Okay , well then , yeah iam back, and here yet another Chappie. Well just warning some of you , Spike is kinda OCC in this but. I think I one point in everyone's life you have a breakdown. So if you don't like it you were warned.

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"We Might As Well Be Strangers"

Faye attempted to sleep , but with no avail. In the tense darkness of her room , Faye lay curled up in several woven blankets thinking . Now that she knew , there was no way she could simply turn away from Spike ,. It wasn't possible. She couldn't stop thinking about Spike , how fragile he truly was.

I don't know your face no more
Or feel your touch that I adore
I don't know your face no more

Yes there was no other man like spike. No man that could even tried to compare , but what she had seen tonight , she had seen Spike fragile. Yet like the man Spike was and always will be , he tried to hide it from Faye. Calling her a cow and picking a fight. It didn't mater though Faye knew her eyes never lied to never her

It's just a place I'm looking for
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well

In a way she wanted to curse Spike for being weak. That was her role. She would whine and nag and then Spike would curse her out and then life was continue back on it's normal track , but no not now

I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart

Truth be told it scared her shitless that there was chance it was now it was Spike who was weak , Spike who needed Saving. All thanks to the bicth who did this number on him , Julia.

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a another time
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well be strangers
Be strangers
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know

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with spike

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Do What You Have To Do

What ravages of spirit

conjured this temptuous rage

created you a monster

broken by the rules of love

and fate has lead you through it

you do what you have to do

and fate has led you through it

you do what you have to do ...

In a exhausted rage , Spike threw his clothes across the room in a hurricane of fury. He had let Faye , know now there were attachments , complications. His body ache with pain , but Spike did not yield as he punched the metal walls of his room , slitting his knuckles with deep painful gashes. His body strained as Spike threw papers from random books around the room, frustrated that they did not fly farther and then threw them again.

and I have the sense to recognize that

I don't know how to let you go

every moment marked

with apparitions of your soul

I'm ever swiftly moving

trying to escape this desire

the yearning to be near you

I do what I have to do

the yearning to be near you

I do what I have to do

but I have the sense to recognize

Spike's heart heaved inside his chest , how badly he wanted someone , hell anyone, to know how bad was hurting inside. Spike snaked down to the cold floor on the verge of tears. He was tired of being strong , for once , he wanted someone to rescued him , to save him from the big bad. But deep inside he knew , what he wanted rarely ever happened.

He wasn't okay .

He had show weakness .

And Julia wasn't here with him.

The room around Spike mirrored his soul. A mess of whole things now broken, a dark hole with no light , everything once frailly held in order now destroyed by chaos . Sheets of the bed torn and bloody like Spike's tanned skin. Scattered bottles broken in a million different glass shards like Spike's heart. Everything was mess.

that I don't know how

to let you go

I don't know how

to let you go

All Spike wanted was just for one moment someone too allowed him to be weak. '

Just once. Just this one time to be weak .

Spike clutched his head as he collapsed onto the bed , restraining tears , knowing he did to deserve to cry. Spike knew what he was doing to himself , he was killing himself to the slowest most painful way. Spike thought about just dragging to the blood stained blade across his throat and get it over with .

a glowing ember

burning hot

burning slow

deep within I'm shaken by the violence

of existing for only you

But yet again Faye flooded into his mind. Her soften image , the flowing black hair and those electrical green eyes boring into his.

"Damn you Faye , why do you kept haunting me just like her."

Then Julia's image overrode Faye's. And all the memories of Julia pouring into his mind's eye.

Their two body as one rolling passionately between thin sweat glazed sheets. The way she would smile at him , when he was do something so very stupid and simple like stub his toe and nick himself shaving. Everything about her clouded his mind, covering his pain for a moment , like the hiatus in a hurricane before it rages on. Spike could almost hear her voice calling him , to the afterlife where they could be together.

" Okay Julia , I am coming."

I know I can't be with you

I do what I have to do

I know I can't be with you

I do what I have to do

and I have sense to recognize but

I don't know how to let you go

I don't know how to let you go

I don't know how to let you go

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Okay that was it. Hope you enjoyed and drop a review. I'll may take this chapter out for revising . Anyway. HAPPY SPRING BREAK! TWO WHOLE WEEKS OF FREEDOM!1