AN: Okay this is really short but it kinda has to be short so anyway soz for the shortness! Mite not be able to update until after Italy but I WILL try!
I shook violently crouched down, back to the door.
I was sobbing, out of control.
Salty tears streaming down my desperate face.
God it hurt. It hurt like hell.
That bastard Balthazar had given it his all.
I'm pretty sure I had a couple broken ribs.
Fuck it.
I'd lived through worse, most of which was caused by him.
I needed something to numb the pain... Anything.
I rose clumsily to my feet stumbled into the kitchen and grabbed the bottle nearest to me, tequila.
I didn't even bother with a glass, instead I unscrewed the cap, placed the bottle to my lips and downed the fiery liquid. I stopped midway took a DEEP breath then gulped down the rest.
"Urg." I shuddered, my eyes watering.
THAT felt good.
I was on a role. I grabbed another bottle... One of my all time favourite's... Whiskey and not just any old whiskey it was Jack Daniel's.
"Faith?" Gabriel questioned as I stumbled into the library.
"Yo Gabe! How's it hanging? Oh wait I forgot you don't got no bits!" I laughed tripping over my foot.
"You're drunk." A statement. "Oh! But you're a girl ain't ya? So you wouldn't be hanging at all would you, Gabe"
"Child please contain yourself"
"Fuck you"
I had moved closer, staggering towards the half-breed.
"What happened?" She questioned.
My face was tear stained, my eyes puffy. My face was red and blotchy covered in scars.
"Balthazar." I spat running a hand through my tangled hair.
"He just wouldn't take no for an answer!" I giggled my eyes stinging with tears.
Gabriel's expression instantly changed.
"I warned you, Faith. You should have listened"
"I'm fine! I don't give two fucks! Man he can have my body just as long as I get my money"
"Faith you are on a path of self-destruction"
"Yeah whatever bitch! I just though I'd pop in and tell you where to stuff your special little quest! I'm through playing God's messenger, I don't give a fuck about what happens to John! Let him go to hell, he deserves it"
"That's it? You're willing to jeopardise the whole WORLD because of a kiss"
"BULLSHIT! Stop with the reading of my mind! This has nothing to do with that! John doesn't want me so what! I've been rejected before, this has nothing to do with my pulling skills! I'm sick of it. I'm sick of good and I'm sick of you and heaven and hell and God knows what other crap you people dreamed up! I didn't ask to be handed this CURSE! I didn't ask for any of it! Do you think a five year old ENJOYS seeing the sort of thing I saw? Huh? You think I liked being kicked onto the street coz my parents thought I was crazy? I didn't ask for any of this bullshit! I give up, just piss off and leave me in peace"
Gabriel didn't flinch. She simply raised her eyebrow.
"You will turn your back on God, your saviour"
I shook my head.
"No, I already have"
At that I turned and left suddenly feeling stone cold sober.
"Johnny boy"
He was in Midnite's attempting to drown his sorrows.
Let's just say the whole Chas/Faith situation was getting to him.
God that poor girl was so messed up she didn't know who she was or what she wanted, she was just a kid, over reacted and left. Chas had been through hell and back again with his sorry excuse of a father, to see the kid in that state... Well lets just say even John Constantine couldn't stay quiet about that.
"What do YOU want?" John asked downing his drink.
"Manner's Johnny boy, manner's! I'm merely here to talk"
John snorted into his glass. Yeah, Balthazar wanted to talk!
"Yeah, and I'm God." John sneered.
"Whatever you say John. All I came here to do was thank you"
John raised an eyebrow.
"Thank me? Why"
"Why for doing the one thing I could not"
"What's that then, get laid"
It was Balthazar's time to laugh and laugh he did.
"No, Johnny but I hear you got close, only you turned the poor girl down"
John stood up abruptly, moving incredibly close to the half-breed.
"Don't you dare bring that up you stupid piece of"
"Johnny boy! MANNERS! Didn't your mommy teach you not to INVADE people's personal space? No, I don't suppose she would! Couldn't wait to get rid of"
John grabbed him by the neck slamming him forcefully onto the bar.
"I knew you'd like it on top!" The demon sneered licking his lips.
"Listen to me! You stay the HELL away from Faith and me, you come near either of us again and I'll deport your sorry ass is that clear?" John hissed slamming Balthazar's head against the counter.
"Oh but I HAD her John! I made her scream is agony! I made her cry out in ecstasy and then pain and it was sweet Johnny!" Balthazar grinned he was getting to the exorcist.
"You fucking bastard!" "JOHN"
It was Faith, God knows where she came from but there she was clear as day standing right behind him.
John let go stepping back from the slightly dishevelled demon.
"What the hell are you doing? Are you god damn crazy this place is full of demons you god damn asshole"
"You slept with him?" John questioned looking deep into her sad, lonely eyes.
She was beautiful there was no question about it but it was a different kind of beauty... He could now see the scars lining her face.
"Did he rape you...?" John asked this time not so forcefully.
"Ha! You don't know the meaning of the word John! I OWN her ass! She was begging for it"
"You shut up!" John said raising his voice along with his hand.
"Don't hit him John"
"SHUT UP!" John screamed.
She took several steps backwards.
"Don't speak to me like that EVER! You ain't my father! You ain't nothing to me! I won't even let HIM speak to me like that!" She said pointing at Balthazar.
"I'm sorry. Faith just tell me what happened. I promised you... I said I'd help." John said reluctantly.
"I'm his whore John what d'you think happened?" She spat turning away.
"What the fuck is your problem? You're a god damn kid, you ask for my help then screw the demon? What the fuck is wrong with you"
"Whatever." She turned and left leaving John and Balthazar standing there.
"Oh do you sense it Johnny boy? The hatred, the anger! You set it in motion Johnny! You have NO IDEA what you've done. She was the one, she was the one who could have saved you"
"What the fuck are you talking about"
"Go see Gabriel Johnny"
Then he turned away and left.
John stood jaw open, in total and utter confusion.
Looked like he was going to visit Gabriel and soon.