A/N: First of all, a big thanks to my reviewers! And to anyone else who read but didn't review! It appears though, I need to clarify some things. Firstly, yes, for much of this story I am going by the movie verse. I did read the books (before I saw the movies) and loved them, but I loved the movies too and it was the events in those that actually sparked the idea for this story.
Secondly, I'm not saying that Haldir and Legolas are directly related. I am playing a bit with Tolkien's world and changing some things around to fit a bit better. For background purposes, Fea's mother was Legolas's sister (yes, I know Tolkien never mentions a sister, in fact, I think he said Legolas just had brothers, but like I said, I'm playing with the world). That would therefore make Haldir Legolas's brother-in-law. I think I've got the familial relation right there.
And finally, to the Mary Sue thing. I'm trying the best I can to not make Fea one. I too, usually dislike the blatantly outrageous fics of that sort. However, this is how the story has evolved in my mind, so this is how it shall be. Remember, this is fantasy here! I mean, come on, you can't really argue that Tolkien never wrote a Mary Sue! Take Arwen for example!
So anyway, sorry this note was so long. I just felt I needed to clarify those issues. Once again, a big thanks to my reviewers that brought them up! I appreciate the comments! Enjoy!
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Scarcely a day had passed since that victorious morning. The corpses of orcs and goblins still littered the vast charred field before Helm's Deep but the fallen of the Rohirrim and the Elven-kind had been respectfully buried. Rows upon rows of burial mounds rose near the Deeping walls. In front of one of these stood Feanarwyn, silent and unmoving, as the light faded and the sky melted from pale blue to pink and orange to a deep purple. Stars shown softly in sympathy for the pain felt by all below.
Legolas had left his niece to herself all that afternoon trusting
that she would want the time alone. It was only after he realized
that she stayed there all day and into the evening that he approached
her. She didn't turn or even look in his direction as he came
near.
"How
did you come here, Feanarwyn?" he asked gently, "Surely
Haldir didn't want you to fight in such a dangerous
battle."
"He
didn't. But my father gave in when he realized that I had to
come."
"Had
to come? Feanarwyn, there was no need for you fight here when so many
other seasoned warriors traveled to Rohan's aid. You are younger even
than Aragorn though he is human!"
"I
am 67 years old, uncle, and skilled enough with a bow and a blade
that I can be of use. I had no choice in the matter though as it
happened. My mother told me I must come."
"Your
mother? Rieniel? Feanarwyn, you speak in riddles. Your mother, my
sister, died 59 years ago."
At
this Feanarwyn finally turned to look at the older elf, "The
night before the companies were to set out, I had a dream. You were
right, my father did not want me to come under any circumstances, but
to stay safe under the golden leaves of Lorien no matter how much I
pleaded and begged to be allowed to go. But the night before their
departure I had a dream and my mother came to me in it and told me
that I must accompany the soldiers to Helm's Deep. That my destiny
lay entwined with the battle for Middle Earth. I knew I had to follow
her words so I joined the march in the dead of night and lost myself
among the hundreds of soldiers. But, uncle, I don't understand. Was
the destiny of what she spoke only that I watch my father
die!"
Legolas
was speechless. Of course, ancestors and loved ones who had passed on
were known to appear to those still in Middle-Earth but nonetheless
it shocked him still. What could his sister have possibly meant by
her message?
"Perhaps
you should speak to Gandalf of this."
"Later.
Right now, I wish to stay here. It's funny, Uncle Legolas, the longer
I stand here, the more I remember about my father and the more it
hurts. I remember when I was little and just come to Lothlorien, he
used to take me riding around the paths of the Golden Woods on his
white stallion. And how he defended my lessons in swordplay to the
ladies of the court who exclaimed how horrible it was that
Thranduil's granddaughter should not even know how to properly curtsy
or which fork to use at a banquet."
A
pained smile appeared on her face and her blue eyes darkened with
sadness. "I miss him so much already. I loved my mother, uncle,
but I never really got the chance to know her. As long as I can
recall, it's always been ada and me, and now, it's just me. I'm an
orphan now, uncle." A single tear ran down spilled from her eye
and glistened upon her cheek. "Uncle, would you mind awfully if
I asked you to leave? I…I'd really like just a little while longer
here by myself. I have a feeling we won't be back here for a long
time."
"Fea,
I think you should come with me and tell Gandalf what Rin told
you."
"I
will, uncle, later. I promise."
Legolas
said nothing more but walked away. He was very much disturbed at his
niece's manner and at the dream which she had related. If Rin really
had appeared in a dream to her daughter…but what destiny could such
a young elleth have in the lands of men? Albeit Feanarwyn did have an
exceptionally good hand with a sword for an elleth of her age, but
she had no extraordinary gift which would sweep the field or win the
war. Legolas sighed. He had never been one to claim understanding of
the intentions of the Valar. He would make sure she talked to Gandalf
later. Right now, she deserved to be left alone as she wished. She
needed time to grieve. And if this was only the beginning, many would
need that time before long.
Feanarwyn stood by her father's grave long into the night. Rapt in thought, she didn't notice the cease of activity behind her as Helm's Deep settled in for the night. The only movement in the fortress was guards prowling the battlements, the only light, their torches and the twinkling stars, pinpoints in the deep-blue heavens. Outwardly, the young elleth was a calm and motionless as a statue, but inwardly, her thoughts were troubled.
It was like she had told her uncle. She was an orphan now, for good and true. She had said it then, but the meaning of the words had not sunk into her mind. Now, they sat there, in the bottom of her thought, like dense, jagged rocks disrupting a smooth lake bed. Orphan.
She breathed deeply and swallowed, trying to force back the tears that still threatened to fall. It hadn't hurt like this when her mother had died. Feanarwyn had been young then, not really understanding what death was. It had taken a long time for her to understand that she would never see her mother again, and by that time, her memory of her had faded and the hurt was real, but dim. It hurt like a bruise, always present but only known when you press upon it. This hurt thought, this hurt was like a knife. She understood perfectly. She would never see her father again.
All the memories flooded her mind. Like the archery and sword-fighting lessons he had given her, and the birthday that he had given her the daggers she carried now, and the happy surprise on his face when she and her uncles, Rumil and Orophin, had thrown him a party in celebration of his selection to lead the host to Helm's Deep. Not even they had know that she was even then planning to join the march, just one more hooded archer tramping along the road. It had been no easy thing to sneak past them. They had wanted to join the expedition, especially Orophin, the youngest of he father's brothers, but her father had forbade them as he had her. They were needed in Lothlorien, he had said, in case the battle went ill and Sauron then turned his evil sight further northward. It was good that he had done so. If Rumil or Orophin had accompanied her father, it would have been much harder to lose herself among the company and she probably would have been spotted and packed back off to Lorien, regardless of her protestations and testimonials of her mother's words. And she would not be here to fulfill her destiny, whatever that was. Her mother's words now seemed very big for such a small elleth as she felt.
She heard soft footsteps behind her, as from one who did not wish to disturb her thoughts. She made no move even as the person drew up beside her and stood silently. From the corner of her eye, she could see that the newcomer was a young man of Rohan, still dressed and girded for battle. His heavy boots had made the muffled sounds against the earth. He was restless, uncomfortable with the moody silence, shifting his weight from foot to foot. He could stand it no longer apparently, because he broke the silence.
"You must be tired, m'lady, standing here all day."
At this, Fea smiled and turned toward him, "Save your 'm'lady's' for Eowyn of Rohan or Lady Galadriel of Lothlorien. I am no lady."
"Encouraged by her smile, he rejoined, "Lady or no, I have been watching you from the battlements these past hours and you must be hungry as well as tired. I've brought you some fruit and bread I managed to save from the hungry savages I must share a table with."
He held out his hands and Fea accepted the proffered food. She devoured the small loaf quickly. She was hungry. But when she bit into the fruit, she slowed. It was a warm, ripe peach, juicy and firm. Weeks had passed since she had tasted something so delicious and now it seemed as lovely as any of the fruit she had ever tasted in the Golden Forest.
When she had finished, she spoke, "Is this all you came to see me for, sir? Or did my Uncle Legolas send you out to drag me inside?"
"It is all I came for. That and to know your name. Though your uncle did see me leave the Deep and bade me remind you to rest before you must see Gandalf tomorrow morning."
"Aye. Though what light he can shed is a mystery to me." Fea's eyes swung back down to her father's grave as she said this, but then she looked back up at the young man. "As for the other, my name is Feanarwyn, but most simply call me Fea. I thank you, sir, for the food and your courtesy, sir, though I do not know your name, but I think I shall remain out here a bit longer, alone, if I may."
"My name is Eoden. And if you will have no 'm'lady' I will have no 'sir,' though I have far less claim to the courtesy than you. I am only a soldier, bound to serve my country and my king. I bid you goodnight, and hope to see you on the morn."
He nodded to her as he turned away to trudge back to the Deep. Fea looked back to the rows and rows of burial mounds. She had seen sadness and sympathy in Eothen's eyes as he had answered her, and she wondered if he had lost someone too in this dreadful battle. It was a high price they had all paid for this victory, yet she had heard that Gandalf had told Aragorn it was only the beginning, and she wondered if they had enough to pay the cost.
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A/N: Oh yeah, almost forgot! I know some people might get on me about the choice of the name "Eoden." It's just the only name I cold come up with that sounded remotely like It came from Rohan. I'm perfectly willing to change it so let me know what you think and if you have any suggestions they would be welcomed greatly! Thanks a bunch! Please review!
