Disclaimer: I do not own Saiyuki
Warning: Suicidal things are involved in this story. So if you do not like that then I suggest you don't read this story.
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The stages of cutting yourself were easy, break through the skin, and keep cutting into the skin until you hit the vein. Once you cut open the vein, you start to lose blood then came death. Hakkai was at the third stage of cutting; the blood ran down his arm. Drops of blood hit the floor, "Shit, blood stains..."
He looks at the door making sure Gojyo wasn't coming, he flinches in pain. "I just want to end it all...Kanan I shall join you soon." He looks up at his door hearing someone coming, "Shit..." He puts on his sweater, sits on the bloodstain and puts the wrist he cut behind his back.
There was a knock at the door, "Hey Hakkai, Goku and Sanzo are here. So wake up or whatever..."
Hakkai hears footsteps going away from his door, he stands up and sighs. He changes his sweater and wraps his wrist up with bandages, he walks out to the living room. He finds Goku and Gojyo yelling at each other, with Sanzo in a chair annoyed. The youkai walks into the room, "I'll start dinner..."
"Yay!" The monkey says with excitement in his voice.
"Good...I'm tired of the monkey and the kappa arguing." The monk says as he lights a cigarette.
Hakkai nods and goes into the kitchen, "They expect me to do everything...I'm sick of it." He gets the food out and puts it on the counter; he gets a knife and starts to cut some lettuce up. He wondered why cutting your wrist isn't as easy as cutting a head of lettuce. He spaced out watching the knife cut through the lettuce, he suddenly stop and looks at the knife. "I could end it now..." he puts the blade against his wrist not caring that he could cut through the bandage and sweater. He starts to cut, through the sweater and bandage until the blade touched where he already cut. He flinched in pain as he continues to cut his wrist the blood dripping on the counter. Hakkai didn't care he wanted to end it; he wanted to be with his sister, his lover. The lost of blood was making him dizzy; he wanted to end it so he switches hands and cut the other wrist. He heard someone coming, so he dashes to the bathroom locking the door. He ran past Gojyo, "Hakkai?"
The kappa looks at the counter seeing blood on it and the knife too. "Hakkai!" He runs to the bathroom and pounds on it, "Hakkai are you alight!"
"Y-yes I'm fine I just cut my hand on accident while cutting dinner." Hakkai was wrapping his wrists up and found another sweater hanging up on the door. He changes his sweater luckily it was the same color as the one he ripped. He could hear Gojyo talking to Sanzo but couldn't understand because he was dizzy. Hakkai sighs, he'll never get away with cutting himself if the kappa or anyone else is around. The youkai's stomach couldn't take it; he got on his knees and throws up in the toilet.
"Hakkai? Are you throwing up?" The kappa's voice sounded muffled to the youkai.
"I...don't feel g-" The youkai throws up more.
"Shit man!" the kappa pounded more on the door.
Hakkai threw up more and finally passed out, next thing he knew he was awake in his bed.
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More coming! Poor Hakkai...
DarthRhi