Chapter seven – Truth and Consequence

A/N Thanks, for once you guys all reviewed, and your reward…is another chapter.

Disclaimer: No, not yet…but when I'm rich and famous…

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"A…tunnel?" I asked the air, looking in front of me, a white light beckoned me to come into it, it was a warm, healing light, so bright that it made me feel much better than I had in a long time, I started towards the light.

"WAIT!" the voice of Terra called out to me from the light; I squinted and saw that she was standing silhouetted against the light.

"Why Terra? If I continue won't we be together again?"

Terra walked up to me with her eyes filled with concern; "I…don't know Beastboy. You see…as I said before, I am your guardian sprit…but not angel…or demon…I'm in limbo right now, somewhere between…and as of right now it's my job to keep you alive…as it is we may be headed in different directions…"

"What!" I shouted, "They can't send you to Hell! You-"

"-Beastboy!" Terra cut me off, "Beastboy, in my life…I did some awful things…things…that I never told you about, things that when I look back on them now…make me sick to my stomach…" Terra said quietly.

"But…You didn't have control of your powers, it wasn't-"

"-Not every time…no, not every time was it my fault besides losing control…but there were some times…that I used my powers…to hurt people…too...kill...people." Terra said, even softer than before.

"W…why Terra?" I asked, confused, unable to believe what she was telling me.

She stared at the ground, unable to meet my gaze, "There…was a couple…they took me in…said that they would help me…and…for awhile, I was happy, they treated me with kindness, and never tried to harm me…"

I opened my mouth to say something, but she went on, "There had been a couple incidents involving my powers going out of whack, just little ones, nothing to powerful. I told them about my power, and they said they would accept me even if I randomly shot green goo out of my ears…" Terra had let out a few tears by now, but seemed determined to hold it in.

"So…what…happened?" I asked carefully.

Terra wiped her eyes and continued, "I was only about eight at the time…but one night about a week later I had walked by the living room a bit after what they said was my bedtime, I was thirsty, so I was after a glass of water…"

I kept my mouth shut; I wanted to hear the rest.

"As I walked by the doorway, through the half open door, I hear the woman of the house, Maria, say to her husband, James, 'She scares me James, the whole place could be destroyed.'"

Terra swallowed some bile that had risen up in her throat, "And I stood there, waiting to hear what James would say, I expected him to say 'Well at least she doesn't shoot green goo out of her ears!' and play it off like it was a joke…"

I was starting to see where this was going, but I kept my mouth shut still.

Terra blocked some more tears, "He said…'She scares me too…I think it would be best if she was killed…' I was shocked, this man had been kind to me, and for a short while, even been like a father too me, and now he said I should be killed…"

Terra gave up on holding back the tears, it was a losing battle to even try, "I was still standing in the hallway, too shocked to move, Maria then said, 'How do you think we could do it?'…She was agreeing with him, they were going to kill me, I couldn't believe it…"

"Terra…you don't have to go-"

"-I do. You need to know that I was not a perfect girl by any means." Terra said firmly, then went back to her story, "So James said, 'I think if I smother her while she is asleep, she wouldn't be able to get us…I'll go now…' Maria replied with a 'Be careful James!' and I heard him get up."

Terra stopped for a long time, the next part must have been the hardest for her to tell, "By now, shock had been replaced with rage, I now hated James and Maria, and James opened the door to find me standing there. 'Terra! I…what are you doing here?' James shouted in surprise at seeing me in the doorway with my small hands curled into fists, gritting my teeth, and for the moment barely containing the urge to kill him."

Terra paused again to look up at me, then went back to string at the ground, "I looked up at him, and said 'why?' A simple one-word question, but I said in a voice that was deeper than darkness, it was the voice of a deranged man who had seen one too many deaths in his day."

I was crying now too, I had no idea just how hard Terra's life really had been.

Terra continued after wiping her eyes again, "Both of they're eyes showed immense fear, "We were just kidding honey, we wouldn't hurt you." James said, leaning down to my level with a fake smile on his face, 'LIAR!' I screamed at his face, 'THAT'S ALL YOU'VE DONE TO ME IS LIE! YOU NEVER LOVED ME!'"

Terra shuttered, "Maria said, 'We are sorry honey, I promise we won't hurt you…' James added on in a joking tone, 'Yeah, I claim momentary insanity!' and then I killed him. I was totally unaffected by the humor in his voice, I simply used my powers too pull a spike of earth out of the ground, and then impaled him with it."

I was silent; I couldn't say anything if I wanted too.

"Maria screamed, and I pulled the same earth spike out of James and sent it into her, and in her last breath she asked me, 'W…h…y?' and I replied 'Momentary insanity.' And…then I laughed…I laughed at my own sick joke, laughed at Maria, who was now dead, laughed at the whole world for putting me here…"

I looked down at my feet, then said, "Well…they kinda deserved it…"

"Maybe…but the rest of that little suburban neighborhood didn't, I destroyed every house to vent my rage, I killed every last person there in cold blood. I finally realized what I had done was wrong, and so I did what I always did best, I ran away, ran to new place…maybe I'd destroy it too, maybe I wouldn't, but soon enough I'd leave and move on…"

I looked up to find Terra staring at me, "The one to finally help me control my powers was Slade, under the condition that help him destroy you all. So I'm happy that I died to be spared that fate…but as you can tell…than angels have their work cut out for them when it comes to sorting me."

"I see…" I mumbled and then looked over my shoulder back at the darkness, that cold, uninviting darkness.

"That is the way of life Beastboy, Dark, cold, hard…but there is someone, who needs you out there, so what do you choose Beastboy?" Terra asked me, I could feel her eyes boring into the back of my skull, "Dying is easy, but living is hard."

I sighed to myself, "You wouldn't let me pass on anyway…I'll go back."

Terra smiled as I turned around, "Thank you Beastboy…and I'm sorry that I kept what I did from you."

I started walking into the darkness and coldness whipped through my body, "It's all right…I understand…it was just momentary insanity…" I called back to her.

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I opened my eyes and saw the ceiling of the infirmary, I turned my head and looked to the right, beside the bed was Raven, who at the moment was fast asleep.

I turned my head to the left; there was an IV and some equipment there, but nothing else of major importance.

So I went back to staring at the ceiling, "I won't be able to avoid this any longer…it is time to make a choice…"

"Hello boy."

My eyes widened, "Trigon! What are you doing in my head?"

"Oh, I'm just on vacation, thought I'd see some sites, since Raven has been so emotional lately I've been able to do a little traveling."

"What do you want Trigon…"

"You hold the key to destroying the world Beastboy, if you and my daughter become emotionally attached to each other, I will be free."

"Sounds like a real winner for you, why would you tell me this if you WANT to be free?" I asked with the utmost suspicion.

"Because my desire to keep you away from my daughter, out weighs my wish to be free." Trigon replied, but it sounded scripted to me.

"Well, you are one dad that I care if I have permission to date your daughter, I'm going to do what I want."

"You little…fine, just remember it will be your fault what your hear the death cries of your teammates, all because you didn't listen."

"I look forward to the challenge."

And with what I think was a scoff, he left my mind.

I stared at the ceiling for a couple minutes, not really thinking about anything, just staring.

"Beastboy!" A voice shouted I recognized it instantly as Raven's voice.

I turned my head towards her, "Hey." Was all I could say for the moment.

"Hey? That's all you've got to say? Beastboy, I had never been afraid of anything in my life like when I watched that Saw pass through you, and you finally wake up and say, 'Hey'?"

I smiled, "I told you we needed to talk after the battle."

Raven looked uncharacteristically vulnerable, "Oh…yeah…so you know…don't you?"

I nodded lightly as I propped myself against the headboard, my wound protested, but I wanted to be eye level with her.

"I'm sorry Beastboy, I killed her and you loved each other and-" Raven started

"-Stop." I interrupted, "Don't…I've…made peace with that, Terra, doesn't seem to mind much either…"

Raven did her best to keep her eyes locked with mine, but eventually turned away, "I was so selfish…Beastboy…I had a reason…behind what I did, in that spit second I let Terra die because..."

Raven stopped, I waited for her to continue, "Because she took hope away from me…not on purpose…just because I tried so hard to make myself n-numb, tried s-so h-hard to ignore my f-feelings…"

Raven paused again, I could tell this was hard for her, Raven was one of the most clearly spoken people I know, but she started to stutter slightly, she kept her head down as she spoke. "I lost the only l-light in my life…B-Beastboy…you were my light…"

I was about to say something when she said, "I… lo…l-love you B-B-Beastboy…I always have…and I know that after what I have done…you could never love me…I j-just wanted you to know."

She got up and started for the door, I saw tears in her eyes.

"Stop her!"I heard Terra say in my mind, "Don't blow your chance at happiness!"

"If you cold forgive…Forgive her Beastboy… I knew way before I died that your heart belonged…belongs… to Raven." The thoughts of the past 48 hours flooded by me, ending with, "Love never dies Beastboy, never, it gets sick, it falters, and it gets wounded…but it never dies…unless you kill it."

"Wait!" I shouted, Raven stopped, and started to turn, but stopped in the middle.

"Come back Raven."

"I…you...you don't want too…s-see me."

I shook my head, "Come back please…don't make me chase you." I said these words in a serious tone, I wasn't kidding, if she ran, I'd chase her, wounded or not.

Raven stood there for a moment, debating with herself, or maybe debating with Trigon, but after a moment she walked back to the chair and sat down.

"Beastboy, You can't really-

"-Lean closer…" I said softly, "Just please…lean closer…"

Raven hesitated, but after a moment did, until she was right next to me.

"What Beastboy?" She asked, now confused.

Then I kissed her, it took a bit of energy to move my body to lean in, but I kissed her, and after a moment of surprise, she kissed back.

I was about to say something, but blackness spread over my vision.

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A/N Okay, I'm evil, I know…I always write faster when someone is cheering me on you know…?

So, I was reading my reviews, only ONE person said anything about a sequel…and only ONE person (The same one) actually liked the RobxRae Idea, one, and I got two (or was it three…?) That hated the Idea…

In answer to one of the reviewers (I don't remember who at the moment) No, I'm not a lunatic, Star and Robin make a cute couple, I'm not saying they don't. But I get a feeling of…Closeness between Raven and Robin, the sense that they understand each other in a way, and so while yeah, it's quite possible to make a Robxstar fic, but I also see potential in a RobxRae fic too.

Besides, if you don't want to read a story, I'm not forcing you. So if my muse DOES decide that a RavenxRobin is in the future for my writers profile, you do have the right to skip past it.

Of course, my other reason for not wanting to write a Star and Robin story is because Starfire is hard to write (For me at least) I have an easier time getting into Raven's head that I do Star's…