Chapter 2 – Things Left Unsaid

I don't own the TT…What…? I'm supposed to say something funny? …eh…Banana.

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"So what do you want Rae?" Beastboy asked me, he looked completely dead to the world.

"Ha, ha. ha… That's right Raven, what DO you want?" The dark voice of my father called out into my mind, "Someone to love you? Take care of you? Erase all your pain?"

"That's right, that's what I want…but I can never have." I thought back, more to myself than anything.

"Raven!" Beastboy shouted. "What do you want! You didn't come here to stand there and stare at me I hope!

"…Sorry Beastboy, I got sidetracked…" I said in my usual monotone, "I…came to see how you were doing…"

Beastboy looked up at me; he looked surprised that I even cared, "Bad. I am doing very, very, bad."

He then shifted his view back to the floor before saying, "Is that all you wanted to know?"

"No, I want to know everything about you, not just the funny you, but the serous you as well, I want you to view me as more than just a friend. I want you to love me…" I thought to myself.

"But that will never happen, not after what you let happen to her…" Trigon mumbled into my consciousness.

"I guess so." I said quietly.

"Then please leave." Beastboy said, pressing the button on his door remote.

The door opened and I walked up to it, "I'm sorry." I said as I walked through.

"You really are a coward you know that?"

"Yeah, I do."

"You are pathetic.

"…"

"It's hard to even believe you are my daughter."

"…"

"Tell me daughter, why did you let her die?"

"…"

"She was in the way right? Moving in on your little Beastboy."

"…"

"But here is a better question, you have made up your mind to walk alone forever, so why kill their happiness?"

"…"

"Why? You are just like your old man, and that is the reason. You ENJOY watching people suffer!" Trigon snarled the last part.

I was angry for a moment and a bolt of dark energy flew from me and busted out a window.

"Raven..." I looked towards the sound of the voice to see the team leader, "We need to talk, step into my room." The boy wonder said without emotion, ignoring the shattered window.

I walked into his room and sat down on the bed, Robin sat on a chair opposite of me.

Robin stared at the ground for a long time then finally said, "Why didn't you stop the saw blade Raven?"

"I…" I started but was interrupted.

"Don't try and deny it, you were right there, you had seen it Raven, you made a choice, and you made the choice to let her die." Robin didn't let any emotion slip through; his voice was as well guarded as his eyes.

"…" I couldn't say anything, I knew this meant I'd have to leave the team, and I'd never get a chance to tell Beastboy how I really feel.

"All I want to know is why Raven? Why did you let the saw hit her? If you tell me the truth, I won't make you leave the team, you are a valuable crime-fighter, and I don't really want to lose you. So I'm willing to put this all behind us, just for some information." Robin said quietly, "So what was your motive?"

"Robin…To me this is a secret paramount to your secret identity, it's not easy to just tell you." I said, a slight blush appearing on my cheeks.

"Raven, You know whatever you say would never leave my lips, the information would die with me." Robin assured.

"Terra…was completion…" I started.

"What do you mean Raven? Completion over what?" Robin asked, slightly confused

"B…Beastboy…" I stammered, "She was completion for Beastboy's love".

Robin leaned back in his chair, "Hmm…I might have guessed…so that means you are going to try to have emotions now?"

I looked at the floor; "Beastboy will never love me, especially if he knew that I didn't save the one he REALLY loved…"

Robin frowned, "So you will totally waste Terra's death." Robin sat forward in his chair and stared me in the face, "Nothing is more shameful that to make a warrior's death in vain, keep that in mind."

"…" I was again at a loss for words.

Robin got up and turned to walk to the door, then he stopped, "I won't kick you off the team, you are too valuable, but if I were you I wouldn't waste the death of a team member. You wanted her out of the way and now she is, follow through, or you will spend the rest of your live milling over the things left unsaid."

Robin left the room without another word.

I just sat on the bed for awhile.

"So what will you do, little Princess of Darkness? Go after the little green one hmm?" Trigon was back

"…" I didn't even vindicate him with an answer, I walked towards the door, but then turned around, in the air vent I thought I saw something, but if I had it was gone so quick I couldn't identify it anyway.

I left and started walking down the hall; eyes focused on the floor.

"C'mon honey, go ahead and tell him, tell him you KILLED his one love, I'm sure he'll forgive you."

"Shut up." I actually mumbled.

"Whatever do you mean friend Raven?" It was the friendly alien voice of Starfire, I looked up at her, "I have not said anything to you yet." She said confusedly.

"Sorry Starfire, I wasn't talking to you…" I mumbled, I didn't feel like dealing with the overly happy alien girl at the moment.

Starfire looked up and down the hall, "But friend Raven, I am the only one here." She said in the same confused tone.

I sighed; I really didn't feel like dealing with this.

"If only there was a Flying saw blade around. Eh, Raven?" Trigon muttered slyly into my mind, hoping to get a rise out of me.

It worked.

My eyes shot open and several dark bolts flew from my body, leaving a few holes in the walls and ceiling.

Starfire stepped back, "I am sorry if I have upset you Raven, I suppose you are having a bad day, so I shall leave you to yourself." She walked by me in a much less cheery mood than before.

I continued my walk, ending it in my room, on the circle of silence, the only place where my father could not speak to my mind…that just left my own thoughts that interrupted my meditation.

"So you are just going to waste Terra's death?" Robin's voice echoed in my mind.

"No, but…but I don't know whet will happen if I give into a powerful emotion…"

"You don't know what will happen if you resist such a powerful emotion either."

"That's true but…"

"You'd kill for him, but you can't just tell him?

"…Focus on meditation…"

"Azarath…Met…" My mind interrupted me again.

"If you don't follow though you will spend the rest of your life milling over things left unsaid."

"…I…I know but…"

"Robin is an expert on past mistakes, He is probably speaking from experience."

"Yes…but he…"

"But he what?"

"But he isn't like me."

"Yes he is, he's just like you, he feels that emotion will weaken him, but he knows how your powers work, that they work off of emotion, it's possible that if you had love, you may even increase in power."

"Focus…Azarath…Met…"

"Listen to your heart for once!"

"I can't!"
"You have too!"
"I won't!"
"You need too!"
"I'll be fine!"
"You love him!"
"He'll hate me!"

"But at least you will know for once and for all. One way or the other"

"…I…I don't know if I want to know."

"You need to know, you will destroy yourself if you don't."

"I…I would…I would destroy myself…"

"So tell him."

"I…Will…"

"I will." I voice aloud

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