Sanity's Silhouette

By Chris

Hey I'm back again. Varsity football and school have been keeping me really busy, and since I'm sick I thought I'd finally write some. So here goes. Thanks to all reviewers btw, I really need some more.

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Chapter 8

Answers we'll never get

My heart felt sorrow like I had never felt before. My friends…loved me. Kairi…..King Mickey…what had he done to deserve this? Why had I killed him? Why did I have to?

Anititheus had left me to myself, feeling I needed some time to myself. He was right. I did. But I wasn't going to stay here.

I needed to see Kairi.

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Soft red hair, flaring in the wind. Deep blue eyes…oh yes…this was Kairi. I was home.

I took a few steps towards her, inching my way out of the darkness when she heard me coming. She quickly turned her head then began to retreat backwards in fear.

"Wait…" I let out, barely audible. "Please wait…" I whispered to her.

Hearing this, she seemed to relax and stopped backing up.

I took this as a good sign. I took a few more steps towards her until I was within arm's length of her. It didn't take long for her to start asking questions.

"What's happened to you? Why…" she began.

"Did I kill the king?" I finished for her.

"…" she seemed silenced by my words.

"Kairi…I'm not the Sora you once knew. You want to know who I am? What I am?"

"Yes…I think you owe me that much," she said softly, slightly afraid. I could sense her fear.

"This," I began, as I spread my wings, "This, is the product of my torture, this is what has happened to me. I had my humanity stripped from me Kairi. Darkness….so much darkness. I couldn't stop it, I couldn't…fight…" I explained.

She had stepped back in fear when I spread my wings, but now her eyes seemed to soften.

"Sora you can still come back."

At this I turned my back. I fought back my tears. I didn't want her to see how they've changed.

"Could I? Could everyone forgive me?" I asked, hoping deep in my heart. I wanted this. I wanted to know. I wanted to be forgiven.

"I believe so…it might take some time with the others, but I…" she drifted off.

"You what?" I asked, when she didn't finish, turning back to face her.

"Sora…I….I…" she began then looked into my eyes.

I heard the footsteps before he was even close. I could smell him.

Riku…

I saw the familiar flare of silver hair Those piercing aqua eyes. Yes. This was the Riku I knew. Except, he was carrying a sword.

"What's going on here!" he asked harshly once he had gotten to Kairi.

"Riku…" she started.

"Don't even start. Look at him! He's dangerous! He killed Mickey, and he could kill you! He's heartless now!" he screamed angrily. But I could sense what was really going on. He was afraid. Afraid for Kairi. He wouldn't know what to do if I killed her. Interesting.

"Riku," I turned to face him, "You know I would never…hurt Kairi," I stated firmly, hoping to lessen his fear.

"Why should I listen to you? You…demon!" he screamed, full of hate.

I turned away. I couldn't let them see me cry. I just couldn't. They wouldn't know what to think. My bloody tears…my crimson tears…

I felt a hand grab my shoulder.

I turned around, face to face with Shin. I couldn't imagine how he had come here without me noticing, but I didn't care at the time. His hood covered his face in darkness.

He brushed back his hood, his crimson eyes staring into mine. His pain and my pain.

"How?" I questioned.

"You think you're the only one he tried to bring across?" Shin smirked.

He reached towards my face, and wiped away my tears, my blood.

Then I watched as one small tear dropped from his eyes, streaking across his face, painting his face with blood.

"So I'm not the only one?"

"No. He did it to me too. He's the youngest of us, if you were wondering. Always striving to beat us. We made that kind of hard when you ended up keyblade master and I ended up Guardian of Light. But he turned me once, as he turned you, and I did terrible things. I killed….all those I loved. But that is over now, I came back. So can you."

His speech shocked me. I didn't know what to say. I looked past him at Kairi and Riku.

"But could they forgive me?"

"Could you forgive yourself?"

Damn. He was reaching into my thoughts. Not reading them, that was impossible. But he sensed my thoughts as they came through my mind, as if I had spoken them.

"Yes…" I began.

He spread his wings as I had. His were dark and angelic. As if they were feathers, made of darkness, contrasting my gleaming white wings.

"Kairi. Riku. Come here." He commanded, and they obeyed.

Riku walked faster, chest out, hand on his sword.

Kairi was slower, gazing at me in wonder as she did.

"Could you forgive him?" he asked.

"Yes…." Kairi said.

Riku stayed silent. I could feel his thoughts. He could, but he'd never admit to that. He's too stubborn for that.

I took a few steps towards him, moving to embrace him. My long lost friend.

He stepped towards me and we embraced like brothers. I felt my tears coming, but this time they could see.

I stepped back, blood streaming down my face.

"Thank you…"

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It was just me and Kairi now. Shin had taken Riku down to talk to the others. Me and Kairi were both sitting on the cliff that overlooks the sea, legs dangling.

It had gotten chilly so I had my winged wrapped around her, not exactly romantic, but then again, she was Riku's…

"Sora, what really happened?" she asked me.

I cringed. I knew it had been coming, and I would have to tell her.

"Well…" I began.

"You don't have to do this if you don't want to…" she told me softly, as I felt her slide her hand over mine. Friendly?

"No, I need to. I need to do this. And you deserve to know…" I told her softly closing my hand over hers.

"We were trying to find a way back. A way back here, back to…you." I started, and I could tell she was surprised when I said that. "We were in another world when it happened. We were walking through a field when darkness seemed to swallow the sky. The ground beneath us became covered in darkness. We couldn't see. And that's when they came." I tensed up, feeling my tears come, clinching my eyes shut.

She grasped my hand tighter, inching closer to me.

"They were everywhere. There had been too many. I couldn't beat them. I couldn't save Donald and Goofy. They fell right before my eyes. I was beaten severely, I was injured. But I fought on, fighting to save myself. I had to keep my promise."

Her eyes went wide. She thought I had forgotten.

"I was forced onto my knees, and that is when he came out of the darkness. His hooded robe, lined with silver…Anititheus. He took me into the darkness with him. He tortured me. He…he…he showed me things that pained me so greatly, I had no more resolve to live. I wanted death. I welcomed it."

"What were these things?" she asked.

I knew I shouldn't tell her. But I was too far over the edge to stop. My bloody tears flowed freely down my face.

"He..he repeated Goofy and Donald's death in my mind. He showed me you…and Riku…" I started, and at this she gasped, knowing what I'd seen. I wept, my head lowered.

She moved closer and grabbed my other hand.

"Keep going."

"He beat me. And beat me. Again and again. Each night it would heal, and he would beat me again. Then he released me. You remember that of course. But after I knew that I couldn't escape him, I went back. Then…he turned me into this. He forced pain…rage…hatred into my heart. He manipulated my mind…" I began to shake. She held on tighter.

"I couldn't help it. I COULDN'T SAVE MYSELF!" I cried into the night.

I heard thunder, and then a few drops of rain, before the downpour started.

"Sora that's enough for now…" she began, knowing how much pain I was in.

"No…I need to finish this. I followed him. I didn't know where else to turn. You had Riku, and Riku had you. Goofy and Donald were dead. I had nothing. That's when he sent me to another world, intent on taking it over." I said without emotion.

"What happened?"

"A man called the police. And I..I…" I started shaking again, "I killed them Kairi, every one of them. And then I destroyed the world. Single handedly. I killed so many…so so many…"

"Oh Sora…" she embraced me tightly, her head on my chest, the rain soaking us. My hair was matted and dripping, my tears now a mix of blood and water, her hair clinging to her face. Her beautiful red hair, her deep blue eyes, and her angelic skin…Kairi….

"That's when he brought me to Mickey…and I …you saw me…"

"Yes…"

I stopped. There wasn't much else to tell. I pulled her close, and kissed the top of her head.

She tensed up, obviously surprised, but didn't pull back.

She looked up at me, her eyes staring into mine. I could sense something within her unexpected.

"Sora…you still had me...," she started, "God you still have me!" she yelled over the thunder, her face coming up and kissing me.

I couldn't believe it, I didn't know what else to do but kiss back. I kissed her and kissed her, cradling her in my muscular arms, my wings surrounding us, shielding us from the rain.

"Kairi…I," I began.

"I know Sora, oh God I know." She said and kissed me again, her hand on my cheek.

I love you.

I love you too Sora.

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My eyes filled with tears. I knew it was going to happen. She had always cared for him. She had always truly loved him.

I stared at them, wrapped in his wings, and I knew. She was his, he was hers. It was meant to be.

I would just have to accept that.

But for now…

It hurts so bad.

I felt a hand on my shoulder. It was Shin, he smiled weakly at me.

I tried to smile back, but gave into my tears.

He pulled me into an embrace.

And I cried….

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"And so the fool thinks he's free?"

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And so ends this chapter of Sanity. I know it's been forever, and forgive me. It's been a rough year, and I hope this makes up for it 3. Read and review, or email me or IM me about anything you'd like, is my email and crimsontears1988 is my aim, hope to see some reviews!

3 Chris