Revelations

Chapter 11

"Faith," Miller called out to her again. But it was too late, because a few seconds later, he heard gunshots. He runs towards Faith.

"Faith, are you hurt?" he asked. She looked up at him. "No, I'm fine" she said. He looked at her. "Why did you space out like that? I kept on calling your name" Faith shakes her head. "I don't know what you are talking about. I didn't space out. I'm sorry that the suspect got away, but these things happen."

Faith then suddenly put her hand on her shoulder; she then saw that she had blood on her hand. Just like the night in the hospital when Bosco got shot.

She then flashed back to the night of the hospital shooting.

I don't want her to see the blood."

" He's gonna make it, Faith."
"You didn't see him."
" He's Bosco."
" He's not Superman."

"Rose. Something happened downstairs. Maurice…these men came into the hospital. They were--- they were looking to hurt us and um…they shot him. And he's in surgery. I'm so sorry."

She started to breathe heavily. "Bosco…" she cried out.

"Faith… calm down," Miller reassured her. "You are going to be fine." "

"Bos." she yelled out. Miller grabbed a hold of her hand. "Faith… look at me. Everything is going to be okay."

"There is blood everywhere. I can't get Bosco's blood off me."

Miller didn't know what to do, "Faith, it's me, Miller."

Miller called on his radio. "55 Adam, We have a detective down. I repeat detective down."

Miller glanced at Faith. "You are hurt, but everything is going to be okay.

"Bosco… Bosco," she cried. "No." Miller realizes that Faith was reliving the night that Bosco got shot and there was nothing he could for her. The only person that could help her right now is Bosco.

Carlos and Holly arrived at the scene, and walked up to Faith. "How are you feeling?" Levine asked Faith.

"I'm fine," Faith said. Holly examined Faith's shoulder. "It looks like the bullet just grazed your shoulder, but we still need to take you to the hospital." Faith nodded. Faith then looked at her hand and saw that the blood was still on her hand. Blood…. Except this time it wasn't Bosco's blood, it was hers.

Holly looked at Faith. "Are you sure you are okay? Are you in shock from the accident?" she asked.

"There was blood everywhere. It was my fault," Faith replied. Holly took Faith's hand. "It's okay," she said in a soothing and gentle tone of voice.

Miller walked up to them. "She has been going on about Bosco. I think she is having flashbacks from the night when he got shot."

"Faith, are you talking about that night?" Holly asked, in a calming voice. "You mean the night that I ruined my best friend's life. Did you know that I told him that I loved him and what did he say? He said that he didn't love me" Faith replied, laughing.

"Why did I expect that anything different would happen.. I lost my kids so why wouldn't I lose my best friend, and the man that I love." Holly glanced at Miller. "Why don't you go and tell Carlos that I am just finishing up with Faith, and then we can take her to the hospital."

Holly waited until she was sure that Miller was gone, before she talked again. "Faith… my stars tell me that you and Bosco are going to be fine. You are destined to be together. You are soul mates."

"I don't think so. I think your stars are wrong this time," Faith answered. Holly smiled. "No, I don't think so… you and Bosco are the real thing," she replied. "Now let's get you to the hospital."

Faith was sitting in the exam room, waiting for the doctor when she heard someone call her name. "Bos," she said, as she looked up at him, and saw that he was walking on his own. She was so happy for him. She knew that he could do it.

"You don't have your cane," she said with this smile on her face.

He grinned at her. "I went to the physical therapist today and she said that I have to start walking without it. It is still a little painful, but I think I can deal with it."

"I'm so happy for you," she replied. He sat down next to her. "Are you okay? I heard that you got shot? It isn't serious is it?" he asked, with this scared look on his face. He couldn't let anything happen to her, not before he tells her the truth about how he feels about her.

She looked into his eyes, and could see that he was really concerned about her. "Bos, I'm fine, it was nothing that serious. I just have to wear this sling for a few days, but how did you even know I was here?" she questioned him.

"I got a call from your partner Miller, and he told me that I needed to get to the hospital right away that you needed me. I didn't even know what to expect. I thought maybe something seriously wrong had happened to you. I don't know what I would..." She grabbed his hand. "I'm fine; you don't need to worry about me."

"Faith, I'll always worry about you. I'll always be there for you... no matter what."

"I know you will be."

Bosco held onto her hand tightly. "I'm sorry about what I said yesterday… I..."

"Bosco, I don't want to know. You already told me once that you don't love me. I don't need to hear it again."

"But Faith, you don't understand," She glanced at him. " I think I do, Bos. We can only be friends, and one day that will be enough for me, but not right now. I still have to deal with it. Please don't make this any harder than it is," she replied, as she stood up. He grabbed a hold of her hand again. "Listen to me, we need to talk. There are some things that I haven't told you."

Faith moved her hand away from Bosco. "I can't do this right now. I don't want to know why you can't be with me. I just can't!" she yelled.

"But!" he replied, desperate to tell Faith the truth. "We need to talk."

She turned around. "Bos, I can't. Please understand," she said. She grabbed a hold of her jacket, Bosco help her put it on. "Thank you for coming, but I think it would be best if I just leave."

"Faith, don't go."

"I have to," she said, as she walked out of the exam room.

As she walked out of the room, Miller was going towards her. "How are you doing?"

"I'm fine," Faith replied.

"Do you need a ride back to the station?" he asked her. "Yes I do, thanks."

She watched silently as Bosco walked out of the room, realization hitting her. The man walking away from her was more than her best friend and partner. She painfully acknowledged to herself, he was a man that she wanted to be with. A man that she wanted to be with completely- and a man that she wanted to love. As he disappeared around the corner, her heart sunk, and she knew that some fantasies would never come true, and this was one of them.

"Faith," Miller asked. "What are you looking at?" he asked. She ignored Miller, her eyes glued to where Bosco had been. It was empty now. She wondered if was just another cruel way to tell her that he would never be coming back. That she lost him forever.

Miller looked at her. "Faith, have you talked to someone about that night?" Faith couldn't believe he was even bringing up that night, he wasn't even there.

"I'm not talking to you about that night," Faith replied, as she walked away from Miller.

"Faith, I just meant that you should talk to a therapist."

"I'm not going to any therapist. I don't need any help. I forgot about what happened that day a long time ago. Don't make me think about that day," she replied.

He looked at her. "When you got shot today, you were talking about Bosco. I think you were thinking about that night. Faith, is that true?"

"I don't have to answer that," Faith replied. "Why do you care so much?" Miller looked at Faith. " You are a good detective Faith.
You shouldn't have gotten shot today, but I think it was because you spaced out."

Faith sighed. "Thank you for caring, but I am fine," she said.

"Faith, if you don't want to talk to a therapist at least talk to someone, maybe a friend. I'm free after work if you want to go out for coffee and talk."

Faith smiled slightly. "No, John, its fine. Thanks for the offer, but I will be fine."

Faith and Miller arrived at the station, when Lieu walked up to them. "Faith, I need to see you in my office."

"I'll go do the report," Miller said, as he walked away from them. Lieu looked up at Faith. "I think you should take a week off."

"But boss, the doctor said that I only need to wear this sling for a few days. I can still do some paperwork."

"Faith, Miller told me what happened out there. He told me that you froze out there. I can't have one of my cops doing that. It wasn't only a danger for you, but also Miller. Lucky you weren't hurt that bad. You have been through a lot these past few months just take the days off, and rest." She looked at him. "But boss, I need to be here."

"Faith, go home. I'm not asking you, I'm telling you," Faith nodded and left the office.

Faith walked into the office where Miller and Jelly were.

"So what did Lieu say?" Miller asked her.

"I am taking a week's vacation. Well you know with this sling, I can't really do much," she said, smiling, as she grabbed her purse.

"I'll see you on next Wednesday, Jelly," she said. Jelly waved goodbye to her. "Bye Faith," he said.

Faith was walking down the stairs, when she heard someone calling her name. She turned around, and saw Miller. She looked up at him. "Why did you tell Lieu what happened out there. I told you that I was fine."

"I don't think you are, Faith. I had to tell Lieu the truth." She looked at Miller. "It was none of your business to tell. You didn't get hurt, so you didn't need to tell Lieu that what happened out there."

Miller looked at Faith. "So are you telling me that you know that you spaced out?"

"Okay maybe I did, but who hasn't," Faith replied. Miller nodded. "Maybe you are right. I'm sorry. Why don't I take you out for dinner as my way to say sorry."

"No thanks." Faith replied, as she walked away.

A hour later:

Faith knocked on the door. She waited patiently for him to open the door. She didn't know why she showed up here, but she had nowhere else to go.

"Faith," he said, surprised as he opened the door.

She looked up at Bosco. "I need you! I don't have anybody else!"