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Dear Diary
How long has it been since I've written here? Must have been when Sirius and I first started our relationship. Sirius... This new entry within your pages is testament to how bad things have become with him.
I'm scared.
Scared that everything is going to fall apart, I can't take that. I love him I know I do, but does he love me? He treats me like I'm just a thing to be shown off and displayed, I love him but do I really like him? I'm not so sure anymore, there's a void that I never would have expected between those two emotions; you wouldn't think it would you, like and love, so similar and yet so different.
Why is everything suddenly so complicated?
I'm not some girl who clings to her man's arm and giggles at his jokes, who puts out when asked and treats her boyfriend like a God. No I'm not a girl at all, I don't cry and allow myself to be walked all over I know that, I always stand up for my opinions with Sirius, I always thought that he respected that in me.
Was I wrong, does he want me to be like those girls we see?
I just don't know anymore...
Dear diary, I have a feeling that we're going to become quite close in the near future.
Remus.
ps) New job not half bad, Narcissa's sweet, for a Slytherin