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Anywhere heres chapter uhh.. four.. yes four here ya go …oh and theres a slight lemon nothing to raunchy kinda like a sweet lemon the making love kind of lemon. lol.. ENJOY!

ch4: Tears…

'btw from now on these are thoughts'

"Kagome…" What kind of answer could he give her? What should he say? How do you turn down someone whose life depends so deeply on you and you alone? His mind went numb as he found no way to answer it. Instead, pure instinct took over, and that is how things became worse than they were before.

He leaned forward and stroked her hair, then out of nowhere he kissed her deeply, and of course, she took this as a sign that he had chosen her over Kikyou.

Inuyasha pulled back as he could sense Shippou and the others coming back. He growled and picked Kagome up and leapt off to a secluded area here he could be with her. He stopped after a few minutes and sat down, bringing Kagome to straddle him as she sat against him.

"Inuyasha?" Kagome asked slightly confused. All she recieved was a purr and a tender kiss against her neck. She arched her back and her chest touched his. An emotionless moan escaped her lips.

"Inuyasha..." she whispered. That one word, one name, held so much pain and hurt behind it and he planned on kissing away all of those pains. He pulled back and looked into her eyes. She was so emotionless.

'She reminds me of kikyou-- nothing more than a shell. I can't let that happen. Kikyou, forgive me...' Inuyasha thought.

Clawed hands pulled at her shirt and lifted it over her head; her hands went up to help him remove the obstructive clothing.

His gaze caught sight of five other scars-- the remainder of her self-infliction. She looked over to where his eyes were staring at and then looked away. No sooner had she turned her gaze away had she felt something warm and wet against her skin. Her head snapped back to see Inuyasha kissing her arms, more specifically her scars. He kissed all the way up her arm with each scar getting its own amount of tender love and care. And when he reached her neck, he kissed it several times and then claimed her lips again. As their kiss became heated, Kagome felt his hands wandering her body up and down, to her back, over her breast, down to her essence.

She blushed when his hands went up her skirt, and then slowly grew courageous. Her hands went to remove his kimono and shirt as he tore away her underwear. She gasped, startled that he would do something so rough to her.

He realized his mistake and stopped abruptly, pulling her into his arms and whispering apologies. She kept her head against his neck although she coulds feel his erection against her core, even though he was still clothed

"Kagome." She looked up into his eyes. "Kagome, I love you."

Her eyes widened, and for the first time in a while, he saw actual emotion looking back at him: love.

Inuyasha kissed her deeply, letting all his emotion pour out from him and into her, and he swore to the gods that she became the woman he loved so dearly.

'Wait... love Kagome… I do. I love her.'

He pushed her back onto the ground, her legs releasing his waist and spread apart for him. He moved between her legs and stared at her. He stared at her bra and growled lightly before ripping away her bra. His lips claimed her in a demanding kiss as his strong hands ran down her arms to her scars. Her tortured memories, her escape.

Inuyashsa pulled back and moved down her jawline to her ear, gently sucking in the lobe, earning a sigh and a mew from Kagome. He smirked and moved lower to the junction between her neck where he began to lick and suck at the skin, softening it up.

"Inuyasha!" came her cry.

Soon there bodies were one, both caught up in the rapture of the moment, neither caring of the consequences to come. Kagome moaned and mewed as Inuyasha groaned, moving faster within her to bring both of them to climax. Beads of sweat glistened on both their bodies; her hair was damp and as was his as it clashed against some strands of her black hair. There bodies creating one big mass of lovers.

As soon as it began, it ended. As she came, he marked her with his fangs into the juncture of her neck; the same juncture he had been kissing and preparing earlier. He howled as he released his fangs from her now pink and slightly damp skin, blood trickled down her neck and would have gone farther if Inuyasha had not lapped it up at the last second of the crimson liquids departure. She smiled. "Inuyahsa, I love you," said Kagome.

Inuyasha's eyes widened as he finished lapping at the blood. 'I love you…'

"Oh gods." He got up off of her quickly and looked away, confusing Kagome very much. Her smile faded as he got dressed; the look on his face saying "What have I done?"

"Inu.. yasha? " Kagome asked, hoping for an answer that would end up with him holding her again.

"Get dressed," he said, harsher than he had meant to.

He was deep in thought though. If he had seen the hurt look on her face, he would have cradled her in his arms, saying comforting things like "Its not you."

But he hadn't.

He had failed to recognize any of the signs. Even that she became the same pale and sad Kagome as before. Before he broke her heart… again.

She got dressed and they walked back in silence. Over head, Inuyasha saw Kikyou's soul stealers. Sadly, so did Kagome, and she whimpered as she knew he was going to go to her.

And she knew then that no one could ever save her.

No one could save Kagome Higurashi now…

Inuyasha walked her back to where Sango and the others were then quickly took off, grunting something about meeting up with them later.

Kagome looked at Sango a sad and lost expression etched over her facial features.

"Sango, can we get going, I want to go home." Kagome managed to say without breaking into tears.

Sango nodded and after packing up there camp they all started walking back, without Inuyasha. Sango attempted to find out why Kagome had been so upset and what had occurred between her and the inu hanyou, yet Kagome mearly shook her head saying she didn't want to talk about it. The rest of the way journey back to kaedes village was traveled in silence….

ITS SOOOO SHORT IM SORRY! I'm so busy! I'm trying I really am.. and I haven't abandoned my stories…