Chapter 22

One week later

Sara stood on the scale in disbelief, she couldn't believe she had gained another four pounds.

"That's what I get for taking Nick's advice on eating more…" Sara thought as she pushed the scale out of the way. She recovered, that's what the doctors told her. Eventually she would forget about her baby. The thing that really got Sara was the fact that she wasn't able to have children. Her mind floated back to a day in the hospital three weeks ago.

"Nick I was told that I wasn't physically able to have children that's what hurts the most. Somehow that baby defied all odds, I thought it would survive." Sara cried on Nick's shoulder as they continued to watch the new born babies through a clear window.

"Why weren't you able to have kids Sar?" Nick continued to hold Sara allowing for her to release all her pain. He had wished he could take her pain away, he couldn't stand to see her suffer any longer.

"I never told anyone this but when I was a teenager I was rapped on my first date I ever had. Promising start to relationships huh? After he raped me he demanded that I should get rid of the child, he never wore a condom. So I walked down a back alley way and found a man who promised a cheap abortion that was quick and painless. He lied. He performed the procedure in a rundown warehouse and left me to bleed to death when he realized there were complications. I was eventually found and rushed to the hospital where a doctor told me that I would never be able to have children." Sara explained, never showing any sign of emotion.

"Sara I never knew, I'm so sorry." Nick continued to hold Sara tight allowing her to know that she was not alone.

"So when I found out I was pregnant I thought that maybe Grissom and I were meant for each other after all. That thought quickly faded when I found out he could kill me and not even care about his actions. I mean, he killed our baby! How could he?" Sara felt a lonely tear fall down her cheek, others soon followed.

"It's going to be alright Sara." Nick whispered as he rocked Sara in his arms.

Sara felt her stomach which had a slight pudge to it. She just had to stop eating French fries and more carrots, the weight would soon come off.

"A little exercise wouldn't hurt either." Sara noted.

She grabbed her running shoes out of her closet and put them on with ease. The last time she went on a run was during the long months of preparation for the annual police marathon held two years ago. As she jogged out her door and locked it, she put on her headphones and made her way out of her building while listening to the song "Wake me up When September Ends". As she hummed the tune, she continued to jog over to a near by park. The rhythm of the song coincided with her steps as she continued to feel her heart pump vigorously to the activity.

"Summer has come and passed the innocent can never last. Wake me up when September ends…"

Sara found the words to the lyrics somehow comforting, in her mind she wished she could sleep her life away. After all the events that had transpired, she needed to hibernate from the rest of the world and collect her thoughts on what she should do with her life. The boxes were already packed and her apartment only had the main necessities. But what was holding her back? She was moving back to San Francisco to start a new life, a life which could help her forget about Grissom and her baby. The team decided to stay in Las Vegas and continue working at the lab, Ecklie and the committee had convinced them not to leave. Grissom somehow still had his job waiting for him back at the lab whenever he recovered from his illness. It was against the law to fire him due to a breakdown caused by mental illness. Sara found it unfair, she knew Grissom did not have an illness. She knew that he was a monster waiting for another chance to unleash its anger onto another innocent bystander. Sara didn't want to be around when he came back, she needed to be as far away from him as possible. As the song continued to play out, she jogged past an opening to a forest trail and decided to make a detour. As she entered the forest she continued to keep up her pace, ignoring the heat from the sun's rays. As she started to climb up a hill a sudden pain shot through her stomach causing her to drop to the ground. Panicking, she flew open her cell phone and called Nick.

"Nick, it's me I need your help…"

"I really don't know how to explain it Ms. Sidle." The doctor smiled as he continued to stare at the monitor in disbelief. Nick was the only member of the team allowed in the room with Sara and he continued to hold her hand hard fearing the worst.

"You're pregnant, congratulations." The doctor smiled as he pointed to a small figure on the ultrasound monitor.

"What? How is that possible? They told me I lost my baby." Sara was in utter shock at the news, not believing her ears.

"Yes you did, one of them. You were pregnant with twins, one survived." The doctor smiled as he handed Sara the first picture of her baby.

"What?" Sara's mouth remained open at the picture she held before her.

"Sara, that's amazing!" Nick hugged Sara in response to the news. He ran out into the hallway and called out the news to the team. Everyone couldn't believe their ears and they immediately bombarded Nick with answers.

"Listen guys, the important thing is that Sara is still having a baby! Stogies at my house!" Nick proudly gleamed.

"Yeah I think I'll be happy with a baby shower thank you very much, minus the cigars Nick. Sara can't be around that smoke while she's pregnant." Catherine exclaimed.

"Who says we'll be smoking them around the women? Party at my house guys!" Nick yelled.

"Will there we lots of booze? I am a lush you know…" Dr. Robbins surprised everyone with his uncharacteristic response.

"Yeah shots for the men!" Greg called out.

"Oh please!" Catherine rolled her eyes sarcastically to the guy's behavior. She decided to throw a little get together at her place tonight and surprise Sara. "Well I'll be having a woman's night at my place then. We'll read articles in Cosmo and do our nails! Lindsey will love it!" Catherine laughed.

Sara smiled as she continued to lovingly stroke her stomach, her heart filled with joy once more at the thought of being a mother. She would do everything right for her child starting by moving to San Francisco before it's born. For now she could only imagine as to what it would be like to hold her child in her arms and do everything in her power of protecting it from danger.