Revelations

Author's Note: Just a reminder, this story take place before Leap of Faith, so Cruz never went to jail.

Chapter 12

Bosco was shocked to see Faith standing in front of him. After the scene that they had at the hospital, he didn't think he would see her.

"I don't even know why I came, I should go," Faith replied, starting to walk away. Bosco grabbed her hand. "Don't go, there must be a reason that you came to see me."

"Don't stand outside, come in."

Faith walked into the apartment. She didn't even know why she showed up at Bosco's, but he was the last person that she has in her life left that she can come to, and she didn't even know if he even wanted her there.

"So it is great that you are back at your own apartment. I'm sure that you are happy about that." Faith said.

"I know you didn't come over here to tell me that.. so tell me the real reason that you are here," Bosco responded.

Faith walks towards the couch. "There was blood everywhere."

"Are you talking about today?"

"It was your blood. I had your blood on me, because you risked your life for me. I can still feel your arms around me. You were so weak."

Bosco moved closer to Faith. "Don't think about that day again."

Faith turned around. " Don't you get it? I have never stop thinking about that night. I replay the events in my head every day and think maybe if I just saw the gunmen earlier... I could have stopped you from jumping in front of me."

"Don't do this to yourself, Faith. You can't think about what you could have done."

"But I just stood there frozen, unable to move, just like I did today."

Bosco grabbed her hand, "Faith."

"I was pointing my gun at this suspect, and I just froze. All I could think about was that night that you got shot, and everything that happened that night."

Faith walked over to the window. "I shot a man in cold blood. He was in custody and he was handcuffed. He wasn't going to stab Cruz."

"What are you talking about?"

"I didn't care that I shot and killed a man. I had to make him pay. I didn't care what happened to me as long as I killed the person that murdered my partner because at the time I thought that you were gone.

Bosco looked at her with this shock look on his face. He wasn't sure what to say about this. He walked away from her.

"Don't do this, Bos. I can't have you mad at me. You are the only thing left in my life, even if it is just as a friend. I need you." "He turned around. " I 'm not mad, but why?"

"I told you I thought you were dead. I couldn't let Mann get away with it, because you know as well as I do, he would have gotten out of jail."

"Faith, you shouldn't have done that. You risked everything, your career… your kids…your life."

"You mean like when you risked your own life that night to save mine?"

"That is different."

"No, Bos. It's no different. We both risked our lives for each other because that is what partners do. Don't tell me that if you were in the same situation that you wouldn't have done the same thing . That you wouldn't have killed the person that killed me, because I know you would."

"Of course I would, but I don't have a family to think about. You could have gone to jail for killing Mann. So does that mean that you worked with Cruz?"

Faith sighed. "I didn't want to her to help me. I would have gone to jail. I didn't care that I killed Mann. I still don't. I would do it again if I had to. But Cruz made me realize that I couldn't let Mann win by me going to jail, so I let Cruz help me cover up his murder. I still can't believe that I went along with her, but I had to."

"Does anybody else know aboput this?" Bosco asked.

"No, they think that I 'saved' Cruz's life. They will never know the truth. I didn't even want you to know the truth. You have enough to deal with. I didn't want you to know."

"But I do, Faith. I'm glad that I know now." Bosco replied, as he grabbed her hand. She looked into his eyes. "What happened to me where I don't even care that I killed in cold blood?" Faith said, on a verge of tears.

"Mann wasn't just a regular man. He was a man that tried to kill the whole 55th precinct. You are still the same person, Faith."

"No, I'm not, Bosco. I followed Cruz to Mann's place, and I didn't even think about it. I just pulled out the gun, and shot him. I watch his body go into the pool, and I didn't feel one feeling of remorse for him," Bosco moved closer to Faith, and put his arms around her. "Stop feeling so guilty over what happened. You are still a great cop or should I say detective now."

"Thanks Bos," Faith replied. "Well I should be going now."

"Don't go, Faith. It's late. Why don't you stay over tonight?"

"I couldn't do that to you."

Bosco smiled. "Think of it as a payback from when you let me stay at your place for those few days."

Faith shakes her head. "I don't know."

" Well, if you go home now. I am going to have to walk you and make sure you get home okay. Then I will have to walk home all by myself, and you know how hard it is for me to walk long ways. You wouldn't want me to have to do that, would you?"

Faith smiled at Bosco. Some things just don't change, she thought to herself.

"Fine. I'll stay, just for tonight."

Bosco was sleeping when suddenly he heard Faith screaming. He quickly ran to the living room, and to her side. "Faith, what's wrong?"

She looked up at him. "I didn't mean to wake you. Go back to sleep."

"Faith, you look like you had a nightmare. " Faith sat up. "Yes I did, sometimes, I have dreams replaying the events that happened that night, but then some nights I have nightmares, either I wasn't able to save you or you blame me for you getting shot."

"Oh Faith," he said, as he put his arms around her. "I'm so sorry
that I didn't realize what you have been going through these past few months," She placed her hand on his. "You have nothing to be sorry about."

"Faith, I don't blame you for what happened to me. I saved you because I wanted to," he said.

"I know, Bos, but tonight's dream was so real. It was like I was back in the hospital. It has never been that real before. You were lying on the ground in the hospital. I was giving you CPR, like I did, and then suddenly you woke up and looked at me, and you asked me why I did this to you, and then I told you that I'm sorry and then I woke up."

Bosco put his arms around her. "Faith, it was just a nightmare." Faith stood up and moved away from Bosco. "I'm not used to someone being here when I have these dreams. Normally I'm alone. I lost everything in my life, my kids.. you."

"You haven't lost me. You will never lose me. I love you," he whispered, as he walked up to her, and held her in his arms. She placed her head on his chest. She felt so safe in his arms. She didn't care that he only wants to be her friend, as long as he is still in her life. That is all that matters to her.

Faith woke up the next morning, and she looked up and saw Bosco sitting next to her. "Bos?"

He looked up at her. "You are finally awake."

"How are you?" he asked.

"I'm better, thanks for being there for me last night" she said, as a smile crept through her face.

"I'll always be there for you."

He moved closer to her. "I need to explain about what I said last night."

She grabbed his hand. "Bos, I know you only meant that you love me as a friend. You don't have to explain anything to me."

"No, you are not understanding what I am saying," Bosco replied.

"Bos, I don't need you to explain anything to me. I know that you don't love me. I understand. I would rather have you as a friend than not have you in my life."

He grabbed her hand and held onto it tightly. "Faith let me talk."

"Bos,"

"I meant what I said last night. I love you."

"No you don't. Don't lie to me, Bos. I know you just said it to make me feel better."

"You aren't listening to me. I'm in love with you, Faith."

To be continued.

Author's Note: Yes another cliffhanger!