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2nd day,9th month,standard year 24933
Well, I said that I didn't want to leave, and I really still don't want to.
I heard Mum crying just now, and talking to Dad. I suppose they thought everyone else was asleep, but I wasn't and I heard them.
"Your hear all these stories." she was crying, "about parents who give up their children to the Jedi, and the next they hear of them is a short message saying they're dead. And I know I'm- going to have to let him go back, Ag-Len, and I..I don't want to. Not again."
I feel awful. I never want to cause pain to anyone.
It's really hot. The temperature is nice during the day, but not during the night.
What shall I do? Because it's like a dream here. Everything is so perfect. And I know that it can't really be so wonderful, but...it is my home planet, after all. It's like...I belong here. But I belong with the Jedi as well. And my family loves me, but so do my friends. And I love them both.
I'm not going to get any sleep here.
If I did stay, I would leave behind my friends, and betray the Jedi. Well, sort of. You are actually allowed to leave if you desire that. But it's considered a betrayal by your peers, if not by the Council.
I'll never be able to sleep. I'll leave a note saying where I've gone and go out for a walk.
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3rd day,9th month,standard year 24933
Afternoon. Tomorrow morning we're leaving.
I'll tell you about what happened on my walk, shall I? It was dark and nearing midnight so I took a glow rod and went out. I went down to the river and sat there for ages. Or course I should go back, I am going to go back- but did I really want to? And what if I didn't go back? While I was thinking that, I reached into the water and my hand hit something. It was a rock.
I'd never seen a rock like it before. It was beautiful. And as I turned it over and over in my hands, I realised someone was behind me. I turned around and saw a man standing there.
He was old, with whitening hair. His hood was
up, so I couldn't see much of his face, really only his eyes, which were
very blue.
"What's wrong?" he asked gently.
He was someone I could talk to, I knew that right
away. "I have to make a hard decision." I said, "and I'm not sure what
to do."
He looked at the rock I held in my hand. "I once
had a rock like that. My father gave it to me, and I gave it to my...my
own son. Those rocks are special things. It will help you with the choice
you have to make."
He put his hand on my shoulder, and I said "Thank
you."
"Thank you,too." he said, and walked away.
I think he vanished, because when I turned around
he wasn't there. I felt scared and sad at the same time, and then I went
back to the house.
Which is where I am now.
Rek took me to his room a few minutes ago and searched in a cupboard for something. He eventually pulled out a ring, one exactly like mine, except the stone was brown, not green.
"I have one too." he explained. "Thought you might want to see it, before you leave tomorrow."
I grinned. "Thanks." I said.
"Hold on a minute." he said, and pulled something else out of a drawer. It was a stack of writing paper, all brown, with a green pen. "For you. So you can write to us. Are Jedi allowed to write?"
"Not very often."
"I'll look forward to your letters, anyway."
I caredully packed the present away in my bag. In a few minutes tea will be ready. The last meal I'll have with my family. (We're leaving before breakfast)
I wonder if Master Dooku thinks I eat to much? I hope not.
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