Chapter 4 - Unforeseen Repercussions

Hi, this is the next chapter…Hopefully there will be no glaring typos this time…Sigh… Metal… Medal…Whatever…anyway, this in the next chap, enjoy.

……………………………………………

I stood in front of my mirror, trying to figure out how to tell him about what I had done, "Beastboy Hey, I killed your girlfriend, want to go out with me?" I mumbled to myself bitterly, "Beastboy…I'm sorry…I only did it because I…"

You can't even say it here, in the comfort of your own room, how do you expect to say it to his face? Trigon asked, actually more curious than sinister for once.

"I don't know." I thought, as if I was answering one of my own thoughts.

"You could always do what I did to your mother…" Trigon sneered.

My eyes flashed red and I shot out a dark bolt, the wall absorbed it.

When I moved into my room in Titans Tower, I had my walls coated with a special material that absorbs darkness, I did it for just this kind of purpose, just in case Trigon found one of my hot buttons.

"What you did to Mother was inexcusable…" I thought angrily, "What you are doing to be is inexcusable…"

"And what are you going to do about it?" Trigon laughed, "You can't defeat me and you know it."

"…" I went back to ignoring him; it was the only thing that made him shut up sometimes.

"I'll kill him..." Trigon issued in a slightly less confident voice

My eyebrows raised, I could swear as I looked at the mirror I saw a shadow of Trigon.

"What?" I sent back.

"If… you go near him…I'll…Kill him." Trigon said, keeping the odd tone that I had never heard before.

"…" I thought to myself for a moment, in the deeper reaches of my mind where Trigon couldn't go, finally I thought back to him, "No…I don't think you will."

"You doubt what I am capable off?" He said, trying to regain lost credibility

"…Yes, you paused, you never pause, never once in your entire existence in my mind have you ever paused…" I thought back, I felt slightly empowered by the fact that, for the moment at least, I had the upper hand.

"You are a fool." Trigon said in a condescending tone, lacking however, the confidence that usually dwelled in his voice.

"You are afraid…aren't you? You know something I don't!" I went on the offensive.

"…Even if you do tell him! He doesn't love you!" Trigon was losing, for the first time ever, Trigon, was losing.

"We shall see about that!" I yelled back to him.

"If he doesn't love you, your own darkness will consume you! I'll make sure of it!" Trigon was trying unsuccessfully to make me lose steam.

"Fine, if he doesn't love me that I'd rather die anyway." I stated truthfully.

I stood there for a moment staring at the mirror, the shadow I had seen had disappeared, and for the first time in my life, I had defeated Trigon at his own game, I felt him regress into another part of my mind without another word.

There was then a soft nock at my door.

"Friend Raven? I would be most pleased if I were allowed to speak to you, may I come in?" Starfire said quietly from the other end of the door.

Normally I did not let anyone in my room, normally nobody would even bother asking. But it wasn't a normal situation, so I opened the door with my mind.

Starfire looked slightly surprised that I had let her in, but walked in none the less, I then closed the door behind her.

I walked over and sat on my bed Starfire followed.

"What's wrong Starfire?" I asked, remembering my not-so-friendly encounter with her earlier.

"Friend Raven…I…I needed to tell you something…" Starfire's eyes started to well up with tears, "You are the only one I can trust…"

I was expecting anything but what was happening in front of me, anger, disgust, maybe even the demand for an apology, but tears?

I paused, and then said, "What is it Star?"

"I…I…I think I could have saved…" She sobbed for a moment then continued, "I think could have saved friend Terra… and now everyone is so quiet around me…Friend Raven…it's as if they think I could have too…"

She looked up at me with tears in her eyes; I looked straight at the floor, unable to meet her gaze.

"I don't know friend Raven…it just happened so fast and she was right in front of me and she was looking right at me and I saw the bladeandIsawthebloodohgodthebloodthatthatthatfellfromherand…" Starfire was breaking up, her words were running together and she burst out crying again, harder than before.

I stared at the floor for the first time noting the fact that I needed to replace a few patches.

I wasn't looking at he but I could imagine her face, and her eyes streaming with tears as sure as I was looking her right in the eye.

She tried to compose herself, she had to pause every once in awhile to keep from breaking up, "The first few nights I cried, I criedbecauseof…because of the loss of a friend. But recently I've been thinking about thebattle and thatpictureofherface…that…picture…of…her…face…" She had to pronounce every word to keep herself from falling apart again.

"That I saw, just as it hit her…and I keep thinking that I could have…stopped it…" Star whispered the last part.

I stared at the floor, mute, unable to say a thing. This wasn't Starfire; this wasn't the girl that talked about things and customs on a planet that none of us knew anything about. This was not the girl who was constantly a happy ball of pure energy. This was not the girl who once got drunk off of root beer and almost told Robin just how much she cared about him…

I couldn't be…this girl before me was serious and brooding, and she had actually given so much thought to the matter that she was making herself sick with worry.

"Is…that what it is Raven?" She had straightened up a bit, stiffened her lip and was trying to stifle her crying squeaks.

"No…" I said quietly, staring at the floor, "It wasn't you Star…"

I looked up, the sadness was now a sad confused look that must be something like the look that serial killers get from god when they die, a "Why? What do you mean? Why did you do it?" Kind of look that pierced me to my very soul.

"What do you mean… friend Raven?" Starfire said uncertainly

I kept the monotone in my voice, "Me…I was the one…that could have saved her…I'm the one that they are…thinking about…not you…" I was being careful how I said it, I intended to tell her the truth, but only if I was forced to.

"I sure there was nothing you could have…"

I cut her off, "Yes! Yes there was Star! I…I made a choice, and I made the choice to let her die…"

Starfire was silent for a moment; she was the one staring at the floor now, I wondered absently if she thought I needed to replace a few patches of flooring too.

"Why…?" Starfire said in something below a whisper.

I too was staring at the floor now, "Because she took my hope…"

Starfire must have somehow pieced together the meaning of that incredibly vague remark, because the next word she said was "Beastboy…"

I looked up at her, and she looked up at me during the same moment.

We stared at each other for a moment, as if exchanging information telepathically.

"Have you told him yet?" She said, her voice much less shaky, but still slightly unnerved.

"No…" I whispered.

"Well you had better." She said in a strong, yet slightly scared voice, as she got up from the bed, "Because if friend Terra's death were to be in vain…I don't think I could forgive you Raven." I felt a bit of coldness from the word Raven; a coldness that I'd never heard Starfire use in her life.

I nodded, afraid of what I may say to make her think even less of me.

She opened the door and went out, leaving me to myself.

"Some unforeseen repercussions, Eh Raven?" Trigon was back in the driver's seat; I said nothing in reply, I waited long enough that I knew that Starfire would have moved on and then walked out my door.

"Destiny or death await…" I thought to myself, and I started towards Beastboy's room. "Either way, this will be over soon…

………………………………………………………………

AN: Well…I guess that you guys don't respond to the whole "Review quota" so this time, you will just have to shower me with reviews, or wait until my muse tells me it's time to write the next chapter.