Chapter 3 – Silver Metal
Disclaimer: I STILL don't own Teen Titans, give me some time for goodness sake!
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I crawled back through the vents in my mouse form, still trying to process what I had heard, Raven had let Terra die. I still can't believe she hates me that much, to kill the girl I love! But I hadn't heard WHY, she told Robin, but I couldn't hear what she had said.
When I found my way back to my room I changed back from my mouse form.
"Damn it…why did I let myself miss so much of that talk?"
"Well, ever after hearing her motive, Robin didn't seem all that upset, maybe there was a point to her transgression…" I thought to myself.
"But what motive could she have for killing Terra? I mean she never liked her yeah, but if she had told Robin that she would have received a swift boot from the group…"
"Maybe Terra had something she wanted? Maybe Robin understood that."
"Maybe…maybe, but what? What did Terra have that Raven doesn't?
"You."
"What!" I shouted so shocked at my own thoughts that I felt like I was talking to someone else, "She doesn't care about me! What are you talking about!" Maybe the men in the white coats need to come get me; I'm not sure which is worse, thinking Raven has a thing for me, or chewing myself out for thinking it…
"Think about it numbskull, that's all you will find that Terra had that she didn't."
"Yeah, but…but what if Starfire had been my girlfriend? What then?" I asked myself.
"She probably wouldn't have let Star die, they are friends, but Terra…"
"Okay, okay, so supposing that she IS in love with me somehow, what the hell do I do? I mean, in one way it's a dream come true, I've had a thing for Rae from the start, but it's a nightmare in another way…oh man…"
"Well, do you hate her?"
"No, I could never HATE Raven."
"But do you still love her? Are you angry with her?"
"AAAHHH, I DON'T KNOW!" I shouted, overwhelmed be my thoughts.
My mind went quiet and so did I.
I decided I needed to talk to someone about this, I couldn't talk to Raven for obvious reasons, Robin was out of the question as well, Starfire was much to happy to even understand what I was asking…I guess that leaves Cyborg, the big brother to us all.
I spent the entire walk down to the security room thinking, and hoping that none of the other Titans would catch me outside my room. I got lucky, no one caught me away from my self-imposed imprisonment, the sliding door to the security room opened, and as I expected Cyborg was sitting watching the screens.
"The reports to yesterday's battle is on the table Robin." Cyborg said, not looking back from the screen.
"Well, that'd be fine if I were Robin." I mumbled loud enough to be heard.
Cyborg spun in his chair, looking surprised to see me, "Beastboy!" He said in shock, then after noting my solemn look he asked, "What's wrong bro?"
I glanced at the door nervously; he got the hint and did a couple keyboard strokes.
"It's locked." Cyborg said, looking straight at me, "What's wrong man?"
"I wish I knew it all…so much is wrong that I've lost track." I said quietly.
I looked up at his screen; it looked like a video of last week's battle.
"So you know." I said.
He glanced up at the screen, "Yeah, Robin has a micro cam on his mask, he uses it to review battles that went south, he brought it to me the day after the battle…"
I looked at the screen, it was paused focused on Terra, in the background was the flying saw blade that would kill her seconds later, and even farther back was Raven, looking on at the saw and Terra.
"Robin said he was going to talk to her tonight." Cyborg said, "Try to find her motive…"
"He did talk to her, he did find her motive…he hasn't talked to you yet?"
"Nope, what was her motive since it seems like you were listening in on them." Cyborg guessed astutely.
"I don't know, I couldn't hear all of they're conversation. But Robin didn't kick her off the team…"
"I see, so he must have understood why she let it happen." Cyborg said to himself mostly.
"What should I do Cy? I don't know what to do…I…I loved Terra, and Raven is responsible for her death…but Terra was like second place to me…"
Cyborg's human eye glinted with interest, "Really? So who was first place?"
"…Raven…Raven was first place, all the jokes I cracked and all the goofy things I did were worth it if all I ever got was a smirk out of her…but she was so emotionless that she seemed totally unattainable. Then, when Terra came into the picture, it became a whole new ball game. This girl showed an interest in ME, not just a one sided love that I had with Raven…I figured that Raven would never care for me, so I settled into the idea of the silver metal, Terra."
"But the gold metal didn't like that idea I guess."
"But why Cyborg? Why would she do that? Does she hate me?" I asked confusedly.
"No. I'd say it's probably just the opposite."
"So you think she was in love with me!"
"Is, not was, is in love in you." Cyborg corrected
"But if that's the case, supposing she did it because she's in love with me, What do I do? She killed someone I care very deeply for…but I've always cared more for Raven…"
"I don't think I can help you BB, I'm not well versed in romantic endeavors, nobody shows any interest in a cyborg, so I really don't know how to help you."
"Nothing?"
"Nothing. But keep in mind, if you can forgive her for what she has done, maybe you could find happiness with her."
"I…I don't know…" I turned to walk out.
"Wait BB, you don't want to be seen I'm guessing, so maybe you should go though the vents." Cyborg suggested.
"…Thanks." I walked over to the vents, "Cyborg?"
"Yeah?"
"Thanks for listening…but this meeting never happened."
"Gotcha, you've been in your room all this time."
I nodded, then turned into my mouse form to get through the vents.
I went trough the vents back to my room and sat on the bed when I got there.
"What do I do…" I asked my action figures, but they didn't answer, useless little things…
"What should I do Terra…?" I asked just before sleep claimed me.
"Forgive her Beastboy…"
"Forgive her Beastboy…"
"Forgive her Beastboy…"
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