Chapter 3

2 months later

Oh god, how was he going to tell her? The news would probably tear her apart, because it sure as hell was killing him. How was he going to tell her he wasn't going to be able to hold her like he did every night? They couldn't share the nights together, like they had been for the past eight months. They probably would never to make love again, all because of this news he found out.

Sam was pregnant, and ironically, he was going to tell her he wanted a divorce when she told him the news.

So of course he was going to have to end the affair with Courtney because he had to do the right thing. He had to be a good husband and be a father. No matter how much he couldn't stand his wife. So he had to tell Courtney that he could not continue this affair, no matter how much he didn't want to.

So he was at the loft waiting for Courtney so he could tell her. He just about jumped out of his skin when he heard Courtney knock on the door. He opened the door and saw her standing there with that amazing smile on her face, and he was going to be the one to have it fall.

"Jason I have the most amazing news." Courtney said as she threw her arms around he neck and kissed him on the lips.

"Well, baby, I have something to tell you too." Jason said with a serious look on his face. Courtney's smile fell immediately.

"What is it Jason? Is everything okay? Are the boys hurt? Are Carly or Sonny hurt?" She asked frantically.

"No everyone is fine." Jason sighed and ran his hands through his hair. He walked over to the couch and sat down. He motioned for Courtney to sit down beside him. She walked over and sat down beside him and gently took his large hand in her much smaller on. She used her free hand to bring his face to where he was looking in her eyes.

"Jason you know you can tell me anything." He looked deeply into her eyes. He saw trust and love in her eyes and it broke his heart knowing what he was about to tell her was going to kill her.

"We can't continue this affair that we have going on Courtney." Courtney had a stunned look on her face

"Why not Jason?" She asked. She had tears shinning in her eyes. She looked up him with pleading eyes. Jason took a deep breath and looked deeply in her eyes. He gently took his hand out of hers and placed both hands on the side of her face.

"Sam is pregnant." He saw the tears start to well up in her eyes. She started shaking her head causing his hands to fall from her face. She quickly stood up. She turned away from him and Jason saw her shoulders start to shake. She released a small sob, which caused Jason's heart to break.

"Baby, you have to know that…" Jason started to say, but Courtney cut him off.

"I don't have to know anything, Jason, except that while we were here we were something, but when you got home all thoughts of me flew out the window. How many times did you go home and sleep with her after you left here and we had made love."

"None." He told her.

"Well you obviously have had to because she is pregnant with your child."

"Courtney I haven't slept with her since we started what we have going on here."

"Well I really don't have a place to complain. She is your wife and you are just doing your husbandly duties. I am the one in the wrong here; I am just the other woman. I'm just the woman you come to for sex." Courtney told him with pain and anger in her voice. She started to walk away from him, but he grabbed her arm and spun her around to where she was looking him directly in the eyes.

"Baby, you know you mean so much more to me than that. You know I love you more than anything, but Sam is carrying my child and I need to be there for her and the baby." Jason attempted to pull her into his arms but she pushed him away.

"Get out." She whispered in a deadly silent voice.

"Baby…" Jason attempted to talk to her but she interrupted him.

"Get out Jason."

"You never got to tell me the amazing news you had, baby." Jason attempted to talk to her so he could stay with her a little while longer because he knew as soon as he walked out of the loft he wouldn't be able to see her for a long time. He knew that if he saw her on the streets he would have to control himself to keep from running to her, grabbing her in his arms and begging her to forgive him and take him back.

"GET OUT JASON. JUST GET OUT, GET OUT, GET OUT. I DON'T EVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN. I HATE YOU. ALL OF THIS WAS A MISTAKE. WE NEVER SHOULD HAVE STARTED THIS AFFAIR. EVERYTHING WE HAVE DONE THESE PAST MONTHS HAVE BEEN A MISTAKE. Courtney yelled with pain and anger in her voice. He knew she didn't mean what she said, but that didn't mean the words hurt any less. He knew it was just the anger talking but it didn't stop the words from breaking his heart. The heart wrenching sobs that followed her hurtful words effectively shattered his already broken heart into pieces.

Jason walked to the door and opened it and just as he was about to walk out of the door he turned to look at Courtney. She was sitting on the couch with her head in her hands and her shoulders were shaking with heart wrenching sobs, and just before he closed the door he whispered the words that sent Courtney a new wave of tears and pain.

"I love you, baby." Those were the last words she heard from him before he closed the door.

Courtney sat on the couch and continued sobbing long after Jason had left their loft, when she suddenly remembered Jason asking about her news she had forgotten about during their argument.

"Well Jason the wonderful new is that I am pregnant with your child. Isn't it amazing, and I thought it was going to be impossible after the miscarriage. It's a miracle." Courtney whispered out loud to herself, and she once again started sobbing to herself.

Sorry it has been so long since I updated, I just got back from a cruise to Mexico about a week ago, so I will try and get the next chapter up sooner.