Torn

I thought I saw a man brought to life,


He was warm; he came around like he was dignified,


He showed me what it was to cry,


Well, you couldn't be that man I adored.


You don't seem to know, seem to care, what your heart is for,


But I don't know him anymore,


There's nothing where he used to lie,


My conversation has run dry,

That's what's goin' on.

Nothing's fine I'm torn...

Edward saw him walking with another woman and talking. Saying such sweet things, that he used to say to him. He seen them together before, he knew something was going on. Today, he figured it out. He watched as his dignified lover kissed the woman as he watched from the window of their home. He felt tears weld up in his eyes. Where all his lies were; holes now lay. Through out his heart. The conversation ran dry years ago. He now knew that. Roy walked through the door to see Ed standing at the window. "Edo-koi..." Ed turned and looked at Roy.

I'm all out of faith,


This is how I feel,


I'm cold and I am shamed,


Lying naked on the floor,

Illusion never changed,

Into something real,

I'm wide-awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn,

You're a little late; I'm already torn,

"Roy... Don't try to explain. " Tears fell from Edward's face as he ran out of the small home, they used to share. He felt like he was naked on the streets, stripped of his defenses. But he wasn't naked. He was waiting for the illusions to change; he looked up at the sky. He could have sworn it looked as torn as he felt.

So I guess the fortune teller's right,

I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light,

But you crawled beneath my veins and now,

I don't care, I have no luck, and I don't miss it all that much,

There's just so many things,

That I can't touch

I'm torn.

I'm so stupid. I knew he was a fucking player. I knew it wasn't going to last. Edward thought as he stared at a meaningless tree. Edward couldn't get Roy out of his head. No matter how hard he tried. He saw Roy and that woman kissing. I have no luck. Edward buried his face in his hands, not wanting to face the world no longer. He felt the loss of Roy's love. I wasn't enough for him... I'm never enough for anyone...

I'm all out of faith,

This is how I feel,

I'm cold and I am shamed,

Lying naked on the floor,

Illusion never changed,

Into something real,

I'm wide-awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn,

You're a little late; I'm already torn,

Torn,

In his mind, he was lying there naked. Torn to shreds. His once solid heart out on the ground bleeding and shredded. No one could help him now. He was torn. I shouldn't have trusted him, like I did. Edward felt more tears build up in his chest. I wasn't enough... I could never be enough for anyone.

There's nothing where he used to lie,

My inspiration has run dry,

That's what's goin' on ... nothing's right

I'm torn

He looked up at the sky. He felt like he couldn't do anything. There was no inspiration left for him to do something anymore. Nothing's right any more...

I'm all out of faith,

This is how I feel,

I'm cold and I'm ashamed,

Lying naked on the floor,

Illusion never changed,

Into something real,

I'm wide-awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn


He felt cold and ashamed of himself. His emotional walls were shattered like a glass window that was hit with a bat. He closed his eyes for a minute and opened them with a new awareness. I'm awake now. He thought and looked at the perfectly torn sky. Yeah, it is torn, just like me...

I'm all out of faith,

This is how I feel,

I'm cold and I'm ashamed,

Bound and broken on the floor,

You're a little late; I'm already torn,

Torn.