MAC POV:

It's been 3 days since I shoved Jordon into the lockers, when Martin and I found him squeezing Ruthie's arm. Martin and I decided to have a guy's night in and play card games with his father at his house. Martin's dad passed out the cards and none of us had money so we decided to bet on food. We all looked at each other with our eyes squinted then I began.

"Alright Brewer. Got any fives?"

"Go fish."

Martin's dad quit early because he was losing and Martin and I chatted a bit while we were playing.

MARTIN POV:

Dad left and I was winning all the food for a while I stopped thinking about Ruthie but Mac had to talk. Why can't for once he stop talking especially about Ruthie?

"Do you think Ruthie appreciated what I did for her?" I would love to say no but that would be a lie knowing Ruthie she was honored to have Mac beat up some dude for her, but I did not want to say yes."

"Mac get over her she is not your type." He looked at me and looked out the window.

"It's hard to. Martin, what if I told her?'

"NO!" why is he doing this to Ruthie why can't he like some other girl.

"Martin you know how obvious it is that you like her too." Wow he actually figured it out.

"No I don't."

"Martin." He gave me that look.

"I can tell you I liked her a lot but that would be a lie in fact I don't like her at all." Mac looked confused.

"I don't get it."

"I love her." Mac was stunned at first and then he nodded and smiled.

"Then go for it."

"No she does not feel that way ,she loves me as a brother." He just smiled.

"Look Martin I have to go." Mac left and left me with thoughts of, what ifs consuming my mind I decided to go for a drive that always calmed me down.

RUTHIE POV:

It was getting late but I wanted to stay where I was at the small little park that always made me relaxed. I looked around the dusky park and I remembered when my sister Mary brought happy and I here so she could meet a guy.

"Ruthie?" I herd that soothing male voice I turned around to see Martin.

"Hi." He had a look of worry on his face.

"What are you doing here?" he asked sitting next to me on the bench.

"I came to think."

"What about you." He smiled that kind of smile that makes my heart race.

"The same, I always come here when I need to talk to god I find it…"

"Relaxing." I cut him off I felt so happy that me and Martin had the same special place.

"Exactly." He said gazing in my eyes, as I got lost in his.

MARTIN POV:

I stopped at the park where I always seem to be when I'm distressed .As I got closer to the bench I saw Ruthie she as well looked distressed.

"Ruthie?" She turned around and she looked so beautiful in the moonlight but also she looked confused. I was worried.

"Hi."

"What are you doing here?" I looked in her beep brown eyes

"I came to think."

"What about you." I grinned it's so cool how we have the same thinking spot, how ironic.

"The same, I always come here when I need to talk to god I find it…" I got cut off.

"Relaxing." She read my mind.

"Exactly." Eye contact was heating up but I cut it off.

" So what are you thinking about?" Her smile faded and she stood up, she turned around and looked at the couples across the street some were kissing and some were holding hands.

"I feel that I'm cursed. Everywhere I go people are falling in love and I envy it boyfriends in my past were all dysfunction waiting to happen. I think the only boy I came close to falling in love was Peter, but he moved away. I wonder what it would be like to fall in love ,to be cared for and just have some one there. How does it feel?" I was kind of confused of what she was asking.

"How does what feel?" She looked down and whispered.

"Love."

RUTHIE POV:

"How does what feel?" I realized that he did once fall in love with Cecilia, and I looked down and said my reply.

"Love." I could hear him stand up and I felt his presence behind me. He turned me around and lifted up my chin with his hand and cupped it.

"It feels like this." He leaned and kissed me and it felt so good I only thought it was a crush I had on him but it turned out to be something more, it turned to love.

MARTIN POV:

I don't know why I did it but it felt so right .I walked up to her and answered her question.

"It feels like this." I turned her around to see the slow running tear dripping of her cheek.

I lifted up her chin, cupped it and slowly placed a kiss on her lips it was filled with all of my love. I felt the world fading and all of the pain went with it. The only thing I felt was her lips on mine, love, and happiness. It started to rain but I didn't care I lost myself into Ruthie and I never wanted to be found.