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„Yeah, Taylor was funy! And his fights he had with--" she coughes dryly.

"Sit down.", he says. Worried.

"No, no, I'm fine."

"You aren't fine Ror!"

"Jess, please!", she begs.

He suspires "Okay"

They are in the garden again. In the last few days this has become their most beloved place. They sit down on a bench on the little bridge.

"This is kinda funny."

He looks at her. "What?"

"We're again on a bridge together. Do you remember our first bridge?" she loos at him.

"Rory, I can remember all the things of Stars Hollow just like they would have happened yesterday. Of yourse I remember this. This was the place where I wanted to be forever."

"Yeah, me too." She says quietly.

"I've also been there at Lorelais and Lukes wedding, you know."

She nods and smiles. She knows what he's going to say.

"And I left a message there. For you."

"I found it."

He is surprised. " I never thought you really found it. I just hid it there because I wanted to say goodbye to you just for once. But I didn't know how. You really found it?"

"Yeah I did. And I was so happy that you left it there for me. Even if it wasn't supposed to be found." She smiles at him. "And I still got it!"

"What?"

"Yeah." She reaches into her pocket and fetches for a crinkled faded piece of paper.

He looks at it and reads :

Dear Rory,

you know I'm not that good at talking to other people. I always mess things up when I try to talk to them. Just as I did that evening in your dorm at Yale. So I thought I should try writing.

I just wanted to tell you that I am really really sorry. I know I jumbled your life. And I didn't mean to.

The first time I saw you I was overwhelmed. You are such a gorgeous girl. Clever, cute, crazy ...just everything I ever wanted.

Yes, you are the person I ever wanted. You taught me that there are people who care for others. Who account for someone. Who stand behind someone. And you've been that person for me.

And I want you to know that I never meant to hurt you. It's hard for me to explain what went through my mind that day. But I can't make it undone. And I'm sorry for that.

I know I did everything wrong. I broke your heart. And that evening at Yale you broke mine.

So, here we are. Two heartbroken, who love each other. Or actually there is one loving the other one but is not being re-loved.

So, I hope all of your dreams will come true. And you'll be a great journalist, I bet!

I don't know if you'll ever read this letter. I don't even know if you are going to read this. Maybe you'll find it but I don't know if you're going to read this. Because it's from me. For you. Acctually it's not supposed to be found but maybe this letter finds you. I don't know. But I try it. I have to.

So, I guess that's it.

I think I have to bid farewell now.

So,... Farewell, Rory.

In love,

Jess

"I can remember the day of the wedding. I saw you there. Happy. Beautiful. And it hurt that I couldn't go to you, to dance with you or to talk to you. It was hard.", he says.

"For me too. Everytime you looked away I looked at you and wondered why we failed. But there was no answer for me. Nor is there now."

"There won't be an answer, Ror."

"Yeah I guess you're right." She sighs.

"It's getting cold. Come on, let's go in."

"Okay.", she says and takes his hand.

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'I can't believe this. I've missed her so much. But she's my best friend. Still. And she's the only one who knows me. And that's why I like being with her. She was always able to see the truth in my eyes. I could never lie to her 'cause she'd know it. And that's it what makes us special. I know her and she knows me. And that's special.' He's holding her hand and they are lingering back to the house.

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'I'm happy. Yeah I'm really happy here with him. Why didn't I notice before that he's the one who makes me happy? My whole life I was searching for the one and now that I am old and sick I know that he's the one. Fate's weird. But I enjoy being with him. Especially now.' She thinks and squeezes his hand.

To be continued...