Times Are Changing.

Chapter 5

Dreams

The Doctor lay on his bed moving from side to side trying to get comfortable but he just couldn't, he picked up his pillow and punched it a little aggressively and slammed it back onto his bed and his head landing on it. Sighing deeply he stared up at the ceiling and all he could see was blackness. This is how the world felt without Rose in his life but what could he offer her, well yeah he could take her anywhere in the galaxy and anytime but what could he offer her as a man, he thoughts paused, he wasn't even human. That was a good start. Oh god what was he doing? He didn't deserve Rose, he was so thankful for her friendship he didn't want to make her uncomfortable by confessing his feelings and forcing her to leave. His mind was made up he was not going to tell her anything and they would continue on as normal, and one day she would meet someone who was right for her, the Doctors hearts dropped and that would be the day that he wished he'd died with the rest of his people. Breathing in and out slowly and deeply, relaxing his mind and trying to switch everything off and slowly he started to fall asleep and deep inside he could hear his hearts telling him that he was a fool not to tell Rose, and his head argued it was better to have her here as a friend, that was better than nothing and as the waking world disappeared around him he could hear his heart laughing at him and telling him he was a fool.

Rose sat in the control room for a little while longer her gaze had not left the spot that the Doctor had vanished through. "What the hell was all that about?" She mumbled. Something was seriously wrong with him and not in the usual way. Finally she got to her feet and headed back to her own room and crawled into bed. Her life had suddenly become like a soap opera, well and alien soap opera if they had one. She was in love with the Doctor and could not imagine her life without him, the Doctor had no romantic feelings for her and maybe she had given something away and that is why he was acting so weird and then there was Adam who she didn't know and at the moment didn't want to and he had romantic feelings for her and she thought going with the Doctor would have been the oddest thing that happened to her. Closing her eyes all she could see was an older man with sparkling eyes and a smile that could light up the world. A face that she wishes she could wake up to every morning, in the sense of waking up together in bed. Her and the Doctor in bed together. She wondered how he would be, How would he touch her? Would it be soft and gentle, would he? Her eyes popped open. "I wonder how much experience he'd had" A grin crossed her face. Were they even compatible? Not that it would matter she loved him for the man he was, but their were a few questions she wanted to ask and she could not wait to see his face when she did. He knew everything about her species but she knew next to nothing about him and his kind. She knew that his people died in the Time War against the Daleks and that he was 900 years old. That was not a lot of information they had to be some more things did he have friends, family? Her mind filled with thousands of questions that she wanted him to answer. Turning over she turned on a light grabbed a pencil and paper and started to write down all the questions that popped into her head. Once she had written them down she stared at her own hand, his hands were soft when they held hers, she wondered if they were soft in everything they did. Her head flopping back she groaned. "Oh god I am going sex mad." Closing her eyes she breathed slowly and deeply and so clearly she could see the doctor leaning towards her the were so close she could feel his breath on her face, she leaned forward wanting to close the distance she moaned in anticipation.

"Rose" a voice called out.

"Go away Adam. It's late and I'm tired." Why now? Her head screamed out.

"I just thought maybe we could." his words trailed off.

"Goodnight Adam." She said with finality.

"Sorry if I disturbed you Rose. We'll talk when you get up?" Adam said with a little boy tone.

"Yep, sure, whatever?" Rose replied absently her mind was already heading back to where she wanted to be, she settled against her cushions and let her mind wander.

TBC