Summery: Sonomi sends Tomoyo to her grandfather after one night changes everything for Tomoyo.

Disclaimer: I do NOT own CCS, CLAMP does, so don't sue! and don't steal my story!
Chapter.1

Title: Filled with darkness...

Story

Trees, bushes and stations whizzed by. She barely noticed them. Staring out the window of the train, she was only aware of the scar slashed across her heart. Laughter, chatter and music echoed against the wooden walls. But she barely acknowledged them. Her mind was filled with a haunting silence that blocked all the emotions she wanted to feel. She was suffocating…but nobody took notice. Nobody spared her a second glance. Everything was a blur to her. She wasn't filled in darkness…she was filled with darkness…

"Tomoyo-Chan!' cried an auburn haired girl with sparkling green eyes. Before Tomoyo could even blink, she felt herself being pulled in a rib-crunching hug, punching out all the air in her lungs.

"Oh my god I'm so glad you came Tomoyo-Chan! I cant believe this is actually happening!' She cried. Her eyes sparkling non-stop in excitement.

Tomoyo laughed as she felt her heart filled with pleasure. She was so happy for her best friend. She couldn't believe this was finally happening either!

Sakura, as always, looked fantastic in her latest design. A dark silk green sleeveless blouse that changed shade with movement reached just above her belly button. Followed by a forest green skirt that lightened up to lighter shade as it snaked down Sakura's waist flowing just above her ankles where a pair of strapped green sandals brought out the delicacy and softness of her feet.

A tiny golden buckle inscribed with a single cherry blossom clasped a thin green strap on her ankle the same shade as her dress. The heal was low enough for comfort but high enough to sophisticate the outfit. Transparent net shaded with forest green began at the end of the sandals to the buckle, proving it original and comfortable. A cotton net coat with collar of almost black green with gold carvings completed the outfit with a silk green belt, buckled up with the same gold design as the buckle in her shoes, attaching the blouse and skirt.

Tomoyo beamed in pride as she noticed a few women glancing at Sakura's outfit every now and then in envy. So Syaoran has replaced her as the perfect shoulder for Sakura to lean on, but he could never replace her gift for making Sakura the most beautiful of all.

Flashbacks of what had happened ran across her mind like a film. She felt her heart growing heavy. Lowering her lids down, she stared at her hands…She found it hard to breath…but nobody took notice.

"Tomoyo-Chan? I want you to meet Hiiragizawa-san, he's one of the head managers of Li estates." Sakura introduce cheerfully.

Sharp cerulean eyes pierced at Tomoyo coldly.

Tomoyo sweat dropped, 'was every guy in China cold-hearted?' Putting on a friendly smile, Tomoyo extended her hand, "Nice to meet you Hiiragizawa-san,"

A small smirk crept up his lips as he took Tomoyo's hand gently. "Nice to meet you too Daidouji-san…"

Tomoyo's eyes widened as she felt a cold shiver crept up her mind. A wave of deija-vu passing through her body as her skin made contact with his. A familiar yet far off feeling she had never experienced before, or thought she hadn't anyway. She was acutely aware of him turning back to answer Sakura, but she didn't hear what he was saying. All she was aware of was something…in his voice…no… his eyes…Cobalt turned back to stare into her amethyst. Hands still firmly clasped. They were so cold…she wanted to move away…look away…but…

She closed her eyes tightly as she felt another weave of cold steel pass through her heart. She felt sweat trickling down her brows and forehead. She found herself gasping slightly for air…she was suffocating…but nobody noticed. The carriage was filled with laughter and music. People drowned in their own joy of holiday cheer. She wrapped her arms around her trembling frame. Felt the scars underneath her blouse on her skin. A lump grew in her throat. Her eyes shook, brimmed with tears before she shut them tightly. Few strands of hair fell covering her face as she tightened her arms around her, feeling sharp pains shoot across her brain. She still felt hands roaming around her body…still felt his breath…her vision was blurry now…she wanted to cry…opening her eyes again she let a single tear trickle down. Biting back her lips, she tried to suppress her emotions from rising. Amid all the noise and merriment, she couldn't hear anything…except…her screams. Cries for help. Nobody had heard her…she was drowned out by the applause as Syaoran and Sakura exchanged their rings…she knew that Sakura's engagement day would be the most memorable one…but she didn't knew…god…she didn't knew…!

Tears flew down her eyes as a certain figure closed up upon her…covering her mouth with his, burying down her screams…entrapping her against the floor.

It was dark…but she wasn't surrounded by it…she was filled with it…he had filled it in her.