Chapter 6:

Both Sirius and Lily gawped at the objects provided by the room, then Lily suddenly blushed a deep red and slowly made her way over to the bed. Once there she looked at Sirius and said, "Oh my God, this is so embarrassing-" but before she could finish she was cut off by Sirius.

"Shit, Lily I'm so sorry, I can't believe that…wait a minute what were you saying?" Sirius had suddenly noticed the shocked look on Lily's face and then comprehension dawned on both of their faces. The answer was obvious, they had both been thinking the same thing when entering the Room of Requirement. This revelation shocked both of them into silence, but not for long.

"So, what does this mean?" Lily looked over at Sirius eager for a rational explanation to their thoughts, but all she got in reply was a shrug and a small shake of his head.

After a few more moments of heavy silence Sirius turned towards Lily and did something that shocked Lily more than anything that had happened over the previous couple of days, he laughed.

Angry, Lily demanded, "What the hell is so funny?"

Sirius looked into her eyes, flashing with confused rage and could not help but laugh all the more. He quickly sobered up when he received a hard blow to the back of the head. Once he had his laughter firmly under control Sirius explained to a furious Lily.

"Think about it for a moment, Lils. We've both been given terrible news, so we run for the one person who we know will help us and then what do we do? We sleep together, probably the only thing that could make the situation worse, 'cos now whatever we do, tell him the truth or hide it from him we've both totally fucked up the relationships we had with him. Once we figured that out, we tried to figure out the right thing to do now and we end up wanting to repeat the action that got us in this mess in the first place!"

When he broke off he looked up at Lily and realized she was crying, but the tears were of silent laughter rather than crying.

"Oh my God Sirius, your right!" And with this she collapsed on the bed in fits of laughter. After a while both of them managed to control themselves and sat up. The tension in the room had eased considerably and Lily felt more comfortable asking the necessary question, "So, what are we going to do now?"

"I don't know, do you want to tell him?"

At this Lily looked straight at Sirius, "Tell him what? That we slept together, is that all there is to tell him?

Sirius was confused by this, "What else is there to tell him?"

"What else? If we tell him what happened, the first question he's going to ask is if there was anything behind it, or of it was a one time thing."

Sirius looked at Lily as if she was crazy, "Well the answer to that is obvious, it only happened once so that's what we'd tell him!"

"Sirius! Look around us, we both wanted it to happen again when we entered this room! So what does that mean? Do you have…erm…deeper…feelings for…well for me?"

'Do you? Have feelings for me I mean not for you obviously, "With this Sirius broke off abruptly, a hint of colour rising in his cheeks.

Lily closed her eyes and took a deep breath then, very quietly and with her eyes still closed she said, "I don't know."

A flicker of hope spread through Sirius as Lily's words registered, "Well, how can you be sure?"

"Kiss me"

These words made Sirius's eyes widen with shock. Apparantly they had taken Lily by surprise too as she quickly opened her eyes.

"W-what?" Sirius stammered, completely caught off guard.

Lily closed her eyes again and took a deep breath. When she opened her eyes this time there was a determined glint in them and she repeated, "Kiss me."

Sirius didn't need to be told again. Leaning forwards he slipped, one hand around Lily's neck, and pulled her gently towards him. Their eyes met and Lily felt her breath catch in her throat. Then their lips met. After a few moments Sirius pulled away and asked, "Well? Anything?" But before he had even asked, he knew the answer from the relieved look on Lily's face…she obviously hadn't felt what he had.

Lily smiled and shook her head, "Nope nothing, well that's something at least!" She was too caught up by her relief to notice the look of disappointment on Sirius's face.

However, the happy feeling Lily was experiencing did not last for long. She realized that they hadn't resolved the major issue…whether they tell James or not. Turning her face towards Sirius she noticed the serious expression on his face. "Yeah I know," she said in a soft voice.

Sirius looked at her in surprise, She knows! Shit what do I say now?

But he didn't have to worry for too long as Lily carried on, "Do we tell James about the other night or not?"

Silently Sirius heaved a sigh of relieve, she didn't know, or even appear to suspect how he felt about her. Realising that Lily was waiting for a response he forced a smile onto his face and replied. "Well, I don't think we should tell him-"

Lily interrupted him, "Yeah you're right, I mean what good will it do? He'll only get upset and think that there's something going on with us, which of course there isn't!"

Sirius felt like he had been punched in the stomach, but instead of showing this, he forced himself to laugh, "Yeah that's right. Of course there isn't anything going on, that kiss just proved that we feel absolutely nothing for each other and obviously the other night was just a stupid mistake!" Speaking those words caused him so much pain, but he didn't let it show.

Lily smiled, "Right, so we won't tell him. Agreed." With this she rose from the bed and said, "Well now we've got all the sorted, I'm going to go and find Mia." At the door she turned around and asked, "You coming?"

Sirius looked up at her and shook his head, "No, I'm gonna stay here for a while."

Lily gave him an odd look and then shrugged, "All right, see you later then." Then, flashing him a smile she left the room, leaving behind a dejected Sirius alone on the bed.

Sirius POV

How could she not have felt that? I know I wasn't imagining it, she definitely kissed me back…didn't she?

Just outside the Room of Requirement, Lily leant against the wall, fighting back bitter tears. She'd managed to keep a smile on her face whilst with Sirius, but the pain was too much now she was on her own. She'd lied to Sirius when she claimed she hadn't felt anything, but she knew that was the right thing to do. This way she and James could go on as normal and it had been obvious that Sirius hadn't felt anything when they kissed, otherwise why did he pull away? Sure she had done the right thing, but heart broken all the same by the blatant rejection, Lily pulled herself together and walked back to the Gryffindor common room.

Hey guys! Sorry I haven't updated in soooooooo long! My computer crashed and then when I got it up and running again I couldn't remember where I had been going to take the story, so sorry if this chapter isn't as good as the others! But it is longer so that should make you happy right? Well anyhow I'm gonna try and update either later today or tomorrow and get on to the interesting part of the story, I know it's dragging a bit right now!

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