Hi everyone! Yay, I am actually prepared to write this time; I started writing a poem on the bus on the way home from school! Yay for boredom on travels! I suppose I'll be very bored on the two hour trip to camp tomorrow, but oh well… I am actually looking forward to camp! Mum got me a black and red sleeping bag with a black pillowcase and yeah! Awesome, black is my fave colour! And at the talent contest I am singing a Missy Higgins song called 'The Special Two'! Anyway, read on!

Disclaimer: I own a lot of merchandise, but don't own the actual YuGiOh!

I used to look upon the world with eyes of wonder; I didn't understand.

But now I know that the world is only a cruel and harsh arid wasteland.

Deaf is this world to my cries, and never again will there be

Any happiness that could ever possibly be directed at me.

I left all my allies behind in that life so long ago; almost forever.

Looking back at it makes me wish desperately that I had never

Done the things I had; affected all those people; my constant affliction.

Will I never escape this cruel and eternally devastating prediction?

Hikari; light, that word brings bitterness to my words and to my lips.

And it kills me so that I don't have any sanity to lose when it finally slips.

Hurt has made me become undone; lies have broken me to the edge.

Now all I need is anger just to push me off that terrifying ledge.

All here watch me fall; I was nothing in their eyes or in their mortal life.

And the rocks below are so sharp, that as I land cut me like a deadly knife.

Nobody ever heard my cries for understanding and a second of compassion.

But then again; for me nobody has ever felt any tiny bit of mere passion.

Only in my dreams is there a morsel of hope that shows me a hole in the dark.

And I grab hold of a light brighter than my Hikari; that sweet, enviable lark.

The light goes out, and the place I had reached for evaporated into thin air.

Suddenly there was nobody but me and the dark standing there.

Before I cried a cry more devastating that the Pharaoh's had once been

When he'd lost his Hikari; that stupid, midget, multicolored teen.

For my light abandoned me, my family went to the past life before me too.

And now I can never believe that any compliments you give to me are true.

Before you judge me, look me in the eye and tell me it is filled with hate.

For I see no evil in these orbs when I face the mirror; at least none to which I relate.

So if you see me sitting in a corner, and I seem to want to be alone just then,

Don't walk on by, and if you ever do, I will still be waiting for that time when

I will shine like an angel, and finally be understood, loved and respected.

And it will be so much easier to forget the times when I had been rejected.

Well, that was poem 50! YES! I cannot believe this fic has hit fifty chapters! I could never have dreamed of that many! I was going to end this at chapter forty, but I didn't thanks to my reviewers and you have all been amazing! I love you all! Thanks:

Anubis –Seemingly pointless? Well, I am going to be as polite as I can, seeing as you are actually a nice flamer. Everyone else who read that thought it was good, and if you would give the rest of the fic a chance, that would be much appreciated. I was rather disappointed by your review, and when you become an author on this site you will understand why, when somebody flames your work. Thank you for the compliments you did give, and also, some people on this site don't know Hikari means light; I never knew until it was written in a fic what the meaning was. Thanks for reviewing!

ttSerenity –Yet another inspiring poem from me? Awesome, just what I wanted to hear! You are so lucky; having so many fanfic net users at your school! No one from my school is! Probably because the majority of people on this site are Americans. Thanks for reviewing, I will always keep dreaming, hope!

Stormrose Dewleaf –Yeah, we all love the Queer Eye because they are just 'oh so fabulous'. I still laugh about the time Carson said 'It's a bundle of dynamite'. That was cool. I don't watch Survivor, because of two reasons: a) It is getting old, as a cheerleader would say "so 2002" and b) I find the whole thing like a very amateur cross between Big Brother and The Assistant. (No, not the Apprentice, the MTV spoof called the Assistant.) As for the camp; it is a year 8 camp, for all the year 8's. You are lucky to have dreams at all; I don't have any dreams because I don't get enough sleep to. It sucks being an insomniac. I wonder if I dreamed, would the YuGiOh people send me dreams? I hope so, because I love them more than the world, and I am their best supporter. But I suppose they wouldn't care about a stupid, obsessive egotist like me. They already have a Seto Kaiba on the show. That lightened the mood for me considerably. Thanks for reviewing!

IMPORTANT NOTICE!

DUE TO CAMP I WILL NOT BE UPDATING FOR TWO WHOLE DAYS!

SEE YOU IN A BIT!

Love Sami.