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"Rory let's leave, so we can watch enough movies before we both fall asleep here" Lorelei said hopefully, she'd been trying to make up a reason for them to leave for the last half an hour and nothing seemed reasonable enough.
"No! I'm still hungry and besides wouldn't you rather spend some time here annoying Luke and just watching the starts hollow life?" Rory said dramatically.
"You've been away for to long! You want to sit and watch people! Wouldn't you rather watch Antonio Banderas or something!"
"I can watch Antonio Banderas at Yale too!"
"But not with you're awesomely cool mom!"
"I'm staying here!"
"Since when are you so stubborn!"
"College life is tough, only the strong live" Rory said mystically.
"Fine"
"I totally beat you! I have never seen you back out before!"
"you don't deserve your mommy's special care! Stay here and suffer the consequences!"
"mom are you ok?"
"Oh no" said a familiar voice from behind, a voice Rory had longed to hear all summer, a voice that belonged to a person she thought hated her, a person that forgot all about her.
A person she once loved.
Rory turned around to see the face she had been dreaming about every night since he left.
"hi Rory"
No answer.
"Rory?" Jess said again.
"Mom you're right we need to leave" rory said, ignoring Jess' presence.
"Right hon, start walking and I'll pay and I'll catch up with you"
"Thanks" Rory said and left the diner.
The first thing he saw as soon as he walked into the diner was, in fact, the first thing he looked for, Rory. As soon as he saw her all his old feelings came back to him, he felt his heart burst inside him.
"Oh no" was the first thing he said, and he immediately regretted it, it sounded like he didn't want to see her! A very bad start.
"hi Rory" he said lamely
"Rory?" he said again. Imagining how much he must have hurt her, leaving her like that.
And she just left, with out even saying anything, but what should he expect after what he'd done!
He ran after her.
"Rory, wait please!" He yelled.
No answer.
"Rory" he said stepping in front of her.
"What!" she said, she was going to cry, but she couldn't, she didn't care about him.
"please don't be mad"
"You left"
"I know"
"And I'm mad"
"I noticed"
"deal with it"
"I'm doing my best"
"no you're not" Rory said angrily, tears sliding down her cheeks. "you never did your best! You never did anything for that matter!"
"I couldn't!"
"if you cared about me you would have at least have done your best, at least tried! I left Dean for you!"
Rory was crying freely now, Jess just wanted to kiss her, make her forget about everything, he wanted to make it up to her.
"Please just leave me alone! I know you had problems, but you should have told me about them! So now just LEAVE ME ALONE!"
"Fine, Sorry, I'm going" Jess said sadly. Turned, and walked away.
"Rory, can we please talk? I really want to help you" Lorelai said. She was standing next to Rory's room, the door was closed and Rory was inside, crying.
"Rory please!" Lorelai pleaded.
The door opened by a very red eyed Rory.
"I feel terrible I should have warned you" Lorelei said, walking towards the bed an sitting down.
"No, It's my problem, I'm fine"
"No you aren't" Lorelai said motioning for Rory to sit next to her on the bed.
"No, I'm not"
"Looks like we have another wallowing session coming up" Lorelei said.
"Right"
"this is so good" Lorelai said. They were sitting on the coach watching 'Imagining Argentina' and eating ice cream.
"I have to say, Antonio Banderas does make you forget about your problems"
"yeah, but then new problems come up like 'I just know that if he will see my picture he will totally fall in love with me' and then I get depressed because I can't think of a normal way of sending him my picture without looking like a total stalker"
"you are a stalker" Rory said laughing.
"Yes… but he doesn't need to know that"
"right"
Rory was lying in bed, after a long sad night of watching movies with Lorelei, fun but exhausting. She was thinking about what happened that night, after thinking about Antonio Banderas for the whole evening, her thoughts wandered back to Jess. How long was he staying?
Then she heard a knock on the door.
"Rory?" she heard her mom say.
"come in" she replied.
"you still love him?"
"yeah"
"good night" Lorelai said, and left the room.
Now that Rory had said it out loud she realized she was ion a problem, if Jess wanted her back, she would forgive him easily because of her feelings, but he didn't deserve to be forgiven so early.
Then she heard a knock on the window, she was in her PJ's but at least she decided to sleep with her bra tonight.
"Yeah?" she said to the dark figure at the window.
"It's me" said the same familiar but threatening voice she had heard only four hours ago on the way back from the diner.
"Hi" Rory said angrily.
"Please, I need to talk to you"
"Fine"
"can I came in"
"fine"
Jess climbed through the window, trying not to make too much noise and wake up Lorelai, which was the last thing he needed.
"sit" Rory instructed him.
"OK….."
Pause
"I sorry" Jess said.
"got that before"
"I had to leave"
"I can imagine"
"no you can't! you have no idea how it is to live with a mom who doesn't give a damn about you! Your mom is your best friend! Everyone in this town loves you and you're their little girl"
"so you want someone to love you"
"is that what I said?"
"sounds like it"
"I don't need anyone's favors, you were the only one who accepted me and found my bright side, you're the best person in the world, and I screwed it up!"
"Yes you did"
"isn't there I way I can fix that?"
"Jess, you're always going to be the same you, you can't change, and I don't expect you to change for me"
"I will, I want to"
"Jess this isn't a soap opera, you can't become a different person! You were the one who left! You screwed this up! I can't just forget!"
"I know"
"I know you feel like no one loves you, but I did! I loved you and you knew it!"
"I didn't know"
"Yes you did"
"You never said so"
"because I didn't think you loved me and I didn't want to screw it up! I did everything I could so our relationship wouldn't turn out bad"
"I know"
"Fine"
"OK"
"Jess you can't just come in and barge into my life and expect everything to be back to normal, you made a huge mistake! Fix it"
"I will"
"Fine"
Pause
"Thank you" Jess said suddenly
"For what?"
"For not being as mad as I would have been"
Rory smiles.
Jess leaves.
"I can't believe you're leaving!" Lorelai whined as they stood next to Rory's car.
"Mom, you can come see my any time you want I'm ten minutes away"
Rory said, hugging her mom.
"fine, go make mommy proud in your big snotty school!"
"bye mom"
"bye sweets"
When Rory arrived at her dorm she found a rose by the door and a note.
'hey Rory, I'm assuming you're back, so come see me as soon as you can. Love, Tristan'
Rory smiled, she was in the mood for Tristan he will make her feel better after all the Jess crap.
Knock knock
"Hey Babe" Tristan said when he opened the door.
"Hi" Rory said, blushing.
"Come in" he said.
Rory walked inside, she went to the living room and sat on the couch.
"Anything to drink?"
"Coffee" Rory said, grinning
"Coming' right up"
"so how's everything going?" Tristan asked after he made their coffee.
"well, I had a great time back home, Jess cam back, and that was kind of hard but-"
"WAIT! Who's Jess?"
"oh, he's my ex, we dated and the he left for no apparent reason and I haven't heard from him since"
"oh"
"yeah"
"so you were saying"
"oh, so I had a tough time with that"
"did he want to get back together?"
"yup"
"what did you say?" Tristan said, looking kind of worried.
"No"
"oh" he said, relieved.
"he didn't take it well"
"that's not good"
"I can deal with it"
"I'm sure you can…."
Pause
"so? Want to for out for lunch?" Tristan said, breaking the silence
"sure"