OK...This is most likely the last chapter. It's only in Emma's point of view. All her.

Listen To Your Heart

5 Months after the funeral

Feb. 2007

Emma pulled her car into the parking lot of the cemetary that she knew all too well.In the past 5 months shes been here too many times to count. She comes to see her baby. The baby she would hold again. The baby she wouldn't see grow up and take it's first steps. Her daughter lived here now. With strangers surrounding her. Six feet underground. Alone. Without a mother. Without a father.

She wasn't Emma anymore. She lost all hope that she ever had in life. Jay took care of Alex pretty much all by himself. Emma just couldn't stand that someone else's baby was living in her house when her own flesh and blood was taken away from her.

She slowly walked to the headstone that was in the shape of heart. Emma sat infront of it. She traced the engraved lily with her index finger. Then she traced the engraved writing:

Lilly Em Hogart

2007 - 2007

She was a soul too

pure to live on this earth

Emma slowly pulled back her arm. She remembered when Jay and her were discussing what to have engraved on the headstone.

Flashback

"Why can't we just have her name? That's good enough."

Emma looked at Jay annoyingly, "Good enough? She's our daughter. Nothing will ever be good enough." Emma looked into the living room at her mother and father. She could faintly hear them talking.

"Snake, why did this happen? It's hurting Em. I just wish there was something I could do."

"She was a soul too pure to live on this earth. She taught us --"

Emma jumped up, "DAD! That's it! "Lilly Em Hogart. She was a soul too pure for this earth."

End of flashback

Emma sighed and wiped the tears that were forming in her eyes. She looked around her, to make sure no one was around.

"Hey, Lilly. How are you?" She paused. She would always wait for a response. She knew she wouldn't get one. It was just the thing she did when she was there.

"I know, you can't answer me. I know you can hear me. I miss you. So, does daddy. Your aunts and uncles all miss you, too. Elizabeth asks about you. She doesnt understand. She's still young. Auntie Ellie's baby, Andrew is doing great. He's about four months now. I'm jealous of Auntie Ellie and Uncle Sean. Andrew was perfectly healthy. At least Auntie Manny and Uncle Craig have a small feeling about what I'm going though..." She stops, and wipes away more tears. "I'm sorry, baby. I just...No...only good stuff now. Right?"

Emma sat in silence. She never imagined this would happen. All the nights her and Jay would stay awake until the sun rised, talking about all the things they would do when Lilly was born.

"I don't know when I'm going to visit again. I'm leaving. I just have to get away for a little while. I feel trapped baby. I'm sorry. I promise you I will come back. Even if it's just to visit you. Daddy doesn't know. He has Alex now. He'll be fine. He loves Alex like a son. If Daddy needs help, your aunts and uncles will help...I hope so at least. I need to do this."

Emma reached into her purse. She pulled out a packet of seeds. "These are Gladiolas. I was going to plant lilies, but I thought that was too cliche. This flower is the flower for August. Kind of like a birth stone." Emma dug little holes all infront of the headstone. "These will grow. They'll grow for you. I spoke with the groundskeeper. He said he would make sure they are healthy. I had to pay him a little. I think it's worth it though."

Emma sat for an hour in silence. Taking in everything she knew she was going to miss. Making sure she said everything she wanted to say.

"I have to go now. I love you. I'll be back. I promise." Emma kissed her hand and placed the kissed hand on top of the headstone. "Bye Lilly Em." Then she walked away.

XXXX

Later that night...

Emma waited until Jay had falledn asleep. Once she was sure he was asleep. She got out of bed, pulled out a note she had written and placed it on her pillow. She leaned over and kissed Jay on the cheel and whispered I love you. She walked out of her room and towards the hall closet. She grabbed her bags and walked to Alex's bedroom. She silently kissed him on the cheek and left his room. She walked to Lilly's bedroom and opened the door. The only light was the nightlight. She looked around. She would have loved to have seen Lilly laying in her crib, sound asleep. She closed the door and walked down the stairs. She looked around one last time and left.

Emma put her bags into the trunk and got in. She slowly pulled out of the drive way. She drove off down the street and turned on the radio.

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Emma started dry. She was leaving the love of her life. She wanted to turn back, but she knew she had to go.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind

She stopped at a red light. Wiping the tears from her eyes. She looked at the clock on the dashboard, 4:47 AM. Jay would wake up soon. He would wonder where she was. What would he think? Would he wait for her? Would he find a new love? What about Alex? He won't have a mother.

"But I don't have a daughter. My daughter. Why should it matter?"

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Listen to your heart, mm-mmmmmm

I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

Emma kept driving. She wouldn't stop driving until she got to where she was going. But, she didn't even know where she was going.

"This is going to be a long drive. I'll stop once I know where I'm going."

She knew she didn't mean a place. She meant in life. She would knew where she wanted to be in life, when she got there. For now she would just keep driving.

THE END

a/n I know horrible ending. I'm sorry! I hope some of you liked it, at least.