Okay kiddies. This the last chapter yall better give me hella reviews. Nothing big to say.
Oh THE lemon is kind really graphic so , if you can't deal don't read it.
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Every night of the previous week Faye had cried herself to sleep. She hated herself for not being able to be at Spike's side , but Jet was right. She had to let Spike go. He had to help himself . Yet every night it ate away at her soul. Like some hideous monster was ripping out her heart little by little and nibbling at her core.
As pitiful as it seemed Faye couldn't turn her back on him . Even though she knew damn well to love a man like Spike Spiegel was no better than to knock on the devil's door. Jet had explained it to her, she had tried to aid Spike now it was in his hands. But as reasonable as it was it didn't make any sense . Love never did.
Especially a love like Faye's , devoted and loyal until the bitter end . Faye would walk unto the ends of earth, time, life and death for Spike's sake and ask nothing in return other than his happiness. Her love poured from the soul. It was the kind of love that was crazy beautiful. Like a star it shines and glimmers with unearthly beauty.
But the brightness of Faye's heart was hampered by a thick veil of grief. She curled in a ball on the motel bed , knees solidly tucked to her chest. She rose only to bath and eat, then returned to her bower of sadness. Her thick red curtains remained permanently closed, she cursed the sun for all it stood for. Happiness.
Try as she may she could not move on without Spike, in her life. Faye knew she couldn't follow Jet's example. After he was assured Spike would live and be forced in mandatory rehabilitation , he turned for the door. Even though Faye understood the logic of the method , let Spike take care of himself , she didn't respectful.
In a way it was the ultimate irony , all her life Faye had drifted in and out of people's lives. She turned her back on them before they could abandon her. And now , There was Spike who Faye could not walk away from. She knew that even if she somehow over came the grief of losing Spike , there would always be a aching hole that no man or drug could fill.
Faye buried her head deep inside the soft downy pillow , hoping they would guard her from the thought of such a future. In her mind's eyes was a mental image of Spike confined to his' hospital bed , the leather arm straps robbing him of the freedom he held so dear. His' complexion pale and sticky.
How could she turn her back on him ? All she could do was let wave after wave of sobs rack through body as she cried out his name over and over again.
" Please , Spike don't leave me here all alone."
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Max walked in the room holding his breathe , hoping with all his might that Spike was asleep. Carefully he walked in room balancing a tray full of bandages and wound cleansers. His sea foam green med outfits was a stark contrast to the white colors of the room.
" Thank God."
Spike lay feigning sleep as Max creep closer and closer to the bed. He was excepting one of the female nurses but this medical student was more than me could have hoped for. Max was a stick figure compared to Spike's lanky from. Spike would be done with him , with little more than one punch. But Spike was counting on Max's inexperience.
Over the week he had picked up that the real nurses never undid his leather arm and leg straps , but the interns…
Max breathed easy checking Spike's heart machine just to clear he really was asleep. Then he made his first and last mistake. Trying to be gentle Max cut the bandages off Spike's right arm and then , thinking it would be quicker and easier to wrap the arm if he undid strap, allowed his long slender fingers to undo the buckle.
All Spike needed was that. As soon as he felt the absence of hard fabric on his now raw skin he sprung into action , swinging his right fist hard in the teenager's face. Max's blue eye's were wide with shock as his nose broke in at least three places. The poor child didn't even have a chance to scream before he was a out-cold heap on the floor.
Spike ignored that small body on the floor as he made quick work of the rest of the straps that had locked his body the bed for the past week. His entire body felt sick for the sudden and straining movement . The gashes that laced his right arms looked ghastly . The cuts were swollen but no longer bleeding unstoppably but only trickle thin lines down Spike's hand. Were the leathers strap been was now raw and irritated skin.
But Spike ignored it all he had only one goal , one purpose in his life , get to Faye and confess. If she refused to come to him he would go to her . The thought ran over and over again Spike's mind as he viciously jerks two IV tubes out of each arm and wiping the blood away with his fist. Slowly Spike managed to walk over to Max and strip him of his clothing and exchange the garments for his own.
Now was the hard part.
In normal condition , Spike would have been able to lift Max with little effort but now it took at least five minutes for Spike to drag the boy over to the bed and prop his body to appear as his. Out of breath and panting Spike noticed with mild annoyance his unbandaged was beginning to bleed harder. Moving with urgency Spike snatched a bandage and shuffle out the door. The halls were dark , the only light was emmited by the gentle glow of the emergency lights.
Much to Spike's relief it seemed as though the only people left were janitors and a few nurses . Spike walked catlike to the end of the halls and look out into the loby. Lady Luck was in his favor, the nurse seemed to have disappeared for the moment , leaving the file room unattended. Quiet as a church mouse Spike slipped and inside and after a short search found his file . Wasting no time Spike thumbed to the Contacts page and found his target:
Faye Valentine
Residence : Venus' Angel Hotel , Room 2327
Relation to Patient: Family.
A rare smile grace's Spike thin but still strikingly handsome face and as he placed the file back in it's proper place and then slipped out of the hospital and off to find Faye.
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Back with Faye like 45 minutes later.
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There was a knock at her door. It was loud and harsh , interrupting the disturbing silence that had ruled unchallenged in Faye's room
Still laying in her fetal position , she lifted her head to look over her shoulder at the heavy wooden.
"Go Away!"
Her voice was half groan half yell but their was no mistaking the distress and tears . Faye allowed her head to flop down on the pillow prepared to let herself spiral back down into her personal well of grief she had become so familiar with. Yet the rapping on her wooden persisted, becoming more urgent by the second . Faye rolled over on to her soft belly and place a pillow over her head , as though the knocking would cease.
" Please , stop."
As if by command , the violent knocks on her door stopped. They were replaced by a soft yet firm voice laced with exhaustion.
" Faye … I have to tell you…"
Faye threw with body off the mattress and raced to the door swinging it open with sudden strength , that she had not felt for days. Now even thinking to cover her body , only dress in boy cut underwear and white camisole with a black bra lying underneath.
The voice was Spike's. As long as she lived she would never forget the sound of his voice. Even though he sounded winded and beaten down with exhaustion she would always hear his voice no matter what.
Spike almost took a step back when Faye opened up the door. Her once vivid emerald eyes , now ached with despair , hope flashing through her eyes as she took in his figure. And what a sight Spike must be. Dressed in a green Scrub outfit and ill fitting shoes.
His bandages bloodied through due to his efforts of escape. Rough hairs had grown on Spike's face making him look even more intense. Spike's mane of thick dark locks was messier than ever . But Faye didn't care , he was here. In the flesh , less than a arm's length away from her. His appearance still gaunt but she could see the dim flame in his eyes were a enferno had once been.
"Why?"
Her placed her hand on the door frame to keeping her from falling , that sounds was heaven to her ears. This was the moment she had been dreaming of , getting to see Spike again. There was so much her heart yearned to say , but no way she could express with mere words. And Even if she could she wouldn't allow herself to , she had walk away from Spike. Let him take care of himself , no matter how much her heart begged. It was best for both of them.
" Why what Spike ?"
Her voice betrayed her , holding a whimper showing her weakness. Faye bit her bottom lip and tried to avoid his eyes , knowing if she looked they would be no turning back. She knew exactly what he was asking , why she had broken her unspoken promise. Faye had broken it because , she knew that loving Spike was killing her inside , that Spike had to stand for himself.
" You know what Faye. "
Slowly Spike advanced , closing the distance between them and stepping across the threshold and into Faye's domain. Trying to escape his intoxicating Faye turned her back on him and strided to her unmade bed collapsing upon the mountain of pillows. Her unbridled hair formed a halo around her head as she stared at the ceiling . Ever aware of Spike moving around the room finally stopping at her chester drawer , keeping his back to her.
" Why did you leave me ?"
Faye grimaced as she felt the first hot tears slide down her cheek, straining to keep her voice unwavering Faye closed her eyes tightly shut. If she was ever to be free of Spike he had to know the truth. Or at else Faye believed to be the truth , when in fact she never wanted to be free of Spike.
" I couldn't stay …I couldn't see you like that it was too much."
It was lied and they both knew it.
" I couldn't stop thinking about you. Every day in the fucking hospital bed Faye , all I could think about was you, how I had to get here to tell you."
Faye lifted herself off the bed , her heart trembling with her step.
" Tell me what."
Spike turned to face her , his eyebrows stitched close together , eyes wide open and searching her face. Drinking how beautiful Faye was , both inside and out. She had offered him her heart for so long , now Spike could only pray he wasn't too late. They consequences for both Spike and Faye would most likely prove fatal.
" I am in love with you. I really am a fuckin idiot to almost miss I girl like you. I don't know why I couldn't see it before now, I don't deserve you. But you do deserve to know the truth. I'll walk away if you want me…"
Faye 's heart flutter in her chest , her hands had somehow flown to Spike's face , gently cupping his cheeks.
" Don't leave."
Soft tears slide gently down her cheeks . So this was how it would end , all in all , Her and Spike two broken souls finding one another in all the debris of their fallen lives.
Faye without a past and Spike without a future. All they had was each other and their present lives to cling to. Merging their broken pieces together to make a full picture.
" I won't."
Faye let a ghost of a smile grace her lips before standing on her very tip toes to place a soft chaste kiss upon Spike's lips. The brief contact set chills jolting through both their bodies . Faye sighed in relief as Spike's wounded yet still strong forearms slid around her waist line and pull her close to his body . His mouth gently encased hers to find a open invitation to his tongue. Faye's heart pounded so hard she feared Spike would hear it's beating , but he was to busy exploring her hot mouth with his bold yet delicate tongue.
All the rules and borders of the world slipped away in their kiss. Faye moaned into Spike as his hand found it's way to her breast rubbing her nipple into a hard mound of flesh that begged to be stroked in sweet oblivion . Even through her camisole and bra , Faye was sure he could feel her body calling for him. But Faye was too busy burying her hands in Spike's lush mane of hair and messaging his scalp and soothing his mouth with her own tongue to care.
Faye had wanted this ever since she first meet Spike , to feel the safety of his arms holding her , his arousal begging for her , his mouth conquering her entire body , his love. But she had never excepted the bounty hunter to be such a sensual lover , handling her curves as she were a piece of fine art. Yet what took Faye by surprise the most was the overwhelming sadness in Spike's kiss as though asked her forgive with both his words and the actions of both body and mouth.
Finally Spike broke the kiss to gently guide Faye backwards to the bed keeping one arm possessively around her waist , using the other to ease their bodies down on the matress. Once she was down Spike lowered himself over her supporting his weight with his arms ignoring the pain, that shot through his arms. Faye must have read his mind for she lifted her thighs to grasped Spike by the waist and quickly flip him over.
Careful not to sit on Spike's hard manhood , she balanced on his slender waist line. Faye slowly worked the thin paper-like green shirt over Spike's head and flung the material to the floor , allowing her hands to roam over Spike chest , taunt with fluid muscle. She made a trail of kissed from his elegant neck to just below his navel. Spike lay softly moaning under her his arms outstretched to either side of his body. His eyes were glazed with his passion , but he remind alert of every muscle Faye even twitched.
Slowly Faye kissed her way back up to Spike face gingerly stroking his cheek with one hand while the other rested on his belly. He trembled from the anticipation.
" Is this real ?"
Spike's voice was as hazy and soft as his face , as though he too had been dreaming of this moment . Where on the battle field of their lives , Spike and Faye could simply lay down their weapons and come together as they should be.
" Yes."
Faye breathed the words in Spike's ear as she embedded one hand in Spike's dark tresses , causing a light moan to spill from his full supple lips. With the other hand she captured on of Spike's hands and placed in the space between her breast. The haze slightly clearing from Spike's eyes he looked in her eyes searching. Faye smiled in response , as he splayed is fingers over her chest , as though he was measuring his heart.
" Yes , Spike it's real."
Spike blinked and sighed , not out of exhaustion but relief to finally know. Commanding his muscles to work Spike pulled his torso up into a sit position , Faye resting in his lap legs on either side of him. Drawing his hand away from her breast Spike let both hands trail slowly down to where he white camisole ended. Kissing the small canyon between Faye's breast he lifted the shirt over her head , letting the fabric sail to the carpeted floor. Spike drank in the beauty of Faye's full chest and porcelain stomach exposed to him. He had seen Faye in clothes similar to the barely there lingerie she wore now , but she full beauty was never examined by him until now.
Smiling delicately Spike , gazed into Faye's eyes, vision was only permitted between the two by the passionate red light case over the room by heavy drapes. Drapes that shut the world out.
Faye's body hummed as Spike's slender fingers danced over her back . Traces circles and lines with his hands. His lips kissed lines of hot fire over her belly , which she bared to him by leaning back into his strong arms. His muscles bugled , supporting Faye with little effort. All the pain in his wounds was gone. Faye's touch numbed the agony and gave life to only feelings of love and peace within Spike.
He wanted to return the feeling. With practiced grace , Spike unhooked Faye's black bra, lifting the fragile material over her shoulders and down her arms, letting his touch linger along with his eyes. Faye's breast with bare before like to perfect ivory circles and dark nipples in the center of each. Showing admiration ,
Spike worshiped one at a time. His teeth nipping them to aroused perfection , cautious not to lead Faye too far before , soothing the unbearable need with his hot mouth. His rough hands caressed and stroked each breast with passionate vigor. Faye cried out his name , making his heart leap every time she did. The sound was like a gentle song in Spike's keen ears. Her voice aroused him enough more , Spike quivered with wanting as he claimed her mouth. Their tongues dancing , until Spike broke lose of the kiss only to begin a path of ecstasy down Faye's neck. Her back arched, offering Spike all she held.
He did not miss the opportunity to thoroughly kissed her before Faye pushed him back onto the bed. Her hair becoming a halo around her face as she trailed her tongue on Spike's torso until the fabric of his pants stopped her from continuing . Spike's pulse quickened and his breath grew heavy , struggling to keep his desire bridled. Faye nails played across his V- Line , Spike arched up his back further inviting the contact.
" Faye…"
His voice sounded ragged and strained .
Faye placed a kiss right above his groin and smiled into his skinned. She wasn't done bringing his manhood to the brink of release. Ever so gently Faye brought down Spike's pants to the very tip of revealing his bulging manhood. Lower her body more , Faye's lips rested on Spike's smooth flesh directly above his nether region. She began to hum on the sensitive flesh. Almost immediately Spike's body went rigid , then trembled furiously . Faye continued humming listening to Spike's already hard breathing shift into ragged gasps for air. The vibrations her voice sent streaming through Spike's manhood , pushed him over the edge. Spike gave up his battle trying to conceal his pleasure , soft moans escaping his throat.
Faye stopped humming , pulling her body over Spike's to purr next to her ear , enjoy the feeling of his rock hard groin quiver next to her thigh.
" I want you Spike."
Those words unleashed a carnal energy in Spike that would have exploded the room. With one easy motion, Faye lay under him , moaning with pleasure as him now cupped her sex in his hands , rubbing her to the edge of climax. Spike stopped his messaging after Faye reached her first climax. She body shake with the aftermath of her orgasm. Tenderly Spike lifted her lower back to rid her body of the delicate underwear. Faye lay under him , naked , eager for his body to be truly connected with her. As though Spike could read her mind , his pants and underwear , became another decoration on the floor.
Finally Spike slipped his hips between Faye's thighs and pushed forward until the very tip of his manhood teasing her opening.
Faye groaned in wanting , fighting the urge to cry out.
" Spike."
Her words set Spike aflame as he plunged into Faye body , causing her to moan and pull his lips upon hers in a heated kiss. Their lips and tongues danced to the rhythm of Spike's strong thrust while Faye' body equal every push for a pull. Faye buried her face in Spike name , suckling and nipping his skin all the while , his sex surrounded her , his sweet smell of sandalwood drowning her in desire. Spike lost himself in Faye's heat , thrusting and thrusting until his lungs demanded he breath. He breathed in the heady scent of arousal as he went rigid with the coming climax. Burying his head in her midnight hair, Spike moaning , feeling his body spill into Faye. He pulled Faye with him , her climax following closely to his.
Still breathless from their exhilarating union , Faye lay docile in beside Spike , their hands together. Never had anyone awoken the emotion and feeling that Spike and Faye stirred in one another.
The moments passed quietly between the two. Both soaking in the promise their bodies had pledged to one another. No matter how many other they may lay with , it would always be with one another when they found true ecstasy
Though Spike and Faye still had miles to go and doubtless turmoil to overcome. They would no other be alone. The sadness that had shackled Spike for his entire life would now be waned by every kissed that passed between them. The emptiness that clawed at Faye would be filled each time she embraced Spike.
Their journeys were not by a long shot , but no longer would each journey alone.
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OMG! A happy ending , don't just love me. Personally I love how this is written I think these last few chapters have been brillant … maybe I should type on my laptop more often.Yeah , it's been awesome writing this story.
I really enjoyed developing the plot and the romance. I do well on angst storys. Hate to tell yal but their will be no sequel I think just like ' First Cut is the deepest" it's a awesome story , I am not going to risk sullying it with a half ass sequel. Yeah but any way . BIG shout out to all my reviewers I LOVE YOU GUYS!
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