I don't own the Inu Yasha Characters Rumiko Takahashi does. You know that, I know that. So there!

Hika-chan: Sorry it took so long just to get the other half of this chapter. First week of classes and all. That and I'm debating starting a web-comic.. but I need to develope more story line for that too and I felt sort of tapped out even though I know where this is going and paying for tuition and.. arrrgh! you get the idea right?

There's been a slight time descrepancy created as I realized I wanted to move the time table up a bit. So Kagome and the others were at Sesshoumaru's about 9 days (instead of 2) before the "incident" in the garden k?

Once In A Blue Moon
An Inu Yasha Fanfic by Hika-chan
Chapter 8: Departure

Inu Yasha sat slumped against the wall, a stunned and distant look on his face. His brother wasn't right was he? He didn't like that stuck up feathered snob of a hanyou did he? He shook his head and narrowed his eyes. No. Sesshoumaru probably just told him that to get his mind off of...

A growl emmited from his throat as he thought of what Sesshoumaru had shown him by way of telling him. He kissed Kagome! And what was worse, she... well she did look angry about it, but not in the "right way." She was angry that he kissed her infront of them, not because he had kissed her period. That bitch! he thought before immediately reprimanding himself for thinking of Kagome like that. Sesshoumaru had stollen her right out from underneath his nose. Reluctantly he thought back at the moment he saw them kiss, a surge of emotion had rushed through him, shock, denile, rage, loss. He had wanted so much to look away, especially when for a second Kagome had closed her eyes and kissed him back. But he could not, he had been rooted to the spot by some unknown force within him. Something that said, "You have to see this. You have to know, and accept."

It was then he realized that must have been how Kagome felt some two months ago (or when was it really?) when she had seen him and Kikyou in the forest. Surprisingly he realized he had reacted as she did. Not wanting to confront or accept the situation right away, he had run.

Just like she had done.

He bowed his head and sighed. Then again anger flowed through him. Anger at his brother and himself. And Kagome? he wasn't sure what he felt towards her now. Hate? Never, he would never hate her. Betrayal... quite possibly. But what did she betray? His friendship? Falling in love with another man was not a betrayal of friendship, it was a betrayal of something more. Something he realized he thought they had, or could have had. Am I really that stupid? Niether of them had ever really acted on it, he should have but... but it was too late now. Now he knew what he felt for Kagome, loss, he lost her in a way he never he had.

These thoughts and emotions had slowly progressed through Inu Yasha over a few hours. And in no way did they come in such an organized fashion as presented here. He spent a good deal of his time focusing on being angry, he was comfortable with that, angry with his brother, with himself. But when his thoughts came to Kagome the anger would fizzle out. He had just come to the conclusion of how he was alone again, but not alone, when a familiar scent approahed followed by her entrance into the dojo.

She looked around the dojo, it wasn't nearly as neat as it usually was. In fact if one were to pick one word to describe it they would likely choose "trashed." Apparently Inu Yasha had seen fit to take out some of his physical frustrations out on the training room and the objects within it."-hmph- What happened to you?" She asked rudely.

He looked up at her, as though confirming her identity then turned his head away and down, closing his eyes. "Go away bird."

Hikaru blinked, then grinned somewhat, "You've been brooding." she stated plainly. "Does put you in a mood to spar?"

He shot his gaze in her direction, glaring, "Look I want to be alone. Go away." She seemed a bit taken aback, but not offended, nor did she move. Suddenly what his brother had said eariler came to mind again. He studied her face a moment. Being a hanyou she looked nothing like Kikyou or Kagome. Her features were more angular and while her eyes were narrower than both girls' her crimson irises were large, taking up most of her eyes similar to a bird's. Her eyes were lined with black, a natural part of her facial marks, and several lines came off of the corner of each eye curling both up and down with the curves of her face. Her ears were also pointed, for a moment he was amazed how she had gotten different demonic aspects from her father, vaugly wondered how different every hanyou was. Though the red tuft on her bangs reminded him of Kagome's now blue streaks there was little else that reminded him of either woman. Judging by her appearance she was probably about his age if one didn't count the fifty years he spent stuck to a tree. Which put her in her late second or early third decade. Finally he took his eyes from her, "Look I'm not in the mood."

"Fine," she shrugged she turned to leave then stopped, "Oh Sesshoumaru-sama wanted me to let you know that he would be leaving around noon. In case you were interested."

Inu Yasha made no response as she left the dojo.

***

They would arrive tomorrow. Sesshoumaru and his little entourage of whoever he decided to bring along with him. The entire castle was abound with servants making preparations for his arrival. Kuroinu remained in his quarters, not wanting to deal with the lesser youkai and humans that ran about in the hall. They would arrive soon and Kuroinu would soon find out a means to humiliate or manipulate Sesshoumaru.

***

Dammit, I was hoping the idiot wanted to fight. She thought, It's the only thing he seems to be good at anyway. Hikaru ran a hand through her feathered hair, the full moon was fast approaching and her mind always wandered to places she didn't want it to in those times. The fighting kept her mind off it. She was cursed with her memory of that day, even if she was only eight at the time. She shook her head to try and dispel the thoughts again. She didn't know why she tried that, it never worked before.

***

"Kagome?" He found her in the library again, nestled in the same corner reading.

She looked up and smiled at him, "Hello Sesshoumaru. How're things coming along?"

"As far as preparations? Fine." He held his hand out to her to help her stand. She closed her book and put her hand in his. She seemed a bit lighter than he remembered beacuse when he pulled her up, she was all but thrown into his arms. She laughed a little at the 'ride'. "Kagome," he asked quietly when her laughter subsided, "Will you be mine? Only mine, now and forever?"

She blinked, a little shocked at his proposal, to her that's what it sound like, what it was. "I'll have to think about it," she said hesitantly, afraid that not giving an immediate answer would push him away. "But how about I'm yours at least until you get back?"

He smiled at her, lowering his face until his lips met hers. "I guess that will have to do. But tonight I want you to tell me about your world."

She looked at him confused, "Tonight? But I thought you were leaving today."

"I am, you just have to remember to go to sleep," he grinned, watching the realization dawn on her face.

"Sesshoumaru?"

"Hmm?"

She lifted her right hand next to her face. "What does this ring do?"

He smiled knowingly, "It helps me protect you." Was all he said.

***

"Maa.. everyone seems to be brooding today," Yuki muttered, sitting on the large rock in the middle of the garden. Hikaru had passed by not to long ago, obviously deep in thought about something. "Even Rin-chan's all pouty today because Sess-chan's leaving her here."

"Yuki-sama?" The pale woman looked down at the child then smiled.

"Yes Rin-chan?"

"Why is Rin's Sesshoumaru-sama leaving me here? I want to go with him!"

Her smile grew slightly, which made the girl a little confused. Rin was as good as a daughter to Sesshoumaru, she was sure he knew it, though she didn't know if he admitted it. She reached down with her tail and picked the girl up and placed Rin on her lap. "Do you really want to know why he's not taking you Rin-chan?"

"He told you?"

Yuki shook her head, "He didn't tell me, but I know him well enough." She grinned, "We both know he'd never say it but he doesn't want you going with him because he cares about you."

"I don't understand."

"Yes you do, you're a smart girl. When Sesshoumaru leaves you anywhere what does he say?"

"That he might fight."

"And he doesn't want you there because..."

Rin thought a moment, "Because Rin... I might get hurt if I go?"

"That's right." Yuki smiled brightly tapping a clawed finger on her nose for emphasis. "So that means he doesn't want you hurt because..."

"Because Sesshoumaru-sama cares about me!" She smiled widely showing her teeth. Then her face twisted in thought, ".. is Sesshoumaru-sama going to fight?"

Yuki seemed to take a moment to think, more for effect than actual time to think. "Not really, but he is going somewhere where not all youkai like him, and it is possible that they would try to hurt you. If you go with him you will be in danger." Rin's eyes widened her face obviously expressing "ohh..." Yuki smiled and reached out to tickle the child. "Rin-chan I just can't believe how CUTE you are!"

***


Kagome was amazed at Sesshoumaru's attitude change when other people were around. Aside from his little display that morning he was pretty much the "old" Sesshoumaru infront of the others. The last of the details were being taken care of right now, they would leave within the next fifteen minutes she guessed. She watched as Makumba hitched the cart onto Ah-un, Sesshoumaru's dragon mount.

Earlier he had told both Yuki and Hikaru stay behind with them. Yuki knew the reason for it. He feared for both Rin and Kagome. While Inu Yasha was admittedly strong, she knew her brother would not put his faith in the hanyou sibling. She, like Kagome, was observing the last of the packing. But unlike the girl she was watching with a purpose. She studied the auras of the youkai that were to be travelling with her brother, feigning intrest in the things they were tying to the cart. She would occasionally make remarks like "Shouldn't that go on top?" and "Why are you bringing that?"

But inwardly she cursed, Damn.. all she saw was loyalty, but seeing that didn't tell her who they were loyal to. Of course deception usually showed up in one form or another. She had a bad feeling since Sesshoumaru told her of his dream last night. She was almost convinced that one of her brother's servants was going to betray him. Afterall one had to believe one close to them before they would feel betrayed. She was all but positive that Jaken was not the culprit, but other than that... well she didn't know the other servants so well. Chikusho! I'm not getting anywhere this way! Either I'm being blocked somehow or the betrayer is not in this castle. Uncle perhaps? Eh... maybe.. maybe not. Hidden in the fluffiness of her tail, which rivaled Sesshoumaru's, her fingers traced an arcane symbol.

"Jaken." She called telepathically by virtue of the spell.

The toad jumped slightly from his posistion near Ah-un. He turned a moment to look at his master's pale older sister, before averting his gaze at the brief almost imperceptible glare she cast him. "Hai Yuki-sama?"

While he was admittedly annoying Jaken had made a habit of knowing where everything belonged and when certain things occured, no matter his halting and stuttering manner of relaying the information. "Jaken in the last few months has anyone other than Sesshoumaru recived or sent any messages or packages?"

The short youkai lowered his head a moment in thought. "I do not believe so Yuki-sama."

"Who handles most of the messages and has anyone left?"

"Sesshoumaru-sama usually has Makumba handle them since she is the fastest. Sometimes Youtei handles them. And Makumba did leave somewhere about three months ago."

"Is this a usual occurance?"

"Hai Yuki-sama. Once or twice a year she visits her parents."


Yuki blinked. That seemed... odd for a youkai, but if she remembered correctly Makumba and her family were a bit different due to their forgien origins. "Before then when was the last time she went to visit them?"

"She was overdue for one according to her. It has been nearly two years since her last."

"That is all Jaken."
Unless this plan was made years ago in contingency to Sesshoumaru finally becoming under consideration... dammit. "Sesshoumaru."

She could almost feel his irritation. "Yuki I told you never to do that again."

She grinned. "No you never told me to never again read your mind that time. This is just talking to your mind and you know it."

"What do you want?"

"Those you are taking with you, do you trust them?"


He didn't think long. "Yes. Should I not?"

Yuki sighed mentally, "That I am still trying to determine."

"Well when you get something more solid to tell me you let me know,"
Sesshoumaru replied before severing the mental connection.

Yuki blinked then grinned slightly, Still as bossy as ever.

***


Hikaru wondered what was going on, like a good portion of the others in the castle she was observing the cart waiting for Sesshoumaru to make his departure. Having the sight of a hawk and a good vantage point from the roof she first noticed the little green youkai jump. There was something odd about his behavior after that, he looked like he was talking... but he wasn't. He had looked in Yuki's direction but if she was the one he was communicating with she hid it much better. The pale youkai's eyes scanned the area like they had before hand. Hmmm... perhaps she knows something is going on?

Her ponderings were cut short after a minute when the Lord of the Western Lands stepped out into the courtyard. Jumping down from her perch she landed not to far from Yuki. Breifly she wondered why Inu Yasha was not present.

"Good luck brother." The dog said to her younger sibling.

Sesshoumaru seemed pleased (though one wouldn't notice unless they knew exactly what to look for) that Yuki had for the most part refrained from calling him by the less-than-appropriate nick names she had for him, at least infront of most of the others. He turned his gaze over to Kagome who was visibly holding herself back from going over to him. He allowed his expression to soften slightly but before he could take a step towards the his blue moon there was a small something wrapped around his legs.

"Sesshoumaru-sama!" Rin wailed her eyes quickly tearing.

He knelt down beside her. "Rin be strong and do not cry."

"But..."

"For me Rin."

The child composed herself somewhat though her lips still sported a pout. "But Ri- I will miss you Sesshoumaru-sama."

"Do not fear for me Rin. I will return." He place a hand on her head in an almost paternal gesture and stood. He turned his eyes to Kagome again, though his expression did not change she could see a smile in his eyes. She blushed and looked down before turning her eyes back up to him and smiling shyly. She knew not to expect any physical form of affection from him at the moment. Any time he was close to her they had always been alone, therefore assumed that where he was concerned private things remained private... Unless he was feeling "mischeivous"; though the very idea of Sesshoumaru being playful like that still seemed odd to her. Inu Yasha and Sango she could possibly see, Miroku and Yuki were definetly types that reveled in mischief, and Shippo.. well he was a fox and a kid.

Sesshoumaru did not take his eyes from her as he told his servants it was time to go. It was an amazing sight really, five full blooded youkai changing into their true forms as Jaken took up the reins of the dragon mount. She brushed her hair back from her eyes as the wind whipped it around. The white golden eyed dog made a quick goodbye glance to Rin, then a final one at Kagome before leaping over the castle wall. Kagome smiled somewhat and wispered to herself, "See you soon."

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It's amazing the amount of stuff they can get done when they wake up early isn't it?

at the request of several of my reviewers (not to mention some real life friends as well o_O) I probably will write a lemon sometime(as soon as I work up the guts). But more than likely I will post it separately (though it will still be part of this story), for those of you who would prefer not to read it.