Chapter 14- Too
"My boyfriend was admitted here about ten minutes ago. I need to know his room number! Right now!" yelled Serena as she ran into the hospital.
"His name is Jason Morgan. I'm his sister" said Emily, trying to keep calm as Serena freaked.
Kemen wasn't very specific on his current condition on the phone. All he told her was that Jason had been shot multiple times, and he had managed to get him out and to the hospital.
"Look ladies, Mr. Morgan is in surgery right now. If you take a seat-" said the nurse as she popped her gum
"Don't 'if you take a seat' me lady. I want you to tell me exactly where he is right now or I will rip that gum out of your mouth and strangle you to death with it!" yelled Serena
"Shh, calm" said Emily, trying to pull Serena back from the nurse.
Luckily, Carly ran up at that point and pulled Serena into a big hug.
"Where is he?" she asked, looking so sad.
"This way" said Carly as she pulled Emily and Serena along with her, all three ignoring the nurses' protests.
They arrived in a waiting room where Sonny and Kemen were sitting, waiting for news. Serena cringed when she saw Kemen's blood stained clothes. That was Jason's blood. She unwillingly shivered, and Emily wrapped her arms around her.
"How is he?" asked Serena to Sonny and Kemen
Sonny sighed. "We're not sure yet. Monica took him into surgery. Hopefully she'll be out soon with news"
"How many times was he shot?" she asked
"5 times. Three times in the chest, once in the arm, and once in the side" said Kemen, looking down.
"Oh god!" said Serena, running her hands through her hair and trying not to pass out.
"Come on, sit down" said Emily, ushering her to a chair.
It was an hour later and there was still no news on Jason. Kemen had gone off to take care of keeping the police off the case. Nikolas had arrived to give Emily emotional support, and the two were holding each other tightly. Sonny and Carly were doing the same. And here she was- alone. She had Jason's leather jacket in her hands. Some nurse had brought it out to her, yet she had no news on him. So now, everyone else was holding their lovers, yet hers was lying there dying. Or possibly dead. She shed more tears as she wrapped Jason's jacket tightly to herself. It had some dried blood on it, and she knew that once she got home, and he was ok, she would be able to clean it for him. And he would be ok. He just had to be. She didn't know what she would do without him.
"It's ironic, isn't it?" she asked Emily
"What do you mean?" Em asked her
"We were just talking about losing Jason, and here we are, losing Jason"
"We are not losing Jason" said Carly as she kneeled down in front of Serena, her determined eyes brimming with tears. "Jason is strong. He will pull through"
"Tell me Carly? How does one pull through 5 bullet wounds?" asked Serena cynically.
"He will" said Emily, just as determined as Carly. "We just all need to think positively"
"Positively!" scoffed Serena. "How do you expect me to think positively! If he dies, you all lose a friend, or a brother. I lose my soul mate! I lose everything. So go back to the arms of your lovers, because my lover's in there, fighting for his life!" she yelled, motioning to the operating room.
Unable to take it anymore, she stormed off, Jason's jacket in her arms. She didn't know where she was going, but she was going. She found herself on the roof of the hospital. She sighed and looked up at the stars. The stars always had a way of making her feel insignificant. The only one who was ever able to take that insignificance away was Jason. What was she going to do without him? She had given up her stability for him. She had left her husband, and her family. She had given up everything she ever knew. But it was worth it. He was worth it. Yet now she had nothing. She sighed and sat down, leaning on the wall of the ledge. She was too everything. Too tired. Too cried out. Too upset. Too worried. It wasn't good to have so many 'too's". She closed her eyes for a second, hoping to make the pain go away. She was startled out of her darkness by Carly's voice. She opened her eyes and she saw Carly's mouth start to move. The tears were streaming down her face. The only thing Serena was able to understand was "dead". That was it. Jason was dead.
It was too much. Another too. Serena was done crying. She couldn't take it anymore. She calmly got up, and started walking toward Carly. That one word kept repeating in her head. "Dead". It was a terrible word. Serena couldn't do it. She couldn't handle it. She felt the blood rush to her head. Her ear started buzzing, and everything kind of went fuzzy. Like she was watching an old broken TV set. She lost the feeling in her fingers, and then let darkness take her. She was fighting too much. She gave up, and passed out.
It had been two days since he had died. Carly was arranging the funeral- Serena just didn't have the heart to. She didn't have the heart to do anything. She sat in the penthouse, in his clothes, cuddled up with his pillow, just breathing in his scent. She knew eventually it would be gone. Eventually, that would be it. The whole place would start to smell like her, and only her. She desperately didn't want that. How had he died? He had dealt with so much, made it back from the brink of death so many times, yet here he was, completely gone. Had she really clouded his head that much? She sighed as she heard a knock on the door. Kemen came in, and told her that it was time. She had to get ready for the funeral.
"This is so dumb" she said
"What is mi subio?" asked Kemen as he held her in his arms
"A funeral. What is it? Just a time when we stick a corpse in a box and bury them so that they can rot away. But Jason's barely a corpse, right? Because 5 extra holes in a person's body really screws them up. No matter how many stitches"
"Don't you want him to rest in peace?" asked Kemen
"No, I don't. I want him to be miserable, knowing that he left me here" she said getting up off the couch. "He is so selfish!" she cried. "How could he do this to me! How could he just leave? How?" she yelled. She finally cried for the first time since the roof of the hospital. It was the first time she cried after finding out he was dead. "I am so angry Kemen" she said as she broke down on to the floor. Kemen jumped off the couch and hugged her close.
"I know, I know" said Kemen as he planted a kiss on her forehead. "But you need to say goodbye. You need to make your peace with this"
"Kemen, I can't. And I don't want to. I'm not going" she said
"To the funeral?" asked Kemen
"To the funeral" said Serena, furiously wiping away her tears as she abruptly stopped crying.
"Serena, come on. You're going to regret not going"
"No, I won't" she said. "Kemen, I am seriously not going to do this. I will not stand there and watch people who hate Jason pity me. Or people who love Jason pity me. I don't want anyone's pity"
"Serena-"
"Kemen. No." she said as she maneuvered her way out of his grasp and stalked upstairs.
She lied down in the bed and tried to breathe deeply, wishing so much for Jason to be there and hold her in his arms.
"She's not going" said Kemen as he walked into the Corinthos penthouse.
"What do you mean she's not going?" asked Sonny
"She refuses to go. She's angry at him for leaving her, plus, she doesn't want anyone's pity"
"I don't blame her" said Carly softly. She hadn't been the same since Jason's death.
"We should go" said Sonny as he wrapped his arms around his wife. Carly picked up Morgan, and Sonny was about to call up to Michael when he noticed the little boy was already sitting on the stairs.
"If Aunt Serena's not going, I'm not going" said Michael
"Michael, don't you want to say goodbye to your Uncle"
"No! He promised he'd be there for me, and he's not. He lied to me, just like he did to Aunt Serena. I'm not going. I'll stay here with Leticia" he said.
"Alright" said Sonny, not having the heart to argue, although he knew both Serena and Michael would later regret not going.
Serena didn't know what to do with herself. She was just thinking about the happier times when she was disturbed by the patter of little feet.
"Aunt Serena!" cried Michael as he jumped onto the bed.
"What's wrong kiddo?" asked Serena.
"I couldn't go to the funeral either" he said as he looked into his aunt's eyes.
"Oh" she said, trying hard to give the little boy a smile, but finding it impossible
"Uncle Jason took care of me for the first year of my life. And he took care of me after that too. While Mom and Dad worked out their problems, Uncle Jason was always there. And now he's gone. And I never got a chance to say goodbye"
"I know the feeling" said Serena "I wish I got to tell him I loved him one last time, or kiss him one last time"
"We need closure" said Michael looking up at her.
"You're too smart for your own good, you know that?" said Serena
"Yeah" said Michael, earning him a smile from Serena, despite the tears that were running down her face.
"What do you say you and me go and get our closure" said Serena helping him up.
"Michael! There you are!" cried Leticia running into the room. "Don't scare me like that again" she scolded.
"Sorry" mumbled Michael
"Leticia? Can you help Michael get dressed? And hurry, we have a funeral to get to" said Serena
15 minutes later, the doors of the church were flung open. Serena and Michael stormed in, and Sonny smiled at them.
"We couldn't sit back without saying goodbye" whispered Serena to Sonny as she and Michael sat down in the front pew with their family.
The funeral was beautiful for lack of a better word. Emily and Sonny spoke, and they both said it perfectly. Serena couldn't keep her eyes off the picture of Jason that was up in the front of the church. He was smiling, something he rarely did. Unless of course he was with her. She was ready to give up. She closed her eyes and just let herself sob onto Emily's shoulder as they listened to the priest talk. She squeezed her eyes shut, trying to make the whole horrible ordeal go away.
"Serena. Serena come on. Serena…" said Emily
Serena opened her eyes and looked at Emily. And her face said everything. Serena couldn't believe it. Standing in front of her was Emily. But…
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