Hi everyone! I sincerely apologize for not updating yesterday; fanfic net wasn't letting me login at all! I was very upset, and I hope you forgive me! Anyway, this poem is about Seto and his thoughts late one night. Read on!

Disclaimer: I don't own YuGiOh, but I own Seto's soul! Mwahahahahaha!

Laying on this bed, thinking about things I'd never ever dare say out loud.

I wonder, Mother, Father, if in doing everything I did, I made you proud.

You are up there somewhere watching me as I make my choices and decisions.

But have I pleased you with my conclusions and my dreams; impossible visions?

I know you were most likely smiling proudly when I opened Kaiba Land.

For the kids with painful lives to play in, but people would never understand.

I opened it to make them forget for a few hours their unhappy lives.

Some there are actually happy, some are not, but the pain in me still survives.

I don't think you were proud of me when I was consumed by power and greed.

While trapped in that cold industry, I never though to take serious heed.

Where I was headed, it was wrong; I even hurt Mokuba that one day.

My arrogance that I've always had, it swelled, and my pride couldn't sway.

You never were happy that I took control of Kaiba Corp, of that I'm sure.

Because I know you judge me; you judged me even when I was at death's door.

When I was in a coma, did you care? I would like to think so desperately.

But I woke up after a few weeks, and my attitude; though better wasn't stately.

How I strutted around like I owned the world; even though Yugi had beaten me.

At the edge of Pegasus's castle you were screaming like the child inside.

For me to get down off that ledge that I, if I had fallen down, would on it have died.

Were you pleased though when I won; even though I said those scathing words?

Even though all my life there's been no one to talk to except Mokuba and the birds.

I was defeated by Pegasus; it felt so terrible, I'd lost my brother to that lunatic.

To be kept in his castle with no soul inside; the very thought has made me sick.

Did you watch over me or Mokuba? Which one did you care more about?

"MOKUBA!" my inner voice screams, to get these suppressed feelings out.

But mother never knew Mokuba; she died just to give birth to him then.

And her sacrifice reminds me of the bitter, sad and absolutely petrifying time when

We stood at her coffin, father and I, and I was only five years old.

Baby Mokuba wrapped up in a bundle, protected from the graveyard's cold.

I don't know where she's buried, just as I have forgotten her name.

But one thing I have always known is after that it was never to be the same.

Father seemed empty, lost inside his thoughts and I grew infinitely colder.

However, Mokuba was a happy kid, even as he gradually grew older.

He never had been affected by the death of my loving and beautiful mother.

I assume she was beautiful; sadly I forget, but I think she had raven hair like my brother.

Are you proud of me mother, and of that time when I showed compassion?

And helped Yugi ad his friends, even though it wasn't really that much passion.

To show the one whom if it wasn't for him I would still be cruel and devoid

Of any emotion, or any emotion that I could possibly try to avoid.

I came third in Battle City; I hated myself for it, but maybe you were proud of

Me on that day, when I was put in my place, is it then you show more love?

Were you proud when I was a chosen one to wield that dragon, the legend?

The one promised to me, to lead me to victory, or was that all perfect pretend?

And are you proud now I am in a contest of the egos to impress everyone

With this boy I used to know, and I am trying so hard so that once we're done.

I will have been the one that at the end of it all will have excelled and won.

Proud, pride, what are these words? The thing I want to know most of all is

Do you like that I have turned out so cold, and arrogant, as well an egotist?

I don't blame you if not; I wouldn't like me either if I watched from the sky.

I think the times you are proudest of me are the times I dare to cry.

Well, this is set after the whole dragon thing, more into the KC Grand Prix season, that hasn't yet been translated. I went to the YuGiOh site just today, and they already have stuff about YuGiOh GX there. You know; the new series. (Bursts into tears) HOW DARE THEY! HOW DARE THEY MAKE A NEW SERIES OF YUGIOH! There isn't a Joey, a Yami Yugi, there's no Seto, Bakura, Mokuba Yugi is in it for a few seconds, and there's no Marik, no nothing! Heck, I'm even upset about there being no Tea or Tristan! I was so hurt when they decided to have a new series in Japan, and I hoped it wouldn't be translated and be a show brought to America or Australia, but my hopes were futile; they've already finished the opening theme, and it is on the website right now! (Sues the website for damage to the reputation of YuGiOh) STUPID GX! Thanks:

ttSerenity –I am very glad you like plushies; so do I! I was looking at a site for YuGiOh plushies just the other day, and it was so adorable! Glad to hear my poem was good, and I think this poem is much better! I will always keep dreaming, as long as I have my fics, my reviews, my angst and above all my imagination! Thanks for reviewing, Galileo.

Stormrose Dewleaf –It's alright, you can miss poems and chapters! I am very glad you liked it though! Um, this is for Aurora, please don't include me in your reviews to CF101, I know you were mad about what I said, but can we just forget it okay? And it is CF101's fic; she can pair Yami Marik off with whoever she wants. I wasn't saying Maiana could have him; I was trying to be neutral. Thanks for reviewing.

Samuraiduck27 –I am glad it was great! So you have that problem with fanfic net as well! How annoying is it! And when I was trying to login last night it wouldn't let me so I couldn't update and I was furious! That is a whole day lost! Oh well, I will catch up. I hope this chapter was good enough, despite the lateness of it. Thanks for reviewing, you rock!

Chiinaru –Was it really a good job in portraying Seto? I'm not so sure about it myself. I think that Seto might actually think thoughts like this while he lies in bed, do you think? It is so awesome to know you are going to be a loyal reviewer of this! Thanks for reviewing!

Mariku-san –Thanks so much for your compliments! It is just amazing to know you are proud to have me on your fave author and stories list! I will definitely keep it up! Sorry about the late update. Thanks for reviewing, you rock!

Love Sami.