Revelations

Chapter 10

She looked at Bosco, as she was kissing him. "Bos," she spoke softly.

"Faith, we can't do this," he said as he moved away from her. She looked up at Bosco. "But I love you Bos."

"You think you do, but you don't. How could you love someone like me? I'm damaged."

She touched his face. "Bos, I don't love you because of how you look or don't look. I love you because of you. I'm the only one besides your mom that you show the real you. When you left my apartment that day I realized that I was in love with you. I think I have known for a long time I just didn't want to admit to myself."

Bosco looked at her. "Faith, I can't deal with this right now. Can you just go, please?"

"No, I'm not leaving like this. I know you love me." she said, as she leaned over and touched his face. "With or without these scars. It doesn't change how I feel about you."

"Faith, just go, please. I don't love you."

She glanced over at him. "I don't believe you."

"Believe me when I say, I don't love you, not like you love me, Faith. Just leave," Bosco yelled.

She looked at Bosco. "Maybe you are telling me the truth. Maybe you don't love me. Why would you? You never stay with anybody that long. I don't even know why I told you that I love you… "

Faith paused for a moment. "Maybe I don't really love you like I think I do… I don't even know what I was saying," she said, as she started to walk away from Bosco.

Bosco stared at Faith and could see how upset she was. " Faith, don't leave."

"But I thought that is what you wanted," Faith responded as she turned around to face him.

"Faith, I don't want you to leave… but I can't be what you want me to be. I can't love you, not anymore than a friend."

"You made yourself clear, I understand." Faith replied. "But I think it is best if I just go," she said, as she walked away, she opened the door, and Rose was standing in front of her.

"Hi Faith."

"Hi Rose," Faith mumbled, as she hurried out of the apartment, leaving Rose wondering what happened with Bosco and Faith.

Rose walked up to her son. "What did you do now?" she asked. Bosco turned around. "I just lost the woman that I love."

Faith walked into her apartment and saw that Emily was sitting in the living room.

"Em," Faith replied, surprised to see her. "What are you doing here?"

"I can't take dad and his girlfriend anymore. They are driving me nuts, so I thought I would come by here. You told me that I could, but I can go."

"No, it's fine, Em," Faith answered, as she took off her jacket. "I was just surprised."

Emily looked over at Faith. "Mom, is everything okay?"

"I'm fine," Faith replied.

"You don't look fine, did something happen at work?" Emily asked. Faith looked at Emily she saw the concern in her daughter's eyes. Her daughter has matured in the last few months, and she didn't even know that she did.

"It's not about work, but I'll be fine."

"It's about Bosco isn't it?" Emily questioned. "Are you worried about him?"

Faith smiled. "I told him that I loved him," she blurted out. She looked at Emily. "I shouldn't have told you that."

"Mom, I'm not a child. I know you and dad are never going to get back together. I know that I haven't been that good to you, but I want you to be happy and if Bosco makes you happy, I'm glad."

"It doesn't matter, Em, because Bosco doesn't love me."

"He does love you! He jumped in front of 4 bullets for you. If you don't call that love, I don't know what you would."

"He did that because I was his partner and his best friend," Faith replied. Emily looked at her mom. "No, he didn't, mom and you know it. When I talked to him in the hospital, I saw the look on his face when he was talking about you. He loves you," Emily responded.

"I don't know, Em. I thought so too. I thought he loved me as much as I love him. I just don't know anymore."

"Maybe he is scared," Emily replied.

Faith couldn't believe she was having this conversation with her daughter and that she was telling her how she feels about Bosco.

"What do you mean?"

"Mom, I know enough about Bosco to know that he goes from one relationship to another right away. He has a hard time to commit to anybody right?" So maybe he is just scared that he is going to hurt you and he doesn't want to, so he lied to you and said that he didn't love you."

"How do you know all this, Em?"

"Mom, I'm 17 years I do know some stuff about relationships. Just don't give up on him. If you love him, fight for him." Emily replied. "You fought for him to live when he was in the coma, so fight for him now."

Faith hugged Emily. "You have grown up so fast, Em. I didn't even notice it."

"I know, "Emily replied. " But I understand now why you couldn't be there for me when I was growing up."

"I love you," Faith replied as she hugged Emily.

Emily looked at Faith. "Well I better be going back to dad's. "Why don't you stay for dinner? I'll call your father and tell him you are staying here for dinner and then you can tell me everything that has been happening in your life."

Rose looked at her son. "So you are telling me that Faith told you that she loves you and you said that you didn't love her, when you really do?" Rose responded, with this confused look on her face.

"Ma, I can't be with her or anybody. I'm damaged." Bosco replied, touching the scar on his face, then pulling his shirt up, revealing the scars there as well.

"Look at me," Bosco replied.

"She doesn't want you because of how you look. She wants you because she loves the whole you, not just the person on the outside. You know that Maurice, you just don't want to admit it. Is there more to it, that you aren't telling me or yourself."

Bosco looked at Rose. She knew him better than anybody else, the only other person that knew him that well was Faith, and he just destroyed that relationship.

Bosco stood up and walked away from Rose, looking out the window. "Maurice," Rose replied. He turned around and faced her. "I never stay in a relationship that long. I think the longest I had was with Nicole and how many years ago was that? I am not someone that supposed to be in a long term relationship. What if we get together and I break her heart. I don't ever want to do that to her. She is everything to me! I don't know how I would handle it if I did something to make her cry. So I think it would be best if we don't start a relationship."

"So you don't think she was upset when you told her that you don't love her and that you didn't make her cry?"

Bosco sighed. "Thanks Ma, what a way to make me feel better."

"I'm just telling you how it is." Rose said. "Maurice, you have to stop letting like what could happen stop you. I don't know what is going to happen, but you have to take a chance. You might miss out on the best thing in your life."

Bosco shakes his head. "I don't know, Ma."

Rose put her hand on Bosco's shoulder. "I know that you love her, but don't let things, like your scars or your insecurities, stop you from being with the love of your life. Don't the two of you deserve some happiness in your life?"

Bosco smiled. "I love her more than anything, but I just don't know what to do. I told her that I didn't love her."

Rose looked at Bosco. "Faith knows that you love her. Just call her and tell her everything that you told me."

"I'll leave you alone, but please call her. You aren't as young as you use to be, Maurice. You need to settle down, and I want some grandkids.. you know. Don't let her go! Tell her that you love her before it is too late. Don't be stubborn like you always are!" Rose replied as she walked away from Bosco.

Bosco picked up the phone, and started dialing Faith's number. Ma was right and he needed to phone her, but he didn't know what he was going to say her. He knew he had hurt Faith's feelings, but he was just so confused right now. He loves her and wants to be with her, but doesn't know if he is the right person for her. Suddenly he heard Faith's voice over the phone and realizes that she wasn't home and he was listening to her message on her answering machine. The only thing he could say was "Faith," before he hangs up the phone.

Faith walked into her apartment, after taking Emily back to Fred's. She saw that her answering machine was blinking.

She pressed the button, as she was taking off her jacket, she then heard his voice and turned around, but he didn't say anything. She sighed. Why did he phone me then? She was hoping that he changed his mind, but maybe Emily was wrong, and he really doesn't love her like she thought he did. She wanted to phone him, but she didn't know what to say to him. She can't make him love her. But she knew that she would always love Bosco, no matter if he doesn't love her.

She decided there was nothing that she could do tonight, so it was best for her to just go to sleep and hope that tomorrow was a better day.

The next day:

At work, all she could think about was Bosco. She called him a few times, but he didn't pick up the phone. I lost the one person in my life that means everything to me because I told him that I love him. What was I thinking?" she thought to herself.

"Faith," Jelly called out to her. "I've been calling your name for the past few minutes. What's wrong?"

"Nothing," Faith responded. "I'm fine. So is there something you need to ask me?"

"Miller just called and he told me that he got a lead in that case we have been working on, he needs your help."

"I found the suspect." Miller replied, as he walked into the office.

Faith looked up at Miller. "Can't Jelly come with you?"

"Faith.. I need you for this one. You are the best. Unless you don't think you are up to it?" Miller responded.

Faith shakes her head. "No, I'm fine, let's go," Faith said, as she grabbed her jacket, and headed out of the office.

Faith and Miller were in the car waiting for the suspect to come out of the restaurant. "How are you, Faith?" he asked. She looked at him, and smiled slightly. "I'm good, but shouldn't we be looking for the suspect," Faith snapped. She then looked at Miller. "Sorry, I didn't mean to snap."

Miller nodded. "It's fine.. I understand you are under stress with your divorce I know how that is."

"Thanks for understanding," Faith replied, when actually the only thing that was on her mind was Bosco, not her divorce with Fred.

"I see him coming out," Faith replied, as she got out of the car. Miller runs out of the car. "Faith.. wait!"

Faith runs after the suspect as he was walking out of the restaurant. "Police," she shouted, as she runs after him. The suspect then pulled out the gun.

"Guys."

Suddenly she sees the gunman coming towards her, and all she can do is stand there, and do nothing.

"Faith… watch out," Miller called out to her, but Faith didn't hear him, because she was paralyzed in fear. All she could think of was the day of the shooting in the hospital, not what was happening right now. If she didn't snap out of it soon, she could be in danger.

To be continued.