly not used to such closeness.
"Yeah?" I asked tearing my eyes from the TV screen.
He ran his hand softly down my arm moving that little bit closer.
I knew his intentions I wasn't THAT naive. He had been so good to me, taken me in when no one else would.
"Let me touch you…" He whispered caressing my breasts.
I had never been so nervous in my entire life. Yeah I had been rebellious while living with my parents, I had gone out with guys, got drunk, messed about… But I had never gone all the way.
I sighed lightly unsure how to react.
He took my sigh as one of please leaning in closer. He pressed his hot lips against my cheek, moving his hand lower to stroke my inner thigh.
I bent my head backwards slightly allowing him easier access to my neck which he was now kissing lightly.
"I want you." He soothed.
I didn't know what I was getting myself into but at the time it felt like the decent thing to do, I felt like I was repaying my debt to him.
He had been gently savouring every last second of my virginity, but that didn't last long…
"Stop!" I begged crying out in pain as he forced himself inside me.
No lube… It hurt like a son of a bitch that's for sure.
It was my first try at anal sex and Balthazar wasn't exactly going easy on me.
"Please!" I sobbed as I felt my flesh tearing as he entered.
He didn't answer, just ploughed on regardless of my protesting.
At first he ignored me getting on with the task at hand then as time went on he began to tease me finding new ways to inflict pain on me.
My eye's snapped open.
The pain hit me like a thousand knifes stabbing me all over my body… But it had only been one knife that had caused this hurt.
"You're awake, good." A nurse stated with a cheery smile on her face.
I moaned. Just great. My favourite place. I hated hospitals but I hated nurses more… They were just so fake!
"Don't worry about the pain it's perfectly normal let me go get the doctor, see if we can up your dosage just a tweak!" She chirped.
Fuck. I wanted to slap her.
"You have some visitors, they've been hanging around since you were brought in. Would you like to see them?" She asked surveying me carefully.
"Yeah." I stated.
I needed to thank John for helping me back there.
"Okay." She said pursing her lips.
"But not long, you really do need your rest." She finished leaving the room, her shoes clicking noisily on the hard floor.
I sighed closing my eyes. It was a miracle I was still alive.
"Faith"
"Balthazar?" I said opening my eyes to see Balthazar enter the room closely followed by a very angry looking John.
"Yes, I was worried when you didn't show up… Found out you had a little run in with Kelm"
I rolled my eyes. The caring guy he was…
"Whatever." I said dryly.
"You okay?" John asked sympathetically.
"Yeah just peachy John I have a hole in my stomach"
"Don't sweat it. You were lucky it missed all your vital organs"
"Fabulous." "You want me to leave"
I didn't reply.
"The doctor said you'll need someone to take care of you when you get out…" He said slowly.
"You volunteering"
"Unless you want Balthazar"
"No I don't think I'm up for sex games after I've just been STABBED!" He nodded.
"You can stay with me"
"Thank you"
Balthazar cleared his throat.
"What?" I asked in frustration.
"Nice of you to acknowledge my existence." Balthazar replied smoothly.
"What?" I repeated.
"Never mind." He said a grin on his face.
"I'll be seeing you." He said before leaving my room.
The nurse bustled in with a grey haired doctor.
"Nice to see you're awake Faith." He smiled.
"I understand you've been experiencing some pain? Don't worry I'll increase your dosage now." He and the nurse began talking as she fiddled around with a dial near by.
"When can I leave?" I cut in.
"Well, not for a couple of days. You'll need to be monitored so we can administer your pain relief"
"No." I stated shaking my head.
"Faith you don't understand"
"I'm not staying here you can't make me! John can look after me so I can discharge myself"
"Maybe you should stay…" John started.
"NO! I'm NOT staying." I said again this time more firmly.
"Are you absolutely sure… I can give you pain relief but not to the extent as I can here"
"I can deal. I just wanna get outta here, okay"
The doctor nodded giving in to defeat.
"You can take care of her?" He asked John.
He nodded.
"Okay I'll get the forms." He left the room with the nurse leaving me and John alone.
John walked towards my bed pulling something from his pocket.
"This yours?" He asked handing me Rachel's necklace.
I took it examining the pendant carefully.
I shook my head.
"It was Rachel's… She's dead isn't she"
John nodded slowly.
I sobbed.
I knew she was dead... I knew it but this was my final confirmation.
"It's all my fault!" I cried.
"No c'mon kid she was a big girl"
I shook my head. It was all my fault. Somehow I just didn't feel like helping God out any more.