Title: Always
Author: Wereleopard
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Rating: PG
Email: PG
Genre: Crossover Angel/Buffy
Summary: All of Angel and Buffy. Big Nasty coming to LA and Buffy and the Scoobies come to help.

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Always

Chapter 8

Cordy gripped Buffy's hand tightly her knuckles were white with the pressure and she pulled the her outside and they both knew that if Buffy did not want to go there was nothing that the seer could have done to stop her with one yank of her arm Buffy could have thrown Cordy across the room or knocked her into a wall. She pulled her out into the garden and didn't stop once she kept on going once they reached the wall on the outside and were far away from the door as possible Cordy turned crossed her arms over and chest and raised an eyebrow at the slayer.

"What?" Buffy asked sullenly with a glare at the brunette.

"What the hell is going on with you?" She asked.

"I don't know what you mean."

Cordy shock her head and sighed. "Don't give me that bull you've been acting like a spoilt brat and I want to know why?"

"Why? You want to know why?" Buffy screamed at her. "This should have been my life. You stole my life." Sobbing as she shouted at Cordy.

"Buffy get over yourself already. This is not Sunnydale where we all worship at the alter of the slayer. The whole world does not revolve around you" Cordy was getting a little tired of the look at me I am the slayer please pity me routine.

"YOU STOLE IT." She screamed.

"What this life or Angel?" Cordy whispered but the quietness just for a moment was deafening and it took a little while for Buffy to actually speak.

"Both he should have been mine he was going to love me forever and then you came here and ruined it all. You changed him you took him from me? Why did you take him?" The slayer mumbled trying to keep the whine out of her voice but failing.

Cordy reached over and touched Buffy on the arm her heart went out to her the slayer had been through a lot but so had everyone in Sunnydale and in LA they had to get on with it but they had spent so much time trying to help and protect her that Buffy had gotten used to and no one realised what they were doing and it must have been hard for her when she died but she was back alive the petite blonde pulled away sharply and lost her balance falling heavily to the ground sniffling and not bothering to actually try and get up. Cordy knelt in front of her there was something off, something not right and no one knew or no one was talking about it. "What's really wrong Buffy this isn't about me, Angel or this life in LA but there is something bothering you and you can't keep it bottled up. I am here if you need to talk."

The Cordy stood turned away and started to walk back into the hotel to join the others when a quiet voice stopped her.

"They pulled me from heaven." She whispered.

Cordy's face paled as she turned to her once nemesis from school. "Oh Buffy." She whispered and rushed to the crying girl and pulled the slayer into her arms Buffy wrapped her arms around Cordy and help tightly as the tears started to fall, all the feelings of anger, hate and loneliness finally getting a release.

"I know they thought they were helping me, they thought I was in hell but there are times when I think they were doing it for themselves that they couldn't imagine their lives without me they didn't even want to try. It was so peaceful no fighting, no being the slayer, nothing weird going on I was at one with myself and now its gone and I feel like there is something missing, I came back but part of me an important part was left there and I feel out of touch out of place I find that I can't care about anything I am numb, empty that I am just a shell." She looked up and her eyes puffy from the tears.

"Buffy I am sure they thought that you needed saving and yes they couldn't imagine a life without their friend. When I heard I was upset we may have not got on but I never hated you, not really. The world needs you it needs all the heroes it can get. Maybe you were brought back for a reason I really don't know" She paused for a moment trying to gather her thoughts. "I am sure it is natural to feel out of place and numb after everything you have gone through. It is your bodies way of coping with everything but it will all come back and your be back to the kick ass slayer that we all know and hate." She said with a quick grin to let the other woman know she was only joking Cordy opened her mouth to say more when one sentence stopped her the world seemed to have shift and she was sure she misheard.

"I had sex with Spike." Buffy whispered.

Cordy pulled back to look into the other girls eyes her face full of disbelief. "Did I hear you correctly I wasn't hearing things was I" Hoping that she had been but her wishes were dashed once the blonde nodded. "So how'd that happen? I mean ok I know HOW uhh but why, when and what the hell were you thinking." Not really wanting to know the answer but knowing that Buffy needed to talk to someone about it and it looked like that person was her.