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Anywayz, sorry for the lack of updates for all my fics! I really do hate writers' block… I'm trying so hard to get the next part of 'Ross loses it' but its just not working a the moment…

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Our Rock

"Is Mon back yet?" Joey asked, the first words he spoke since coming out of Chandler's room.

"No…Maybe I should go look for her…" Ross suggested.

"She'll come back when she's ready…" Rachel assured him. "Joey was right, earlier, she needs some space."

"Look, guys I think there's something you should know…" Joey said slowly, causing them all to look at him curiously.

"What is it?" Ross asked.

Joey hesitated before speaking. "Chandler…uh…. Its just hard talking to him, like that…"

"Oh right, okay…" Rachel frowned slightly, knowing that was not what he was going to say.

Joey sighed softly and sat down, keep his eyes transfixed on the floor. He knew that his friends needed to know about Monica and Chandler's relationship but he couldn't bring himself to tell them. He promised them both he wouldn't tell anyone and just because Chandler was dead didn't give him the right to break that promise.

"Things will get easier…" Ross told them.

"You really believe that?" Joey looked up at him.

"No…" He admitted. "But I can only hope it does…"

Rachel reached out and took his hand, squeezing it reassuringly causing him to look at her in surprised but she simply gave him a small, understanding smile.

Phoebe recognised that look they were giving each other, maybe this was thing that could finally bring them back together. A stab of pain went through her heart and she felt sick deep in the pit of her stomach…. Chandler's death could bring them back together…how was that fair, how could the one thing they had been waiting for and praying for could only happen after a horrific, tragic accident leaving their group one person short.

"I uh…I think I'll go next…" Rachel gestured to the door to Chandler's room.

"Actually Rach, do you mind if I go…" Ross asked. "I mean, I don't know if I'll be able to if I…. If I leave it…"

Rachel was quiet for a moment before nodding slightly. "Go ahead…"

"You sure?"

"Yeah…." She nodded, more tears filling her eyes. "You were his best friend."

"We all were…" He whispered in reply. "We were all his best friends…"

She nodded again but this time she didn't say anything.

"I uh…. I uh won't be long…" Ross told them.

"Take as long as you need…" She gave his hand a light squeeze.

He took a deep breath before turning away from his friends and towards the door. He silently closed it behind him and sat down in the chair next to the bed, letting out a breath he didn't know he had been holding.

Joey had been right when he said this was hard, he didn't know what to say. The past few hours had been dreamlike. It was only this morning that they were all sat around the table for breakfast…. It had been the first time in ages since they had done that… Ross had been busy trying to get in contact with Emily to sort everything out…Rachel, even though she wouldn't admit was, was avoiding him…Joey had just gotten a few jobs doing commercials and had been getting up early, skipping breakfast to be there. This morning they were all together…. This morning was the last time they were all together. Ross was finding it hard to believe that only a few hours ago, Chandler had been sat at a table with them, joining in with Rachel and Phoebe teasing Monica her secret boyfriend while Joey was more interested in is food and Ross had been trying so hard to find out who this guy dating his little was. They only stopped when Monica got annoyed and shouted at them, threatening to go on strike from cooking unless they left her alone…It was Chandler who apologised first… It was Chandler who gave her a friendly hug and a kiss on the cheek…. It was Chandler who had cheered her up…. It was Chandler who had always cheered her up… It was Chandler who had slipped in one last joke about her boyfriend being the best she ever had causing Rachel and Phoebe to laugh quietly, Joey to smirk, Ross to choke on his food and Monica to glare at him but Ross could tell she was faking and was trying not to smile…he did however along with Rachel and Phoebe fail to notice him winking and blowing her a kiss before he headed out the door…. For good.

"I…I don't know what to say…." Ross spoke low. "So…so I'm just going to sit here and think, okay?"

He watched his best friends, peaceful face as if he was expecting him to answer. He had been sat there for 5 minutes before he couldn't take the silence anymore.

"How can you be dead!" He asked. "You're only 28...that's not meant to happen…we were all meant to be friends forever…to be old together, sitting around complaining about the weather and stuff…. How can we do that without you!"

He got to his feet and started to walk around the room, running a hand through his hair.

"What am I meant to do? You've been my best friend since college; you were the one that I went to when I had a problem…. You were the one that Monica went to…that Joey went to…. Who do we turn to now… how are we meant to get through this when you're gone…. When our rock is gone…" He sat back down and was quiet for a moment. "I know I need to be there for the others…I know someone needs to be strong… and…and I want to be…. I want to be there for them… I want to do it for you… but…but I don't know if I can…. I don't know if I'm strong enough…"

"What do I do?" He asked for what seemed like the millionth time, he let out a short laugh and rubbed his eyes before his tears had a chance to fall. "Listen to me sat here worrying about myself…when you are…when you're…. I don't even know where you are…Where ever it is…I hope you're happy…."

He got up again before instead of leaving he stood there and stared at his best friend's body.

"Promise me…. Promise me that you'll stick around… promise that you'll look out for us all…" He said softly. "I know I've never really be a believer in all that…but if that's the only thing that I got left to hold on to you, then I'm taking it…"

He stayed there for a few more minutes before leaving.

"Hey… you okay?" Rachel asked once he had left.

"Yeah… yeah, I think that helped…" He nodded.

"Good."

"Where's Joey?" He asked noticing it was just the three of them.

"He's gone to look for Monica…" Phoebe told him.

Joey stood in the hospital, watching her. She was sat alone on the bench, her arms wrapped around herself, tears streaming down her face, not caring about the looks she was getting from passers by. Just the thought of the pain she must be going through, made Joey's heart ache. After 5 minutes, he walked towards her, sitting silently down next to her and pulling her into his arms, hoping it would bring her some sort of comfort but knowing he was not the person she wanted to be comforted by…

TBC

I know its short but hopefully good….please review!