When it All Falls Down Chapter 11: In That Far Off Place, a cowboy bebop fanfic

Okay sexy people

This chapter is mostly about what happen to Spike while Miss Faye was having her little 'shower epiphany

IT RUNNS A PARRELL TO THE LAST CHAPTER ! ONLY LIKE THE LAST FRILLING LINE IS NOT A PARRELL IT'S THE PONIT WHERE FAYE AND SPIKE'S TIMELINES MEET AND RUN AS ONE ! GET IT ?

GOOOD!

NOW READ AND ENJOY.

The song it about Spike's emotional place in the story. I changed like 1 word from confused to who's doomed

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"Breaking The Habit"

Chorus:
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

Spike's breathing was a disaster. He was wheezing and coughing with every swing his arms took. Chaining Smoking had finally caught up with him , he thought raggedly as he slugged the metal wall over his bed again for the 8th time. Blood leaked from Spike knuckles and trickled down to mix with the blood from his shattered nail beds. Spike was just beginning to put the finishing touches on what used to be like temple , the body that he had slaved over for hours , training his muscles in perfection.

All to now destroy

Bridge:
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one who's doomed

The room was rank with whiskey and blood , but over all scents the stench of death. It hung in the staled air like a vulture waiting for a dying animal to finally give out.

But Spike didn't want to give out.

He wanted death to beat the last strands of life out of him. Spike wanted death to come to him with it's fangs and claws bared poised to slaughter him into shreds.

" I am coming Julia. "

Spike whispered in the air , as thought Julia would reply when his only company was death.

Hanging in the air

Watching from Above

Death was Spike's only companion.

'One last time' he murmured as he pulled out his straight Razor from under the surrounding debris. Spike staggered drunkenly to his feet to place he in the middle of the room , taking in what used to be a home for the very last .

The razor was dulled and rusty looking , tainted heavily with Spike's blood. As it finally cut into Spike's skin deeper than ever.

Chorus:
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

" Oh God…"

Spike faintly heard the hiss of his own voice through a new heavy cloudiness that was invading his thoughts. Spike barely noticed he was dragging the razor up the length of his forearms slashing through beaten flesh and letting loose a fountain of blood. Spike barely noticed how he repeated the routine on his other arms . Spike barely recognized the feeling of his body crumbling underneath him and slapping against the floor.

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

Breaths where now coming in shallow rapid pools for Spike. Air was coming in and leaving his body so far it left Spike dizzy and begging for more. His body was protesting against him. Forsaking the fog and stillness that death offered now so opening , his body was ushering in air commanding his every muscle to fight.

Bridge:
I dont want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one who's doomed

Spike had to stop this rebellion , his body was being ravaged with a pain so furious Spike knew it had to be Death finally come to release him of life. But Spike managed to clutch the razor , nonetheless . With one whole hearted effort Spike slashed . The blow hit his right wrist .

Chorus:
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

The world went Black for a instant. Spike gasped and arched his back to it's fullest. Pain shattered every border Spike had every placed in his entire mind. His breathing slowed almost to a halt and Spike's body became a lifeless pile on the ground. Finally after all Spike's battles it had come to this , inside his room with a razor , alone after it all

Alone.

Bridge:
I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

The Door flung open.

But Spike was to far gone to even care or notice. The abyss that was death's first act was upon Spike. Only moments ago it had hurt , now Spike felt nothing , now Spike heard nothing , there was only the thick veil of comfort and coolness. Spike was in a far away place , like a waiting room where he was sure Julia would meet him and then it'd be happily ever after.

Yet there was something tugging at his heart , it sounded like a plea. Spike tried to push it away and dived even farther into the darkness but it tugged more like a leash. Even in his far away place Spike couldn't ignore the warmth of another's body against his. Spike didn't want to know who only how to make them go away. But their voice pleaded him and begged him . They wanted him to wake up.

Wake Up ?

Wake up to what. A broken world that had deceived him , a world that had broken his spirited more than once. A world that hated him , a world absent of love or mercy .

Except her mercy.

Except her love.

Spike had never taken the time to look. To see what was in front of his eyes. Faye. Faye had never deceived or emotionally pushed him beyond what her motives called for. She was the face Spike woke to when he was harmed. Faye had been there. Julia was lie and broken Spike countless time with her lied to forsake Vicious and love him. Beyond Spike's blindness there was love. There was love that was waiting . Yet Spike had nearly kept himself handicapped and ran into the arms of his murder , both in life now in death.

Now in that Far off Place Spike was fighting and wanting to call out ,to call out that one name he now knew was true.

"Faye."

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I hate this Chappie. But I like a lot of the lines and I out in.

Yeah , well I am going to San Francisco tomorrow from this two week art program , it should be a helluva a lot fun. Yeah anyway I don't know when I 'll update again so gimme lots of Review and I'll HURRY !

My B-day was really cool , I got an I-Pod I fucking LOVE that thing !

But about tomorrow. I am nervous about getting on the plane , I know I've been flying all my life and everything but , I am still a lil nervous , don't know why though. Maybe it's just PMS.

Anyway…

Chou !