Hi! Sami here and I am hoping you will like this next poem! It was kind of about my own feelings in parts of it, but not all. I had the best time at school today, me and my friend went to this place that is forbidden to students, but we went there anyway and it was pitch black and all dark and it was so much fun being there! That was randomness, but it was my much loved randomness, so please forgive me! Read on!
Disclaimer: I don't own YuGiOh, but I own a lot of YuGiOh merchandise, which is listed in my bio!
Beaten bruised in the shadows that tamed me and kept me held while I was a sinner.
I felt like my bones ached though no pain erupted, and in thievery I was a beginner.
The darkness had held me captured, even when I was young, for I was in a curse.
And now it seems all that I care about has been taken from me and carted of in a hearse.
Life just seems so confusing and so empty, no happiness in me, no regrets at all.
Around every single corner there seems to be another who will laugh at me when I fall.
So cruel I seem, but they are crueler, for their spiting and hateful words pierce my heart.
Slowly sinking in their slander, my will; once strong, now suddenly falls apart.
They hit me with their insults; they cannot see the damage, but Ra, it is there.
And my soul has faded, and now I am weak, useless; a pawn who was never aware.
I am possessed by the shadows; they are me, I am them, and that is how it is.
For I am still a mortal; it is only because the shadows are immortal that I am also this.
If the shadows are immortal, that makes me immortal too, for we are connected.
But while I sink into darkness undecidedly, I find that by everyone I am rejected.
Solemn silence fills my heart, no one is ever there to comfort me when I am upset.
Except some that are there to punish me, and throw insults that they will regret.
An epoch has passed, maybe two or three while they have done this repeatedly.
And to tell you the humiliating and aching truth, their anger causes sadness in me.
Why must I be the one to bear this dark burden upon my shoulders forever?
Why me out of millions and billions of people, that rise up against me together?
So as I fade into eternal; darkness that is immortal, like the shadows and me too.
I fall away from my sanity and with me I have decided that I must also take you.
Say goodbye to the light as I did so many millennia ago, and seize the night.
And come with me so you can experience this pathetic way of living I call a plight.
Sighted in the distance is hope, but it is so impossibly far away, so hard to reach.
There is no speck of hope for us though, except in these laws that I constantly breach.
Come away; fly with me to places unknown by any mortal eye and any mortal bone.
Because I hate to bear the darkness and the shadows, when I am forever, eternally alone…
Woah, that ending was rather sad, I guess. Anyway, thanks:
ttSerenity –What was wrong with me? Well, I was just trying to figure out a lot of stuff about my life, and giving myself a reality check about a few things I was in denial about, and I basically feel empty most of the time, but it felt a lot worse on that particular day… No, don't find out anything about Farrer, I was only wondering if you knew anything at all. Don't worry about it, I think I have enough info…well, I hope anyway! Thanks for reviewing, um… genetic enhancing?
Dark Magician Girl Hikaru –I am so pleased you liked it! Yeah, there was a lot of raw emotion in it for me, and most of it was real feelings from me. Yeah, there is a lot of reality to my poems, and I am glad you liked them both! Yeah, my YuGiOh obsession is so intense that I wish for it to be real; sweep me off my feet and away from this empty life I am living now… I am so glad you understand, I thought I was weird! You don't sound like a desperate schoolgirl, and you do know me! Just because you haven't seen or physically met me doesn't mean you don't know me! I consider all my loyal and devoted reviewers my friends, including you! Heck, some of them are friends to me more than my real friends at school! I would never run away from you; I understand and I love to hear your views on these things! Thanks for reviewing!
Stormrose Dewleaf –Wow, we are psychological twins, that is so cool! I have cried to myself a lot over the YuGiOh not being real thing too, but sadly never to sleep, because I am an insomniac and can't sleep until really late at night or really early in the morning. I never plead with them, I know they aren't real, but I am in denial about it. That is what is really harsh about my situation; I know I have a problem, and that they aren't real but I am denying that, and I know I am denying it, so that makes it even worse because I don't believe what I am denying or what I'm not defying. It gets really confusing; I hope you understood some of what I just wrote. True, others have worse problems than you (Like those in Sumatra who just got another earthquake right after the tsunami) but who among them would deserve or want to go to the YuGiOh world as much as us? No one! I am so hoping to be taken away by them, and I have an OC, Sami Yamashima whose life I have planned; I have planned at least seventeen years of her life, and a bit more. Whenever I watch any anime I like, I invent a character that I pretend to be, but with my OC it is different, she has become separate from me, and I am not her anymore, so I pretend to be the voice of her, working on the show, but I am not that person either. It is like there are three of me, but I am stuck living the worst life of all of them. I will try your method, pretending a character is by my side watching over me. Thanks for that! You are a real help! Thanks for reviewing!
If I missed responding to your review, I apologize sincerely!
Love Sami.