Chapter 4: Longing
Healer looked at her hands folded in her lap as the meeting droned on. Maker was explaining something to the Princess that Healer didn't care about. But she didn't care about much anymore and she ignored everyone around her. Taiki had tried to help her but Yaten had avoided her. Seiya looked worried and concerned but Yaten didn't care. Princess Kakyuu didn't ask anything for which Yaten was grateful for.
None of them knew about Rael or what had happened while she was away. Seiya and Taiki asked her constantly but she never gave them any answers.
For some reason her thoughts kept returning to Rael. He had cared for her and had asked for nothing in return. She only wished she could see him again.
But when she went back to find where he lived, she could not find the house. Where she would have sworn the house was, there was only a field with several horses that belonged to a trader grazed. She kept searching but she had been certain that the field had been the location of Rael's house. Something was not right.
She gave up after a few weeks, depressed. She wondered that if Rael knew she was Sailor Star Healer, why he hadn't visited her at the palace. But she quickly pushed those thoughts out of her head.
Healer had her duty that came first and foremost. Her duty as Sailor Star Healer was her life. Yaten came second, often being ignored. But Rael had listened to Yaten, talked to her.
But there was no use in thinking of Rael. He was gone, out of her life and there was nothing she could do about it.
Rael could not get that girl out of his mind. He tried- no one could love a Sailor Senshi. They lived for their duty only and nothing else, no one else. But Sailor Star Healer seemed different.
No, that was just his feelings getting in the way. All senshi were alike and he only thought Healer was different because of how he felt about her. He would not, would not, let his emotions take control of his life. His life was already planned out for him and love was not a part of it.